Start Weight:(25 Aug 12) 285.0 lb
Current Weight:(30 Jul 14) 185.0 lb
Goal Weight:180.0 lb
following: Make Peace with Myself
performance: Steady

Having battled weight issues my whole life I can say I am GREAT at losing weight. But I am horrible at keeping it off.

This will be my fifth attempt to lose a massive amount of weight and keep it off. The first was 50lbs when I was 13; 80lbs in my 20's; 100+ in my 30's (seeing a pattern here?) and 100+ lbs in my 40's.

All of these losses had the same common denominators: 1) too fast 2) starvation 3) appetite suppressants 4) binge & purge and 5) the weight came back when I couldn't deprive myself anymore or forgot my 'never again' announcement because 6) I had not fixed the problem (eating disorder) just the symptom (weight).

This time, I'm taking it slow on purpose. I'm eating more but better. I may only lose a couple of pounds a month as I use this time to take care of the emotional drama that has accompanied the weight regain in the past.

I'm older and should be smarter. I need to prove it and settle this for the last time. I am going to heal my body as I heal my life.

A few of my favorite daily mantras:

I'm not losing weight. I'm converting Fat to Muscle to be healthier.
When I am hungry, I will eat what I love. When I am bored, I will do something I love. When I am lonely, I will call someone I love. When I am sad, I will remember I am loved.
Food IS my friend I just have to choose my friends wisely.
I can HAVE any food I WANT but I find the longer I eat HEALTHY I only WANT healthy foods.
If *I* can do this, ANYONE can. It takes 21 days to form a new habit. One day, one bite at a time.
My entire life is an All You Can Eat Buffet. What will I choose today?
Just because a little is good for you doesn't mean a whole lot more is better.

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Older women????

posted 06 May 2014, 20:42
Older women????
posted 06 May 2014, 20:41
Older women????

posted 06 May 2014, 08:22
the fat me vs. the thin me
gnat824 wrote:
I'm not sure how comfortable I am with the "fat me, thin me" paradigm for a number of reasons....
I think my point is to not fall into the trap of thinking you could never fall back into old habits- but instead to see every choice as one to embrace your old habits or your new ones. The new you isn't a static thing, but a work in progress that will never be completely accomplished.

Gnat - interesting and true - I realize it's all semantics because I was thinking of trying to do the opposites too in an 'old me vs new me' but then again, the 'new' me will eventually be the 'old' me and then what?

So I'm going to use 'the mindful me' ~ just words but words become thoughts and those become a way of life.

Unmindful me: paid people to bring me food, shop for me, take care of the back yard and clean my house because I was too unhealthy to do it myself. Complained because I never felt like I had any energy to do anything, it hurt too much, out of breath, sweaty, and tired.

Mindful me: Does all of that myself but is still broke because I keep buying things for the kitchen, house and backyard. However, having the time of my life. I can move, walk, stand, bend, lift and tend to things and am grateful every day to have been given another chance. Plan to make the most of it.

posted 05 May 2014, 14:31
Older women????
mummydee wrote:
lol, fulla, did you read those reports from amazon? what a hoot! and people are still ordering them! death by gummies!

Yep... I'm going to go back and see if it's less expensive than chia seeds... the gummy bear diet.. sounds legit.

Have you seen these reviews on Making Ice? Cracked me up.

How To Make Ice - Read the Reviews
posted 05 May 2014, 13:28
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