emilygu's Journal, 27 July 2017

You GOT this!!!!! 

Sending you well wishes ... go find something to punch or a secluded place to scream profanities. It is amazing how screaming a colorful stream of f-word leaden profanities actually makes me feel better (the more creative the better). Before I know it, I start laughing at the absurdity of it all. "F***-A-DOODLE-DO!" 

Emilygu you are going to be OK. I promise. The stress will get better, you will win this, no matter what it is that is gong on. Be Brave, be true to yourself. Keep the faith and do what Poofwizard, it will make you feel so much better.  

Try playing tennis, ride a bike or jump rope if you can. It gets you away into a quiet world of calm. OR take a bubble bath and light lavender candles as lavender is a calming fragrance.OR read a good book for 15 minutes. Works for me! (I am reminding myself as I type this that ice cream and chocolate are NOT an option right now) hehee hehee LOL  

Hope you are better ...Sometimes all you can do...is resolve not to give up on your health...and walk through the rest of the day...My best to you.  

Breathe. In and out. Slowly. Works for me when I'm stressed. List what you want to achieve. List the benefits of changing your eating. List what will happen if you don't change. This will help to top your decisional balance.. to help you decide healthier behaviour will be better. If all else fails A) go to bed early And/ or B) remember tomorrow is a new day You're doing a great job! We're here to support you! Go girl!! 👏👏👏👏 

Poppycom is right. Breath deep, in thru your nose out thru you mouth. It will reduce stress and lower your blood pressure. So Breath, just breath. You can do it at your desk, or anywhere. Don't do it for long, but do it in long breaths, and in thru the nose, out thru the mouth. You will be OK!!! 

Thank you all. It's gotten better. Just remembered by baby boy would've been 4 months old yesterday and Saturday will be 4 months since he's passed on. I know it gets easier and focusing on my health is usually what I do. Thank you all for all the wonderful support. Y'all are absolutely amazing.  

Amen to that ... nearing one of the worst days of my life to date!!!! But I owe it to myself to press on and be good to myself ... I deserve to look and feel good!!! 169 lb goal!!! 

You're strong. You got this. 

You will do it. 

Dear Emily, I just read your bio. I'm so sorry for the loss of your little boy! It's good that you've chosen to pay special attention to your health in the midst of your grief. I hope you're able to get some rest tonight and that tomorrow will be a better day. 

Aw, Emily, grief is so hard. And non-linear. I won't lie, it doesn't get easier. You just get stronger and better skilled at dealing with it.  

my heart goes out to you my baby died inside of me at 20 wks not the same i know but that was17 yrs ago . small steps ..one day the hole wont be so big you wont feel so empty.. god bless xx 

The milestones are hard but you'll get better at coping with them. Four months is such a short time to expect any change in how you feel. There's some really good coping advice above. All the best, Emily 

Emily, you are way to hard on Emily. Give her a chance to grieve. Emily is important too, but she needs time to grieve the loss of that little one. Be nice to her, help her to mourn her loss and then allow her to get it all together, and always remember her baby but to look forward to the future, OK? I know, I make it sound so easy, and it isn't, but you can do it, for Emily, for her health and her sanity. Be Good to Emily, she has been thru a lot lately. That little one will forever been in her heart, she needs the time she needs to heal a bit from all the loss. God Bless you Emily. I will keep you in my prayers for Comfort, Strength and Peace. Sharon  

Prayers are very welcomed. It doesn't get easier and this is the first close grief to me so I'm learning how to deal with it. Usually focusing on something else helps but I guess yesterday I just couldn't. Thank you for all of y'alls support. Y'all don't know how much it really means to me.  

Saying a prayer for you. ;) 

After trying to conceive for 3 years, my wife finally got pregnant in 1998. We were both so excited. However, only a few months into the pregnancy, my wife began to have severe cramps during the Florida/Tennessee game. I told her to go lie down and a few hours later she awoke bleeding. She had miscarried. Doctor said that there was nothing we could have done, but for months she was so mad at me because I told her to lay down rather than taking her to the ER so I "could watch football." For several years she would get so depressed on what would have been the due date and she still cannot be in the room during a Florida/Tennessee game. That all being said, knowing how Jen reacted to losing what was effectively just a clump of cells, I cannot imagine what it would be like if we lost one of the two boys we had later after only a few days. My heart goes out to you. I hope your husband is supportive and is there for you in this time. [No disrespect meant to any who are offended that I refer to an unborn as a "clump of cells".] 

So very sorry to hear about your loss Emily, my thoughts and prayers are with you as you continue on your journey. Take care!!