Tulipgirl6's Journal, 16 August 2014

I think I actually cried at the gym today; no I actually cried. I hope nobody noticed. I stayed in the corner on the rowing machine till I calmed down. I must have still looked out of it, or in pain because one of the trainers asked if I needed help with one of those stretching rollers, and then sent someone over to me. . .. . I have come too far, I have to make this work! I woke up with severe anxiety about my baby's eye. Then in the pilates class I caught sight of my stomach in downward dog. Let me tell you if it looks almost human from the frontal view it looks like a giant diseased prune with the workings of gravity. Thank you dear friends, this is like therapy without the bill. Sorry for the nagging and whining; I'm just feeling down.....I should probably go to my therapist while I have the amazing insurance; 70% reimbursement!!! That is disappearing with my dh's new job!

Diet Calendar Entry for 16 August 2014:
1264 kcal Fat: 64.72g | Prot: 84.06g | Carb: 101.09g.   Breakfast: nutrihealth fiber 50/50. Lunch: Trader Joe's Persian Cucumber, Canola Vegetable Oil, Ground Beef (Cooked), Beef Steak, White Rice, Roasted Potato, Cottage Cheese (Lowfat 1% Milkfat), Trader Joe's Persian Cucumber, America's Choice Natural Walnuts, Medjool Dates, Silk Pure Almond Milk - Unsweetened Vanilla. Dinner: Cooked Egg White, Publix Green Bell Pepper, Calavo Avocado, nutrihealth fiber 50/50, Chocolate Chip Cookie. more...

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Most have 80% maybe it will be better, smile friend Tulip, life is good. You have come so far!!! 
16 Aug 14 by member: wholefoodnut
have faith in life. All will be well and work itself out. They say God only gives what we can handle. :)  
16 Aug 14 by member: NowIunderstand
When is your baby's surgery? Praying all goes well.  
16 Aug 14 by member: Deb_N
Concerned about your baby's eye let us know. M 
16 Aug 14 by member: wholefoodnut
you are going to be ok.hang in there and hold on to your faith. you are in my prayers take care. 
16 Aug 14 by member: hooks0617
I want to give you a link to a page I was looking at last night. Warning -- there is nudity -- definitely not work safe! But it is a photo collection of women from all ages and stages of life and in all sizes, in their undies or some in nothing. These are just normal women. So many of them have figure flaws... some of them have some really bad ones. But it helped me so much to look at it and see all the shapes and sizes we come in and how pretty we all are in our differences. Hardly anyone has a "perfect" body. We think something is wrong with us because we see all those airbrushed models on tv and in magazines and don't look like them, but they are the ones that are not normal. I hope this helps you feel better about yourself like it did me. http://www.theexposeproject.com  
16 Aug 14 by member: Absynthia
Sorry honey. My belly too- also, my boobs look more like empty toothpaste tubes swinging around than the once wholesome breasts they used to be. We have our babies to be thankful for that. I can't think of a better reason; can you? God Bless!  
16 Aug 14 by member: Hey Chakalina
Hang in there, girl. Things will get better. You'll see. After your baby heals and your hubby gets settled in his new job, things will be much better. 
16 Aug 14 by member: ChristyLA
You are more than your stomach. Your worth as a human being is not about your stomach. Sit down. Make a list. At least 10 things about yourself and your life that you love and are proud of. The next time you get that feeling in reaction to your stomach, or some other body part, remind yourself of that list. And that you are at the gym, working hard and taking care of yourself. You are doing the best you can. 
16 Aug 14 by member: yduj57
Dear Sweet Tulip. It can be hard when it seems that no one notices your pain. I pray that all will goes well with your baby's surgery. I know adjusting to body after baby can leave us feeling that we will never be good enough. However, as mentioned by others, your body regardless of how it looks...especially from downward dog angle is a gift to be treasured. It contains the wonder that is you, It cradled your child before you were able to do that once the birthday arrived. Your body gets you around in life and you are diligently doing what you can to take good care of it. There is a different kind of beauty in a woman's body than that of an untried girl. Even at age 64, my age, I look at magazines and wish to be different than I am, but accept that my body with all of it's scars, there are many, is where I live and I have resolved to love my home. I pray that you can see the beauty of the person, body and all that you are. None of us knows just how much or the ways we impact others for good. You are a gift and beautiful all on your own. J  
16 Aug 14 by member: JovialJ
Ditto on the comments above. How is your baby doing? Your soul is who you are, you can work on your body, which you are doing. Just think, you won't be looking like that long if you work out and work on making healthy choices with your food intake. Heres to the improved body and the wonderful YOU!!  
16 Aug 14 by member: kattay
Thanks everyone; I'm just feeling really down; baby's eye surgery is scheduled for September 12th. I am so nervous about anasthesia and that something can go wrong. I don't trust doctors nor the hospital near here . . . . I am hosting a BBQ for my fil's birthday tomorrow; skipped pizza with my family tonight, because if I go into that place I'll get hungry and want to eat . . . did I mention we are dog sitting? I thought my kids would really enjoy it, but what did I get us into? it's for 10 days! Didn't realized that when I volunteered! And suddenly dh realized it's the last week we can go away before his new job starts . . . oh well; we are horrible planners . . . . Thanks for the kind words and prayers and thoughts; some days are just so tough!  
16 Aug 14 by member: Tulipgirl6
Baby will do fine. Aww the dog sitting puts a cramp in plans. Have a great party today, enjoy your family and friends and maybe that will lift your spirits some. Tulip, there are time you just have to cry.  
17 Aug 14 by member: wholefoodnut
I suggest trying to forget about your baby's eye surgery for now, since it is still a month away. Instead, push the thoughts out of your mind and have faith that it will be okay. Worrying doesn't do any good. It only causes pain. I don't want you to be stressed out for the next few weeks. Try not to worry about everything that's going on and it will be easier for you to cope. Have faith that what happens is meant to happen and everything will turn out okay. 
17 Aug 14 by member: ChristyLA

     
 

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