redgirl1974's Journal, 07 April 2015

I just about wanted to die today..... day off and my son came home early so we decided to go to gym early and get it out of they way. I wanted to do something new so i decided to do the circuit work out and of course in the middle of my work out the gym bunnies show up and plant themselves in front of the mirror while they compares each others asses and how "fat" they are.. Im talking 3 20 something size 0 's waving their butts in my face.The is a huge sign that says that area is for circuit training only but no said anything. they kept hopping around from machine to machine not following the order. Im not even annoyed about that.. what I am annoyed about is how insecure it made me feel and how i couldn't even finish my work out and left 2 machines short of the full 30 min, its supposed to be no intimidation at that gym but there they were in their skimpy outfits.. They made me feel fat, old and out of shape.. bc of course they were all in excellent shape.. I would much rather deal with the crowds later in the day that have to feel shame and humiliation at no fault of my own.. I'm so disappointed i let them get me.. bc im better than that and i know it.. but somehow, I still feel bad.. crossing it off as emotional pms.. MEH.

Diet Calendar Entries for 07 April 2015:
798 kcal Fat: 54.03g | Prot: 48.76g | Carb: 32.62g.   Breakfast: 7UP Diet Cherry 7UP, Kraft Finely Shredded Mild Cheddar Cheese, Onions, Scrambled Egg. Lunch: Marie's Spinach Salad Dressing, Oscar Mayer Real Bacon Bits, Red Onions, Baby Spinach. Dinner: Parmesan Cheese (Shredded), Tomato Sauce, Zucchini. Snacks/Other: Part Skim Mozzarella Cheese, Land O' Frost Black Forest Ham, Roasted Salted Cashew Nuts, Green Olives. more...
3807 kcal Activities & Exercise: Exercise machine (slow) - 30 minutes, Housework - 4 hours and 15 minutes, Treadmill - 35 minutes, Resting - 10 hours and 40 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...

