FullaBella's Journal, 11 April 2013

I found myself humming the Christmas carol 'Silver Bells' this morning as I prepared my breakfast.

Years ago, 'Silver Bells' was coined as code word for 'Crazy Lady'. The label originated one afternoon out in the southwest when my corporate team and I walked out of the building to find a homeless lady perched on the granite headquarters sign wearing a trenchcoat, ski cap, woolen scarf and gloves and singing, at the top of her lungs, 'Silver Bells'.

It was 114 degrees outside. My incurable connection with odd people refused to let me pass without stopping to visit.

My little team in their crisp starched dressed for success togs huffed and shifted from one foot to another as they began to melt in the sun. I didn't care. I'd just brought them all in from their remote offices for a 'there's a new sheriff in town and it's my way or the highway' meeting. May as well get them used to me.

They were in a hurry to get to happy hour. As team leader I knew I'd be picking up the tab so no need to rush.

I can talk to anyone, especially strangers. I'm actually more open with them than people I know. I think that's the introvert in me. Silver Bells and I stepped away and discussed the path to enlightment as I watched my team begin to wilt in the afternoon heat. It was a total win-win for me.

When I rejoined my thirsty little group they asked 'do you know her?'
'Yes.'
"Who is she?"
"She's the woman who had my job before me."

No, that wasn't true. But it did make them think. I love playing with peoples minds. Nonetheless, I led that team for five years and whenever they were having a challenging day or I'd propose something they considered 'nuts' or 'unachievable' they'd start singing 'Silver Bells' to me.

So as I stood in the kitchen this morning grilling onions, celery, chopped beef calves liver and spinach for my breakfast, I found myself humming 'Silver Bells'. For if you'd have told me six months or forty years ago I'd EVER consider 'liver' a breakfast food, I'd have labeled you crazy. Or barfed on your shoes. Probably both.

But not this morning. It was fabulous. A little too fabulous because it's 3:30 now and I'm STILL NOT HUNGRY. No lunch, No growling stomach. No weakness, feeling of hunger, low energy level, nothing. Nada, zip, bupkis.

No I don't see that as a problem. I actually perceive that as a good thing. I know it may sound crazy but I actually felt stronger and healthier eating it. With each bite I envisioned myself like a fund raiser thermometer graphic. I could feel the goodness starting to flow throughout my body and into my arms and legs down to my toes and out to my fingertips.

Not sure if any traveled up into my head. That may take a second feeding.

Thank you for reading.

Silver-Bella

Diet Calendar Entries for 11 April 2013:
918 kcal Fat: 38.20g | Prot: 80.73g | Carb: 64.77g.   Breakfast: Celery, Onions, Beef Liver, Bacon, Baby Spinach, Libby's Crispy Sauerkraut. Dinner: Libby's Crispy Sauerkraut, Emerald Cocoa Roast Almonds 100 Calorie Pack, Beef Liver. Snacks/Other: Spectrum Organic Ground Flaxseed, Schwan's Triple Berry Blend, Spectrum Chia Seeds, Cottage Cheese. more...
1996 kcal Activities & Exercise: Sleeping - 24 hours. more...

