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One day at a time, is what I've been saying for a lot of one days now, but it's what I'm really needing to say & hear again on this one day. I continue with this unsettled feeling, which I'm finding difficult to understand & express. For some reason that I can't put my finger on, I'm feeling at a crossroads with my eating as I feel it is taking up way too much on my time & effort. Sugar is again the biggest obstacle as I again obsess about that one bite that is too much because it turns into cravings that I'm not able to resist from becoming those 100 bites that still aren't enough. Plus, I'd been trying to move my focus toward less restrictiveness during the week and more focus on healthy whole foods. For me, eating healthy is staying away from gluten (really most grains -- whaih may be an area I need to look at), dairy, added/all sugar (another area to re-evaluate), alcohol & caffeine. But that's where I waiver as to if it's truly sustainable, even though I feel great when I eat that way. I just really, really, really, really want to sometimes enjoy a glass of wine when dining out or a frozen yogurt with the boys after dinner. (Which, by the way, is what I did at my anniversary dinner with DH on Sat night & birthday dinner with DS on Sun night -- both of which I paid for with sleepless nights & resultant intense sugar cravings.) So, I go on, one day at a time, putting (in my dear friend Isabel's words) that one foot in front of the other. And, I've started to work with a nutritionist to see if that helps. She suggests that I stick with the whole foods plan and beginning experimenting again with adding back those healthy items (gluten-free grains, an occasional alcoholic drink and/or healthier sweet treat), again one at a time, and see the results. So, the lab coat is on again and may be for quite a few of the upcoming one days, and time will tell… as will I in my journals... here to you, my awesome, amazing, always supportive FS friends!
I'm off to my HIIT workout shortly, then up to work for the afternoon, but before I go, you know what I'll do & hope you'll join me… in prayer --
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.
And I'll focus on this one day and each one meal, bite, moment, thought, & emotion, through which I'll pray, breathe, log, journal, stay curious & express my way. I'm so very grateful for each of incredible you, my family & IRL friends, and another one day with the health & wealth to live this life I love! xoxox
Diet Calendar Entries for 07 October 2014:
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1488 kcal
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Fat: 88.60g | Prot: 76.88g | Carb: 117.89g.
Breakfast: White Toque Grilled Eggplant, Trader Joe's Grilled Asparagus Spears, Trader Joe's Fire Roasted Bell Peppers & Onions, Egg White, Egg, Spectrum Naturals Organic Coconut Oil, Harmless Harvest 100% Raw Coconut Water. Lunch: Nutiva Organic Hemp Protein Powder, Raw Green Smoothie. Dinner: Luvo Asian Tofu Bowl. Snacks/Other: Extra Virgin Olive Oil, Fresh Express Cabbage Salad, Egg White, Trader Joe's Fancy Raw Mixed Nuts. more...
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1784 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Resting - 15 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours, Calisthenics (heavy, e.g. pushups) - 1 hour. more...
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