chryssm's Journal, 18 February 2014

I pretty much hate myself right now ... OK maybe I am just massively disappointed in myself. I have been eating like crap for days ... AND I feel like crap because of it ... I was doing sooooo sooooo soooo good since I started in january and in one weekend I just fell apart. why do I do this to myself. I feel like I need to just go to bed and wake up and try to forget it happened. Wake up and get back to my quest.

Here's a confession ... When I am unhappy or stressed out ... I'm a complete binge eater. I have done it for YEARS. I was doing so good and had not had any problems for a month and a half. And i felt better than I had in years. It felt good to eat like a reasonable healthy person. and I just totally lost myself again.

And do you wanna know what is really sad ... the real thing that just pushed me over the edge. My friend asked me to be in her wedding , and when I saw a picture of the dress she wants me to wear , I lost it ! What is wrong with me , that should have motivated me more ... Should have pushed me to try harder and harder. Why did it crush all my hopes ?

Tonight I am praying to wake up tomorrow and get a grip on my life again.
Why oh why oh why Do I do this ???

Diet Calendar Entry for 18 February 2014:
535 kcal Fat: 14.48g | Prot: 33.43g | Carb: 63.30g.   Breakfast: Egg Substitute (Liquid), Bacon. Lunch: Cooked or Sauteed Mature Onions (from Fresh, Fat Added in Cooking), Food Club Great Northern Beans, Cooked Kale (from Fresh). more...

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Hey Chrissy its just ONE WEEKEND out of your life, accept it for what it was, get back on the horse with a stronger resolve, and in a couple of days your weight loss will be back. We all of us in here have these setbacks, but that's all they are - setbacks, little speed humps on a long and windy road. You can do this, its not the end of your world, being human means making mistakes, the trick is to learn from them; life is meant for living, and a binge now and again reminds us we are alive, just make this a rare occurrence, cheer up love you can do this :)  
18 Feb 14 by member: Kingstephen
Don't let it discourage you too badly! You are doing so great and remember that this isn't going to be a linear journey. Take a deep breath and remember you are able to regain control and push on. You got it :) 
18 Feb 14 by member: crimsonnavi
Just keep moving ahead, Ive done the same thing and feel terrible also. But the important thing is continue on the next day with your good eating habits, Ive found that one bad day out of several good days does not affect my weight loss, just get back on track nthe next day, and if your worried about that one slipup don't get on the scale for a week. 
18 Feb 14 by member: springskinny
Oh my goodness!!! I agree its just one weekend. You are so pretty right now just the way you are. Losing weight will be great for your health and confidence and good long term comittment to have... but you WILL rock that dress no matter what weight you are when that day comes. I think many of us have serious food issues that led us to this point... binging, secret eating, etc. That is why this site is a great tool. If you havent already... You should consider coming up with a small attainable and realistic goal for each week. My goal is to lose 1to 2lbs a week. As long as you have more good weeks than bad weeks you will eventually get to where you want to be. 
18 Feb 14 by member: Jess cheng
Btw... your weight journal shows amazing week after week losses!!!! 
18 Feb 14 by member: Jess cheng
We are our worst enemies, realize that you are perfect because you are you not the number your scale reads!  
18 Feb 14 by member: Antonia Tosh
One bad day doesn't wipe out several good days. Eat your next healthy meal like it's the most important meal of your life.  
18 Feb 14 by member: 69VAIR
hi this is Kathy I know what you mean I hate this but I fight with myself and all I want is to forget it but I cannot do that because I can't I know I will loose the battle if I do so I journal and count calories and see where I am and then I start again every day as it were the first day , It is a battle that we have lost time and time but we will tell our body that you will do what is needed to win. We are winners and not failures ,you will succeed , just remember to take one day at a time , we can forget yesterday and we don't know about tomarrow yet , so quit beating yourself up , you will win  
18 Feb 14 by member: kapa6363
ps I looked at your weight history and wow you are doing great you didn't loose the battle  
18 Feb 14 by member: kapa6363
You felt stress about the dress your friend wants you to wear, but put that negative binge eating behind you. Remember how sweet it is that your friend wants YOU to be in her wedding! Keep making the right food choices and walking every day. You can reach your goal weight. I'm sure you can do it. We all can. We just have to be consistent and keep going.  
19 Feb 14 by member: Deb_N
Get back on the horse and get back. Try not to hate yourself. It's a human thing. No big deal. It's a human thing. If you want it badly enough, you know that NOTHING can stop you! Come on now, look at all the friends you have here supporting you! 
19 Feb 14 by member: mrsmole
don't stress honey. I fell off the horse and broke both legs at the weekend lol. I had a row with my mother which always pushes my buttons. As soon as she left I opened the wine and the cheese......then followed bread and chocolate. I sobbed my eyes out on Sunday and wanted throw the towel in. Then I remembered how uncomfortable I was a few months ago, how even getting up the stairs was hard. Turn a setback into a comeback!! xxx 
19 Feb 14 by member: lisaappleton
Hey girl...don't worry about it. I am an emotional eater too so I know just how you feel but the most important thing is not how hard you fall but that you get up, dust yourself off and keep going. Loosing weight isn't easy and you will have rough days but keep your head up and keep going. And that dress...please...you're gonna look so amazing in it that you're going to be complimenting the dress not the other way around. So cheer up and lets get back into it ok. :) 
19 Feb 14 by member: Nyds09
Get back up...put you big girl panties on and start over!!!!! You now have a special day to work towards!!!! You can do this. 
19 Feb 14 by member: Wdixon2890
I am an emotional eater too! We all struggle and we all will fall! I did over the weekend! Just gotta get back up and move forward!! You can do this and you will!! :) 
19 Feb 14 by member: BeckyM1968
Don't beat yourself up hon. We have ALL done it at one time or another. It's not about falling down, it really is about how you pick yourself back up. So, make today a new day.... and get back on track. One moment at a time, leads up to one day at a time, and before you know it you'll be kicking butt again. You CAN do this! I have struggled with the binge eating too, and you can beat it. :)  
19 Feb 14 by member: MarniesJourney
Don't hate yourself - learn from the experience and file it away in the "What NOT to do NEXT time I feel this way" folder. The fact that you have posted here and know your response was not what you wanted it to be is the first step in getting back on track. I like what LisaAppleton said about turning a setback into a comeback! Sending you a big ((HUG))) !!! 
19 Feb 14 by member: erwinwarrior83
I come from a family where food is a reward for good behaviour, there was always fresh baked white bread, every excuse for a food celebration was taken, and food was used for solace. The only thing food wasn't used for was... uh... Most of us waffle at the beginning of the process. Expect it, but don't use it as an excuse. Then do what you're doing. Start again. 
19 Feb 14 by member: northernmusician
Live now and change now. The past can not be changed. You decide the future. 
19 Feb 14 by member: jparlett
I've learned to remove the treats from my general area so if I'm stressed or upset I don't have it to fall back on. My wife will buy the big donuts and all and there's no way I'm going to stay away from them. But I ask her to only get a few instead of a dozen so I can still have one but I won't have the rest sitting there talking to me. Same with ice cream...get a small container but still have some to enjoy. I don't see giving everything up as an option but trying to limit and allow me to make better decision. I now go to the vending machines at work and stare at the high carb chips then go over to the cold machine and grab milk. I bet I've cut 100s of bad calories over the week just by making that simple switch. Good luck and hang in there. 
19 Feb 14 by member: 2 Big 2 Fail

     
 

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