Em GI's Journal, 08 August 2018

Feeling terribly ungrateful for simply being alive. I’m just an unliked fat pig that might as well eat a box of donuts. My DH and DD took a quick minute out of their lives to go to Walmart last night to get me birthday presents for today...there was an Apple gift bag on the table to greet me and I got excited at the prospect of receiving an Apple Watch, but it was just used to put a XXL piece of junk clothing that doesn’t fit, though my daughter used a pen to scribble out the XXL, and a pair of my old sandals, and a $15 junk necklace that’s pretty but for sure will turn my neck green and probably break first wear. I see my worth...zero and fat as a hog. What’s the point? I. Worst part is I called my parents...they don’t know it’s my birthday. FML

Diet Calendar Entry for 08 August 2018:
1201 kcal Fat: 90.70g | Prot: 64.08g | Carb: 12.77g.   Breakfast: Egg, Land O'Lakes Light Butter, Great Value Shredded Mild Cheddar Cheese. Lunch: Egg Salad, Fiorucci Panino Pepperoni Wrapped Mozzarella Cheese, Wegmans Mild Cheddar Cheese Sticks. Dinner: Riesling Wine, Fiorucci Panino Pepperoni Wrapped Mozzarella Cheese. more...

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I am sorry. Happy Birthday! Please don't run yourself down like that. Sometimes family, well, sometimes they suck. 
08 Aug 18 by member: jengetfit123
This can be a turning point. Happy Birthday :)  
08 Aug 18 by member: reader1
I completely understand. Birthdays were always a BIG DEAL growing up. I was the one in elementary school that would have 200+ kids over, middle school just about the whole school would show up. Not because I was special, popular or anything of the like. But we were the house that threw the parties people wanted to be at even if they didn't know me. I married into a family that never celebrated birthdays ever! I try my best to celebrate my dh bday but he never wants anyone over so he ends up with just my parents and us. When my daughter was born he adjusted to me having bday parties for her but no where near as big as what I did before. Just invite only people she specifically knew. My birthdays now are depressing... no one but immediate family and my dh and dd go usually the day of to get something cheap at walley world. My mom trys to get nice stuff and plans ahead but it is not the same. It definitely makes you feel unappreciated and well ...alone. __________________________________Happy Birthday from Someone Who Cares 
08 Aug 18 by member: Mjgh06
Best lesson I learned in my 50's was that I was responsible for my happiness - no-one else. If this meant treating myself to things i was hoping for so be it! When i took the responsibility for my happiness back, in my mind it took the expectation off others. There are people in my life who buy me junk gifts and I appreciate 'the thought' - i'm guessing some of them just can't afford any better. These things get set aside and donated - I'm sure they make someone happy. With some family members we don't do gifts any more - what do any of us really need or want anyway? Personally, I'd rather spend some quality time with people than have them gift me things i don't want/won't or can't wear... I hope you're able to find some happiness today and celebrate what you do have - even if that's just your decision to change your life for the better. My response may sound harsh, but it's meant with only good intention. Hugs to you , and Happy Birthday. 
08 Aug 18 by member: thenester
I will pass on what has been told to me. What ever you say, will come true. You need to speak positive and success messages in order to reach your potential. You are worth so much, that your family could not purchase what you are worth! You are loved so much that they tried and they even crossed off the size! You may be overweight right now at 202 pounds (I'm 273 as of this morning), but overweight is "easy" (okay, not easy) to fix. You need to find your WHY, WHY do this? WHY do you want to lose weight? WHY is this important. For me, my WHY is - to see my Adaya grow into a strong healthy woman and to be able to do what I want without even a thought to weight. I want so badly to go hiking, to go to conferences without wondering if I'll fit in the chair, to walk on a rickety walking bridge without worry about "will it hold me". I will get there and so will you! Yesterday, I had a hair appointment and told my hair dresser that in one year, I'll be at my goal weight and she will get to chose the hair style that will match my new look. Speak your success into being, YOU CAN DO THIS! 
08 Aug 18 by member: Keyishealth
Please try to cheer up and have A HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! Jenfit3, Reader1, and Mjgh06 are all right in what they are saying many of us have been though similar circumstances at some point but somewhere along the line things do get better.  
08 Aug 18 by member: Dragon Goddess
Happy Birthday! When feeling like a failure it helps me to remember the motto "Be your own hero". Be strong and don't give up. 
08 Aug 18 by member: broncomba
Happy Birthday! Go out and do something fun for yourself!! 
08 Aug 18 by member: meldurfee
Happy birthday! I have had really sad birthday's memories, but this year I can't wait to celebrate my birthday, even if I am by alone, I am going to blow my candles and make a wish, and eat the whole cake ofcourse 🙂 
08 Aug 18 by member: keilin-4
It was not until after the loss of my son that I began to even gain more weight and I knew that I had to do something or I was going to die. I did not give up I am living my best life and trying to lose weight. It is hard so Don’t give up on you; love you from the beginning until the end. This is hard but God gives us strength to endure this journey. I pray for you to find joy and happiness and love you in this, Happy birthday and remember don’t let someone make you feel bad about you, love you…  
08 Aug 18 by member: PECHEZ
Happy Birthday! 
08 Aug 18 by member: chesgreen
Happy birthday, Emmalee! Everyone forgot my 39th birthday and I felt bad about it, but the next year everyone remembered my 40th birthday and I felt bad about it! :-) Now that I'm in the 2nd half of my 70's, I'd just as soon forget about it myself! We are hard to please sometimes, but always thank God for the gift of your life and the power to make whatever changes in yourself you want to make. We are all works in progress! 
08 Aug 18 by member: Texasgranny6
Happy Birthday. Smile because Jesus loves you just as you are. 
08 Aug 18 by member: getoffofme
Be strong, fight on. Happy bday! 
08 Aug 18 by member: christoff0433
Happy birthday 🎂! Do something nice for yourself. Lots of good suggestions here.  
08 Aug 18 by member: Fishingwidow
Happy Birthday!!! Is the clothing too small?? Use it as a motivation piece!! Get up, Get out, and get moving. you are only as grateful and happy as you feel...so change your mind. focus on good. I will pray you find happiness today!!! Sending love!!!  
08 Aug 18 by member: Klynn82
EmaleeG, you sound like you are in a tailspin. stop, regroup, remind yourself why you are here, check your progress. Your food diary pictures are excellent, you are worth every bit of your goal. come on, cry it out and stick with your plan. hugs! 
08 Aug 18 by member: sallkr3
you need to be more positive and you are not a fat pig im sorry your having bad birthday but stop with the negative you are worth more than that go do something nice for yourself go get ur nails done or your hair go shopping I hope the rest of your Birthday gets better  
08 Aug 18 by member: raveneyes76
Happy Birthday! Sorry to hear that it didn't go well. At least your family was trying to do something nice, it's just hard when we're expecting something bigger. My hubby has planned for his brother's birthday party to fall on the day before my birthday this year, his brother's birthday is the weekend after mine. So, needless to say I'm a little hurt, but his brother turns 30 and works on the weekend of his birthday. I'm not a huge birthday person, but it is nice to be able to have your day. I know you're feeling unappreciated, but take some time to appreciate yourself and the things you know you do for everyone, be proud that you have taken steps to better your health and well-being, and know that everyone here is rooting for you. 
08 Aug 18 by member: mars2kids
Happy Birthday! Get your own present, you know what you deserve! 
08 Aug 18 by member: abbadabba

     
 

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