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Self Esteem, Truth & Temptation.
NowIunderstand wrote:
...I don't think not being truthful can cause loss of self esteem. People lie to themselves all the time to get what they want. They twist the truth around to fit their conscience. They justify their acts with tales.

I agree, and perhaps mainly true of a sociopath.
However I believe that most people UNCONSCIOUSLY will know the truth of what they do. It may show up in nightmares for them, or in their behavior in some way. (Subtle passive aggressive 'jokes' or any number of leaking negatives, visible to others, but not to them.)
AND they may 'project' their behavior on others.
But we all do that, none of us are perfect Smile We all have a Shadow self we are not aware of. This Shadow is the part of our personality that we don't like. But we are NOT consciously aware of.
So instead, we clearly see it in others.
You know: when you see that person that somehow rubs you the wrong way? or one you just can't stand?
They may be exhibiting behavior that mirrors our own Shadow self. Even if our shadow self would never go to their extreme.

My first therapist said: "Our Shadow is mostly pure Gold." Meaning that the behavior we are hidden from, if brought to the light and 'gentled' & used appropriately, can be a gold mine of useful positive energy.

For instance: one of my Shadows is ANGER, but I often can recognize when it happens and gentle it down from rage to just asking questions.
Using the energy of the anger to motivate me to make the call to a person or business, talking calmly instead of heated, and asking them for solutions for my concerns. Or what I had perceived as unjust behavior on their part.

Back to Sociopaths: look it up?
But in brief: they are;
1. likable, charismatic, manipulative.
2. they feel entitled.
3. they have NO remorse.
In fact they are INCAPABLE of feeling remorse or even disgust. That part of their brains have been shown to be completely inactive. (I have no idea if their unconscious is aware of it or not.)
They are also pathological liars, who BELIEVE that they say when they lie.
Sociopaths manipulate using fear, doing EMOTIONAL damage, and they don't care.

Psychopaths are the same, except they go one step further to doing and feeling nothing when doing physical damage to others.

My childhood, like most of us, was not ideal.
Anger is always there below the surface, so I never married. Good choice for me. Smile
But I'm thankful to my cruel father in that he motivated me to try to understand humans, myself, and him.
It's been a lifelong pursuit, and I use Psychology, Astrology, therapy, & countless books, to help me understand humans, and myself.
posted 13 Aug 2014, 12:36
Self Esteem, Truth & Temptation.
Well, thank you for all the responses, ! and keep them coming if you are so inclined. Smile
Need to get to bed, but just want to say:
My mom was a good dad. Good at guiding us, gently correcting us, & always very focused on doing what's right.
She was not, however, loving or delighted with us kids. Never hugged us. Or praised us.
Not complaining, she was my mom and a very very good parent.

My dad was an alcoholic, which came about after a little girl ran out in front of his car on a highway.
He had to carry her broken body back to her parents.
He started drinking. that was before I was born.

He thought he didn't deserve to have kids (My interpretation of his behavior), and we clearly got the message we didn't deserve to eat, or to LIVE.

He critisized us, hit, kicked or whacked us with whatever was at hand.
Once he was drunk and couldn't find his slippers. I was there so he asked where they were. NO idea!
So, he accused me of hiding them.

Took me up to my room, pulled my clothes down, hooked my feet under the bed end, and beat me until he was exhausted using his special strap, thick cow belly, and holes punched in it "to make blisters" he told us.
I was 7 or 8 about then at most.

So, my self esteem came from my SELF.
and it is ALWAYS THERE. never fleeting. Smile

and that is the Truth. Smile
posted 12 Aug 2014, 23:29
Self Esteem, Truth & Temptation.
After reading others posts, and particularly Eddie1261's posts and responses to them;
I've been meditating and came up with: Self Esteem, Truth & Temptation.

I'm a Scorpio, so I'm good at getting to the root of things.

so, think about this:

1. Self Esteem. Where do we get it?

2. Truth. How often do we see it? or Speak it?

3. Temptation. Are we not overwhelmed with this in this modern world?

4. and are question 1 and 2 and 3 closely linked?

I do hold Corporations responsible for most of the Temptations. Which side tracks us and has shifted so many of us into loss of self esteem.

I think Self Esteem can only come from within, from the Self.

Not being truthful can cause LOSS of self esteem.
If we LIE to ourselves, who can we trust!?
Then we look OUTSIDE our self and try to get trust, &/OR supportive feedback that we are a good person? When we don't really believe we are?

Loss of Self Esteem can cause eating disorders. Duh!

I truly believe Self Esteem comes from being Honest, ALWAYS to ourself.
Lie to others if need be, but personally, being honest to myself that I'm LYING to them is very important.

Best way to change our lack of success in losing weight is to shift into ALWAYS being honest with ourself.

Not overdoing exercise;
Not overdoing crash or excessive dieting, like cutting back on too many calories.

With a healthy self esteem we are powerful!
and I'm NOT talking about having a huge powerful EGO.

Healthy self esteem is:
calm, centered, serene.
Smile & as Eddie1261 says: OWN IT. Smile
posted 12 Aug 2014, 15:53
my thoughts after reading others posts: reposting here as well...
LoL, thanks for all the humorous, true, supportive, realistic responses!! Smile

and why not get a copy of that book too? for reference, show to friends?
("Are You Confused?" by Paavo Airola. ) I bet you will love it!

Blessings Smile
posted 07 Jul 2014, 14:34
my thoughts after reading others posts: reposting here as well...
Okay, I'll say what I think, and what works for me.
We need ALL: carbs, fat, protein, AND we need micronutrients, vitamins and minerals that are normally (used to be) in most basic healthy foods.
Cutting out one of the basic three is putting us in an imbalance, & I suspect will have penalties down the road.
I challenge you all to educate yourselves on healthy diets, NOT fad diets, or those that advertise and brag things like "lose 10 Lbs in a week!" or fill in whatever.
LONG AGO, A great help to me was a book called "Are You Confused?"
by Airola, Paavo.
QUOTE: Would You Like to Know... *What is man's best diet for optimal health? *High or Low protein diet-Which is better? *How arthritis and cancer are successfully treated in Europe *The truth about nutrition-sex relationship? *What is the real cause of baldness? *How to fast-and how not to? *Is milk good for your health?

posted 02 Jul 2014, 15:59
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