michaelsgirl515's Journal, 02 June 2015

Well, there it is...the ugly truth. It's a set back for sure, but considering the amount of stress I have been dealing with over the last few weeks and how crazy and hectic things have been I'm not surprised. My sister passed away a couple of weeks ago (while my in laws were visiting). They were here for two weeks and it was a really stressful time since I was grieving and dealing with funeral arrangements and trying to make sure they were comfortable and taken care of at the same time. On top of that, I was trying to find a new house with an in-law apartment so that my parents could come live with me, as my dad is in bad health and my mom was having trouble walking and taking care of herself. Fast forward a few days and I found out my mom went into the hospital with pneumonia (which is what my sister died from) and she currently lives in N.C. while I am in N.H. so it was a lot of stress trying to get information and talking with Doctors. Three days ago they did a CT Scan to find out how much fluid was in her lungs and found out she has stage 4 Renal Cancer. There is no treatment, so it is only a matter of time. My heart is breaking for my Dad. I have had three sisters pass away with in the last 5 years, and now my mother. My dad has lost so much, and I am worried this will be the end of him also. I am overwhelmed and emotionally exhausted. Needless to say I have been stress eating and not taking the best care of myself. I want to get back on track, but with so much in flux right now I don't know how I will. Sorry for the long sad journal, I just needed to vent.

164.0 lb Lost so far: 15.0 lb.    Still to go: 14.0 lb.    Diet followed poorly.