jenalena's Journal, 27 August 2018

Years ago I read a journal post from a gal that used FS to chart all of her food and managed to lose over 120 lbs. She said that after 2 years of daily entries here, she found that most people stay the same weight, lose and gain the same 10 or 20 lbs over and over again. She said that it takes a lifestyle change, a full commitment to eat and live differently in order to be successful in changing your body size and shape.

After 6 weeks of disciplined eating, I fell back to the old lifestyle and old routine... hence the weight gain. I'M SO DISAPPOINTED! *sigh* I almost changed food tracking websites to avoid logging the loss-gain, loss-gain, loss-gain-gain... uggg. To be true to myself, I'm here this morning, logging again. I'm recommitting myself, like that never learning idiot, trying to behave.

How many times have I written this journal entry? How many times have I said, this is it. This is the time that I'll maintain my dietary goals. This time I'll lose the weight and be skinny. GAG ME. PLEASE.

Ha! Happy Monday FS. I'm here, jumping back on the wagon (after a McDonald's breakfast because the bathroom faucet broke and I had to shut the water off to the house at 6AM). Hey - that's real life, right? Starting Monday morning with 35 carbs, no biggie *eye roll*. I guess in my mind, I'm not waiting until tomorrow, I'm starting (again) right now. :)
205.2 lb Lost so far: 0 lb.    Still to go: 40.2 lb.    Diet followed poorly.

Diet Calendar Entries for 27 August 2018:
1208 kcal Fat: 64.59g | Prot: 55.87g | Carb: 108.75g.   Breakfast: Bigelow Tea Mint Medley Herb Tea, McDonald's Iced Coffee with Sugar Free Vanilla Syrup (Large), McDonald's Breakfast Burrito. Lunch: Chocolate Chip Cookies (with Butter), Salad - Honey I Must. more...
2500 kcal Activities & Exercise: Weight Training (moderate) - 5 minutes, Walking (exercise) - 3.5/mph - 10 minutes, Running - 6/mph - 10 minutes, Resting - 15 hours and 35 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
gaining 3.4 lb a week

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You know, I think I know that person you are talking about. She moved on, was going to write a book, but then disappeared from her blog and facebook page and from here. Every day is the first day of the rest of your life. Awareness is important, and learning about yourself is important, and let me tell you, caring and starting over and over is better than just getting fatter and fatter. Good luck! I pretty much start over every week. 
27 Aug 18 by member: abbadabba
Please hang in there. You learn something each time you go out. Think about what caused you stop feeding yourself well. My slips happen when I'm out of my routine. The key for me is to jump back on as soon as possible. I tend to go brain dead when ever I'm doing something not in my best interest. The best thing I've found is weighing myself everyday anyway. Ask myself if this is what I want. Are you sure your plan of eating is feasible for you. Try tweaking it to allow for a cheat. Good luck. 👍💕 
27 Aug 18 by member: JackieSpahr
You’re back and being honest with yourself so kudos for that! We have all been where you are so many times...if you keep trying it will click eventually. I reached my goal weight in June and used it as an excuse to eat more garbage. I haven’t felt as good all summer even though I’ve kept my weight stable. Back to tracking and eating better so I can feel good. It really has to be a life style change and it’s hard but doable. Best of luck to you! 
27 Aug 18 by member: momma6224
welcome back and good luck! 
27 Aug 18 by member: cynthiaaeh
Welcome back! You can do it! 
27 Aug 18 by member: LetsDoThis57
LOL - i know i shouldn't laugh, but your post, the McDonald's breakfast... if anyone can relate to you, it's us, and yes we've all been there. I'm kicking myself for having Lentil soup last night... see - you already made me feel better! Welcome and yes, you can do this. My Dr. once said to me, "if you don't give up, you're better off than some". Clearly you have not given up! Go Girl!!  
27 Aug 18 by member: biketolive
It is like playing golf or tennis after many years. Bad habits are the first to come back. Be strong and you will win...  
27 Aug 18 by member: clay pot baker
Hey I'm in the same boat. fall out and get back in!! Welcome back!! You got it!! 
27 Aug 18 by member: reginaldw1
Welcome back, everyone here has tried more than once. I try everyday. Just keep trying... 
27 Aug 18 by member: John10251
We are all human. Just doing the best we can. Just don't give up. 
27 Aug 18 by member: adefwebserver
You guys rock! I love FS for support... seems like one of my triggers is to stop logging, then stop weighing in. No EXCUSES! :) 
27 Aug 18 by member: jenalena
Also think about what is is that makes you just lag off and then stop. A lifestyle change has to be practiced every single day starting with a review of your goal. Make it realistic. Small incremental changes. It eventually becomes habit. Review the way of eating that you are following— can you eat that way forever or will you have to make other adjustments as you go on. Consider any health issues you already have. How bad do you want this? 
27 Aug 18 by member: Kenna Morton
You certainly hit the head on the head with this journal entry. For me bread is the entry ticket into obesity. Lost weight 22 years ago, it stayed off many years, got into baking and I got obese again. Lost that weight 9 years ago, stayed good many years. Felt deprived after 7 years being good. Bought that bread machine I always wanted, plus a pizza oven. Got obese again. This time I've lost again. What is different this time is that I have taken in studies about grains, realize how incredibly damaging they are, and accept that in order to enjoy great health for the rest of my life, I have to stay grain free. 
27 Aug 18 by member: Diddlee
I agree with Kenna: slow and steady. Maybe you aren't getting enough good food, so that after awhile you are just hungry and eat everything in site? BTDT. Perhaps try increasing you leafy greens and good fats, and make sure you are getting enough protein? Also a good question I ask myself is "what is bothering me? What stress am I going through? How can I make the stress less. Do I need to talk to some one? We are such creatures of habit, and our old habit of eating to self medicate is a very hard one to break! Prayers for you so that you can focus on you and give yourself the very best lifestyle that you deserve:)❤ 
27 Aug 18 by member: CaerinOReilly
I feel the pain of the vicious cycle you are experiencing! I heard somewhere that we, as individuals, disrespect ourselves through overeating and other bad habits. I hope that I can help you get control by sharing a little something of myself. I stood naked in front of my mirror and I almost puked! Because what my body had told me was that I was more abusive to myself than my ex-husband ever was to me! I carried the pain and suffering of my abusive life and sucked it all up into my own body. So, please look at yourself with sincerity, love, and respect and take a quick second to decide how much you respect yourself, ok? I will be watching as you journal your success and YOU WILL be successful!! 
27 Aug 18 by member: Katt6256
I can sympathize with you guys. All the advice that I can give is to get back on that pony and ride, ride, and ride some more❤️. The only thing that matters is what kind of person you are to others and God! Life is tough but hang in there👍💋! 
27 Aug 18 by member: cshell24
Maintenance is tougher than dieting! 
27 Aug 18 by member: gz9gjg
I've always wished I were one of those people who could eat whatever they wish and not have to log and calculate their totals but that's never going to happen. The reality is everyone has to keep track or they become or stay unhealthy. We've all fallen, stumbled, tripped, given in to fast food or junk food temptation at times. Bordom, stress, temptation. Whatever the reason. The good thing is you know it and can do something about it. Welcome back! 
28 Aug 18 by member: BlueFront

     
 

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