|Start Weight:||(19 Jun 14) 173.0 lb|
|Current Weight:||(06 Jul 15) 205.0 lb|
|Goal Weight:||157.0 lb|
following: Optifast Program
performance: gaining 14.0 lb a week
67 and at the heaviest I have ever been .I have tried diet after diet but didnt stick with it and simply kept gaining. You name the diet and I have tried it. We moved to a retirement community and there is a lot of socializing here. That is what set me off. After I started, I couldn't stop so I reached 194 lbs. On a 5'3' frame that is a lot.
Shopping with a "friend," who said, well , we don't hear much out of you and I said, I'm not seeing much I like. She said, that is because all the cute things are in smaller sizes! And later I said, I have to get a different size blouse and she said "oh, bigger?". Now that is what I call a friend. My feelings were hurt, but I couldn't stop eating.
This winter some friends were here and we went for a hike. I had bronchitis. I tried to go up the hill anyway and just couldn't. I had to stop several times. Then at the top they walked on and I couldn't keep up so I turned back. I don't know if I was more angry or hurt. My reasoning said I am fat, that is why I can't get up the hill. And I was pretty shure they were thinking the same. Anyway I sat down at the picnic tables and sketched while I waited for them to get back. I was angry for a couple hours. That hike gave me pneumonia. It also made me angry enough to change thing.
realizing I can't do it alone, I went to a weight loss clinic. I have been on his eating plan for a month now and I think I am down 10 lbs. I am not so angry. I have stopped being mad at all the people skinnier than I am. I have stopped hating myself. I still have a long way to go. My goal is 160 lbs. I will still be heavy, but that seems like a good place to re-assess. Wouldn't it be fun to get to 120 lbs!
My hobbies are painting, (Pastel and Oil) and Piano. I also sew a little. These hobbie are sedentary. I am toying with giving them up. I used to exercise a lot. Maybe that should be my hobbie.