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Silver Bells...hmm, mayhap this will be just the thing to help me keep my sanity in these trying times...I am going to try it! lol I too, can pretty much talk to anybody and they all talk to me. They tell me (a complete and total stranger) things they would never tell another living soul! Have a great day and thanks for sharing such an awesome story.  
11 Apr 13 by member: ctlss
Hmmm. Liver. We have a long and troubled history. When I was a child, my mother would try to get us to eat liver and the meal usually ended in some form of punishment because I simply refused. I didn't like one thing about it - the smell, the texture, the look of it, and most of all the taste. So to this day, liver and I do not play well together. However, that's me. I'm happy for you that you have managed to turn your relationship with liver around. And that's awesome that you aren't feeling hungry yet. LOL at "Silver-Bella". Too cute ;) 
11 Apr 13 by member: evelyn64
Love it!!!! .... liver too, as long as it is smothered with bacon and onion.  
11 Apr 13 by member: 2toofat
I'll always think of you, my Angel, now when I hear Silver Bells (and with a smile on my face, as I always do anyway) -- Angels, Bells & Christmas go together quite well, now don't they! Just like liver & breakfast?!? Hey, I'm all for eating whatever, whenever it works for you. I actually never minded my Mom's required almost weekly dinner of liver & onions, but I've not had it again since leaving home... 30+ years ago... maybe its time to give it another try!?! xoxox 
11 Apr 13 by member: Ruhu
Liiiiiiiiver.......... ughhhh.... I don't know about that, Bella... :) 
11 Apr 13 by member: erika2633
ewwwwww! I had to eat liver as a child, and it would only go down if drowned it ketchup; I'd never ever be able to make it a breakfast food. Spicy peanut butter on pancakes made from grated zucchini, masa, liquid egg, and Volcano seasoning, yum! My tastes have changed over the years, quite a bit. Hat's off to your experience, Silver Bella! 
11 Apr 13 by member: crabby Kat
I loved the Silver Bells thing..but you can have the liver..no way no how no,no,no..But I am glad you like it..so eat up my friend..and enjoy...:O) 
11 Apr 13 by member: BHA
I had to smother my Mom's liver in mustard cause I couldn't leave the table till I ate it. I swore I'd never make my kids eat it and I never have, yuck! Whatever floats your boat Silver-Bella, but liver sinks mine! 
11 Apr 13 by member: teskandar
"She's the woman who had my job before me." This literally made me laugh out loud. Well played, Bella. The liver thing is delish! I love liver, any time of day. And if it keeps you full way past lunch, what's the harm? :) Thank you for being you.  
12 Apr 13 by member: kingkeld
Hi Bella!! I say go for anything that works for you lol and if that's liver and it held you then that's great. I know all about talking to strangers as I have only been here 1 1/2 years and am not working therefore no real opportunity to meet many people. I have one friend here and all the other people I talk to during my day are strangers and you know what? I thank God for them because they make my day a little less lonely. 
12 Apr 13 by member: chattycathy1955
I love that song, and might have to borrow your use for it. We all have crazy ladies in our lives.  
12 Apr 13 by member: Rubie-sue
As always a funny journal Bella, you make me smile. And I too would have barfed at the thought of liver for breakfast. Not sure if I could eat that now, for breakfast, but I certainly enjoy it, smothered in onions and bacon. I have absolutely no time in the morning to cook, as have an hour commute to work. But you have got my taste buds going now lady. Loved your work story, there is definitely a book in you my girl, if you ever find the time to write it. And congrats on not being hungry all day, absolutely shows you that you fed your body the right stuff and I am sure you enjoyed your next meal when you did have it. I look forward to today's journal when it pops out of you :) 
12 Apr 13 by member: sarahsmum
@Ctiss - yeah, nothing like humming Christmas carols in April to get those around you to step lightly. When I was visiting a friend in Cape Cod she worried I was going to get arrested for stalking because I just couldn't accept that stranger in the store when they didn't answer me back. 'Bella, we just don't do that here!' Geez. @Evelyn - yeah - I remembered you referencing the liver wars of your youth ~ I feel the same about hominy. Well, not punishment but a babysitter fed it to me daily for what seemed like forever. Just the word makes me shudder. Shouldn't, after all, it's just big faded corn isn't it? Maybe some day. @Sandi - yes, I used a slice of bacon to flavor the onions. No gravy. Just bell peppers and spinach with it. @Angel - so now everyone's gonna remember me at Christmas huh :-) That's cool especially as it seems to start in September now, LOL. @Erika - hey, I agree. Seemed insane.. hence the humming. @Kitkat - ya know, I didn't think about catsup. Then again, I haven't had catsup in a long time (too much sugar) but did dice tomatoes into the bowl for that 'hot & cold' taste. @Bren - ok, will set you & Evelyn & Erika at the 'no' table, got it :-) LOL @Teri, oh, another for the no table. I know there is NO way I'd ever convince y'all in writing so maybe I'll have a big dinner & invite everyone. My husband says I make liver a way no one else ever did (a way he likes it) so maybe y'alls Mom's just didn't know how to cook it?? @Keld - yeah, it's usually 2-3 days before I come up with a good comeback; that's why I remember that one so well. @Cathy - in real life, I have only one friend too. I have TONS of acquaintenances but none I'd trust to hold my wallet or bail me out of jail. Life is weird that way isn't it. I love it here too. Chat away (just don't text me, LOL) @Rubie ~ I truly believe if I could just give up sanity altogether my days would improve :-) @Isabel - you know, I used to say the same (just sharing, not lecturing) ~ I was the Queen of hurry and multitasking and any breakfast that took longer than 60 seconds in a microwave or didn't come out of a drive thru window was just considered way too indulgent. I saved 'that' for leisurely Sunday mornings. But with THIS change I decided to get up earlier and take the time to prepare my meals. I remember when this first started I commented 'I just get frustrated chopping all that stuff' and NOW, I love it. It helps me focus on the aroma, think about what I'm going to put with it, be creative. So I have to go to BED earlier so I can get up earlier and in the middle of all that I have the extra time to cook and eat. I just don't know that I'd feel as satisfied by mid morning if I didn't. I know it changed how I feel about food... just sharing. Thank you all for commenting, sharing, and not barfing on my shoes at the thought of liver. I'll save the 'tuna for breakfast' for another day. Let you get your sea legs back, LOL.  
15 Apr 13 by member: FullaBella

     
 

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