newnormal's Journal, 13 November 2015

Never cut a tree down in the wintertime. Never make a negative decision in the low time. Never make your most important decisions when you are in your worst moods. Wait. Be patient. The storm will pass. The spring will come. ~ Robert H. Schuller

I see some of my friends going through similar struggles and this resonated for me in my journey. I want it now. I want to be successful and healthy and thin and happy and important to others and helpful and visible and invisible but I don't want to wait. I want it now.

I used to think I was patient and non-judgmental and had no need for asserting control. God's been showing me the last couple years (mostly through experiences) that this is not the case and I have areas to work on, as most do. I'm grateful to be aware of it and challenge it when I catch myself but it isn't easy and it the changes aren't immediate.

For the most part, the real reason we are overweight has nothing to do with food. It's those other parts of us that have a wrong relationship to food. We celebrate with food. We comfort with food. We show love with food. We entertain with food, even if it's only ourselves.

So be patient, buddies. Work on the parts you can. Know that you are growing and that growing, it was pointed out to me, takes courage. Courage is not being unafraid, it's doing what you do anyway in spite of fear. It seems like overcoming fear has been a theme for me recently...

Be patient buddies. Be kind to yourself in your growth. And happy Friday!

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946 kcal

Fat: 63.86g | Prot: 61.85g | Carb: 29.92g.   Breakfast: Whole Foods Market Stevia, Coffee, Oscar Mayer Lower Sodium Bacon, Fried Egg. Lunch: Winn-Dixie Small Curd 4% Milkfat Cottage Cheese. Dinner: Grilled Chicken, Applebee's Caesar Salad (Small with Dressing), Applebee's Grilled Chicken Wonton Tacos. more...

2592 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Desk Work - 10 hours, Resting - 6 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...