Start Weight:(25 Aug 12) 285.0 lb
Current Weight:(23 Apr 14) 180.0 lb
Goal Weight:180.0 lb
following: Make Peace with Myself
performance: Steady

Having battled weight issues my whole life I can say I am GREAT at losing weight. But I am horrible at keeping it off.

This will be my fifth attempt to lose a massive amount of weight and keep it off. The first was 50lbs when I was 13; 80lbs in my 20's; 100+ in my 30's (seeing a pattern here?) and 100+ lbs in my 40's.

All of these losses had the same common denominators: 1) too fast 2) starvation 3) appetite suppressants 4) binge & purge and 5) the weight came back when I couldn't deprive myself anymore or forgot my 'never again' announcement because 6) I had not fixed the problem (eating disorder) just the symptom (weight).

This time, I'm taking it slow on purpose. I'm eating more but better. I may only lose a couple of pounds a month as I use this time to take care of the emotional drama that has accompanied the weight regain in the past.

I'm older and should be smarter. I need to prove it and settle this for the last time. I am going to heal my body as I heal my life.

A few of my favorite daily mantras:

I'm not losing weight. I'm converting Fat to Muscle to be healthier.
When I am hungry, I will eat what I love. When I am bored, I will do something I love. When I am lonely, I will call someone I love. When I am sad, I will remember I am loved.
Food IS my friend I just have to choose my friends wisely.
I can HAVE any food I WANT but I find the longer I eat HEALTHY I only WANT healthy foods.
If *I* can do this, ANYONE can. It takes 21 days to form a new habit. One day, one bite at a time.
My entire life is an All You Can Eat Buffet. What will I choose today?
Just because a little is good for you doesn't mean a whole lot more is better.

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Have Times Changed for Better or Worse?
Well, somewhere along the way 'you can never be too rich or too thin' mingled with 'nothing tastes as good as skinny feels' and viola - a generation of disordered eating with self esteem issues was born.

Yet those same philosophies seemed to collide with supersizing and all you can eat buffets and .. such a conflict. I often feel I'm compromising because I haven't pushed myself once again to reach the 150 mark as suggested for my 'health' because I end up sick doing so.

What is healthy? Skinny with high b/p or 'more pounds than cookie cutter stats with perfect labs?'

posted 22 Apr 2014, 20:56
Older women????
LuC2 wrote:
FullaBella, those deviled egg chicks are SO incredibly cute! What are the eyes made of (assume the beaks are carrot)?

I don't know - I think I copied that from Pinterest. I am going to guess black olives.
posted 21 Apr 2014, 20:28
Older women????
Happy Easter my friends.

posted 20 Apr 2014, 14:31
Older Yet Feeling I can finally lose the weight no longer how long it takes!
Welcome. I found FS in Oct12 and it's been a wonderful home to me ever since. There is a wealth of much inspiration and encouragement here.
posted 20 Apr 2014, 14:26
Have Times Changed for Better or Worse?
Just a thought - the entire article is here and is interesting about health vs 'the look and number'.

The Lies We Tell

Perhaps the most well-known U.S. beauty icon at the turn of the 20th century was Lillian Russel, a stage actress and singer born in 1861. Her New York Times obituary (1922) repeatedly references her beauty, noting that “for more than 20 years, she had been known as one of the most beautiful women on the American stage.” At the peak of her fame, Russel weighed approximately 200 pounds and was celebrated for her curvaceous figure, as demonstrated in another NYT article about her (1902), in which the author extols her “superior beauty.” The way she was described genuinely caught me off guard: “[Russel] is a particularly robust and healthy creature, who takes good care to remain so.” Russel’s weight, which would be considered “obese” by today’s standard (the BMI), was actually considered a sign of her health and desirability.

posted 20 Apr 2014, 10:57
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