redgirl1974's Journal, 28 January 2016

I had the worst day ever at work.. and I wont bore you all with the details other to say I was seriously screwed over not once but 2x by my supervisor, who is someone who made me think she had my back.I learned the hard way not to trust her.. meh. SOOO as a result I didn't feel much like posting anything today in my food log and I did stray, I had two more bananas bwahahahaha and a piece of Ezekiel toast, 3 bites of DH's blizzard and a half of my mom's hamburger,which for the record i haven't had a hamburger in a year and it was great.The rest of my meals were healthy and low carb. Im sure Im going to pay dearly for the next few days but I dont care.. I was really in tears this morning and it took all I had in me to not quit my job today, it was that bad. On the bright side, since I eliminated the fart bars, my stomach has settled down 100000 %. Today's fiasco will surely ef it up again, especially the blizzard. Im not gonna whine about regret other than to say, Im disappointed that I still turn to food for comfort in times of desperation. On the other side, I really really haven't had a bender like this in a while and just know it was soooooo bad I almost wanted to just quit my dieting lifestyle and crawl into bed for a month. I wanted to post this today, not for pity or anything like that. Im posting it bc I need to be honest with myself and all my buddies who always support me and even those who may look up to me sometimes or who think my story is a successful one. This is just a reality check for me that even after a year, even the toughest of us can slip up. But enough of the oh poor me's. Went and bought some fresh salad mix, and berries and other low carb goodies and tomorrow im off so imma spend the day detoxing and working a vodoo doll of my boss!! rant over. good night ya'll....

Diet Calendar Entry for 28 January 2016:
2438 kcal Activities & Exercise: Treadmill - 30 minutes, Resting - 6 hours and 30 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours, Desk Work - 8 hours, Housework - 1 hour. more...

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Being betrayed hurts so bad. Hopefully now that you know her true character you can protect yourself and never give her the opportunity to do it again. Glad you didn't quit your job while caught up with such high emotions. But perhaps looking elsewhere for employment might be something you might want to consider. And there is always the old saying "Revenge is a dish best served cold." Look for opportunities if you are so inclined. 
28 Jan 16 by member: rhontique
I went through the same situation at work and all I can say it's rough but it will get better. My best to you and I hope tomorrow is a better day for you. Stand strong 
28 Jan 16 by member: Juanita49
Hey Red! Karma girl.  
28 Jan 16 by member: TxDesert
I was screwed over at work before... then you find a way to gain everyone's trust again, get every last peice of dirt on everyone .. files, pictures. documents .... and you make sure no one can do it to you again ... some may call it black mail. I call it insurance. ... I knew everything about everyone. they knew it. we all had an unspoken thing where people left me alone and I left them alone :D my supervisor included.  
28 Jan 16 by member: 8hunter6
You sound like a very strong woman. I'm not able to work and that doesn't help my weight either. Not being active is the worse thing, other than the weight I have put on since i haven't been able to be as active as i used to be. I commend you on your self awareness when it comes to knowing what you need to do to make it better. You're a good roll model. I'm sure you'll be back on track in no time. 
28 Jan 16 by member: LadyGoblyn
{{{hugs}}} 
29 Jan 16 by member: kpwcalories
(((((hugs))))) You are stronger than you realize. Even this little blip was not so awful that you slid into your old habits. Yes, we all turn to food; yes, we all have feet of clay. YOU are not wallowing in the negative: you will get past this. You are FabYOUlous! 
29 Jan 16 by member: kclab
Don't burn any bridges Girl . and always remember God has a plan for you . It may not happen at this very moment but if you hang tight,, he will pull through . Hang in there Chica It will turn around for you . Blessings ! 
29 Jan 16 by member: Tamarah Jo
You can look for a get another job, but at least where you are now, you know who not to trust.  
29 Jan 16 by member: dboza
Don't beat yourself up for how you reacted to the stress and job issues. You're human just like the rest of us. Remember the majority of any weight gain will be water retention. Just get right back to doing what you need to do, you'll feel better about yourself and there won't be any lasting damage. 
29 Jan 16 by member: jmb3450
Red just be nice to your boss while turning that knife in her back. I know I have been there hang in there girl you are better then her 
29 Jan 16 by member: Rockiesfan
thank you every one for the support. I really needed it and it just made me think how important FS and my buddies are to me. Of course I have friends and my mom and DH but sometimes it just feels so good to come here and vent bc all though my support network is here to give hugs and make me feel better, they really dont know the underlying struggle with food addiction and coming here and letting it all go really wipes the slate clean for me and allows me to push forward. SO again, thank you everyone for your support..I couldnt get back on the wagon with out it.. 
29 Jan 16 by member: redgirl1974
Vent away, my friend, work can be hard sometimes. Go kick something at the gym! 
29 Jan 16 by member: HCB
This post really spoke to me. I'm a manager responsible for 70 families livelihoods. I work so hard to build an environment of trust, encouragement, and support. It breaks my heart when I hear someone with authority abusing it. I'm a firm believer that a bad boss can make a good job suck - and that a good boss can make even the worst job do-able. If you have a bad boss but you want to be happy, you have 2 options. Either find a new boss or wait for upper management to see what is going on and address it appropriately... and we all know how fast upper management reacts (I can say this, because I'm in upper mgmt, and I HATE it that everything takes FOREVER to get done!!!). I vote for find a new boss - life is short. 
29 Jan 16 by member: RkTkFx
That blows. I love my job. But it's the first job ever that I have loved pretty much every day for four years. And in doing the same thing (accounting need here) so it's not different. It's the people. So I totally understand. I hope you'll find a great place to work someday. I know you will. I had to wait until 42 though ... Not sure if that means anything but in any case I did. Hang in there !!!  
29 Jan 16 by member: lotusblossom2112
I retired a year earlier than I would have liked to because of crap like this. It's amazing how many people have gone through a similar situation! After enduring 3 years of it I am still trying to recover my sense of self more than 6 months after leaving the job. They did it to me, but I will be the one who will fix it. Take care, and indeed if the situation doesn't improve look for another job.  
29 Jan 16 by member: trackin64
Thank you RedGirl74... I love your sense of humor. Truly I am LOL. Laughter lightens up a heavy heart and makes misery where you can grin and bear it. I am so very blessed. I love my career and the folks I work with are the best! I even work with the scum of the earth and actually they can be very nice people, when they are not behaving badly. All we can do is own up to our own thoughts, words and deeds and do our best to be our best. We are all sinners who need grace. Put the voodoo doll down and may I suggest you pray for that dirty rotten co-worker instead? Bitterness is the poison we drink hoping it will kill the other person. 
30 Jan 16 by member: Lifesatrip

     
 

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