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I hear you! It is easy to be in excellent shape if you are 20 - you are doing a great job steadily losing. Hang in there! 
07 Apr 15 by member: abbadabba
You be you Red. Do what you need to do for Red. Don't let nothing intimidate or deter you. I know it's hard at times, but keep climbing that mountain. Pay them no mind, 'cause they don't matter. You matter. You're writing Red's story now. Don't waste your time on giving them a chapter, a paragraph, or even a single sentence. We are here cheering for Red. We know Red can do this. You got this.  
07 Apr 15 by member: Jonathan Walsh
Red I agree with Jonathan, don't let them bother you skimpy outfit or not. Ask yourself do you let stupid people bother you? No. And look at it this way you could probably have kicked their butts also. Just be yourself if the rest of the world doesn't like you screw the rest of the world, that's how I look at it. And if it was a Planet Fitness the staff isn't doing their job if they are in skimpy outfits. Be tough buttercup and kick some ass :) 
07 Apr 15 by member: Rockiesfan
There are alot of us who have let "them" shame us from taking life by the horns and just enjoying it...too worried about what others think. There's a line in Green Fried Tomatoes where Kathy Bates gets fed up with those who seem to make her feel old, fat and useless....she kicks her car in gear and screams "Tawonda" as she smashes the heck out of some cute, little, thin girl's car. Next time, you feel this way, kick yourself in the butt and scream Tawonda...it will do you loads of good, I promise:) After all, Red is in charge! 
07 Apr 15 by member: 2227Gwen
Never let anyone make you feel intimidated. Just the fact that you are at the gym trying to better yourself, while they are at the gym preening speaks volumes. 
07 Apr 15 by member: Bethlauren8
Don't feel intimidated by anyone. Remember that you are improving yourself and that the journey you're on is about you.  
07 Apr 15 by member: CatHerder
I never feel intimidated. What always goes through my mind is "oh, honey, when I was your age I was 10 times more beautiful and fit than you are... and I doubt that when you'll be my age you'll be as good looking as I am" and I smile to myself. 
07 Apr 15 by member: dayberndt
Red, I know how you feel. That is one of the reasons why I avoid the gym. I always feel like it really isn't a place for "fat" people. The first time I joined a gym I wore big loose shirts that didn't show of my curves but were very hot. One day, I was on a tread mill getting hotter and hotter and thinking to myself, "I have on a sports bra. I see many women walking around in here with just their sports bra. Why am I burning myself up when they walk around half naked?" I had just worked up the nerve to take my shirt off, grabbed the bottom of it, when one of those skinny, minnies got on the machine right in front of me. Half dressed of course. I lost all confidence and got off the machine. I also never went back to that gym. Who knows? Maybe if I hadn't allowed myself to be intimated I could have beat my weight problems 15 years ago. That's why we have to do this for us. If we allow other's to factor in we will always find reasons to keep putting it off. Just don't do like I did and give up on the gym all together. Put them out of your mind; focus on your goals and yourself, and keep up the hard work. You will succeed! 
07 Apr 15 by member: blurose411
It's not about them. Do your work and you will succeed. 
07 Apr 15 by member: cstout30
I don't even worry about anyone else at the gym. We have some girls that wear skin tight thing that leave nothing to the imagination. Most guys won't even look and the ones that do are the ones that laugh. Same with the guys who try to outdo the other guys. My idea of sexy isn't showing off in a gym. I like the people there that are doing their own thing and occasionally look over and smile or say, "Nice job." I go to the same franchise gym you go to, I think.  
07 Apr 15 by member: Jillzee00
Thank you every one for all the nice comments here today... I knew as soon as I felt sh!tty I could come and post here for some encouraging words of support. All this advice just made a bit teary eyed but not only that, I've been reminded, Im not there for them, I there for me and thats all I need to worry about. And to make it even better... as I was lying in bed watching tv feeling sorry for myself my Mr. walks into the room with a box and new tennis shoes for the gym.. like he just knew I was off and wanted to make me feel better. So now, I can wait to work out tomorrow! Thank you again everyone ..  
07 Apr 15 by member: redgirl1974
Those young girls are way more insecure than you could ever dream of being in your entire life. Typically they have no brain which is why they have to dress that way and draw attention to themselves! Ignore it and work out for YOU! 
07 Apr 15 by member: HCB
You gotta laugh inside when you see those girls. Their bodies are all they have going for them and I'll bet they didn't even know how to use the equipment properly. Their day will come, sweetie. And you have a sweet, encouraging guy. Do they? Bet not. You just put those new shoes on and sing a song while you pump those pounds away. Are you eating your veggies? 
07 Apr 15 by member: Simmdo
Simmdo, Im trying work those veggies in at every meal but I will admit its a huge challenge for me  
08 Apr 15 by member: redgirl1974
They sound to be more insecure than you. They know they are thin and need to hear it so often. I can't speak for you I would of asked them to please more those back sides out of my way for them were blocking my vision.  
08 Apr 15 by member: deaby16
Go get em Red :)  
08 Apr 15 by member: Rockiesfan
Please don't feel like that. There are a lot of people who love you for who you are inside. You need to learn love yourself too. You are worth it!  
09 Apr 15 by member: BuffyBear
Thanks Buffy, Im over it and them. This whole experience just made me realize, im not in this for anyone but myself and who cares if they are skinny, I may be fluffy but Im cute LOL ... I have a great support system here and my bf from work who keeps me moving ... BOO HISS to them ! bahahahaha  
09 Apr 15 by member: redgirl1974
I can totally relate to how you feel. I remember last Oct when I was 320 pounds and went for a walk at a near by park. I could not walk that far or fast but I could see others look at me and stare. I felt so out of place. But I just kept my head up high and realized that they don't know my story and my past. They dont know the sacrifices I made for them and my country. I just need to worry about myself and my own abilities to correct what I can. Be strong mentally and the physical body will follow.  
09 Apr 15 by member: midnightoil
When I go to the gym, I know that there will be people there more Fit than I am and some less Fit than I am. It is how it works. I used to avoid the gym because I felt fat and out of shape. But everyone that goes to the gym is on their own journey. My family tells me I need to lose weight and my boyfriend thinks I am perfect and FIT. People see each other differently. What matters is your own goals and how you feel. If girls went into the gym and did the same thing infront of me I would feel the same way you felt. Next time just try to stick some ear buds in, listen to your fav workout music and focus on your workout. Once you do that...everyone else around you pretty much disappears :) 
09 Apr 15 by member: Panigale1199

     
 

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