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New week, new attitude. However, I am not starting it out very well. Monday morning and I am already in a blah mood. I went for my morning run this morning, but wound up walking as much as I ran. I admit I was doing intervals, walk/jog/run full out/jog/walk and I still finished in the hour I a lot for the morning. Otis (our puppy) enjoyed it as well, and was well behaved for the most part. There was some traffic so he got some car training as I call it. We were chased by a cow, and we chased a rabbit. I saw a doe and am so glad he didn't see it or I think I would have taken a detour through the woods. Stop laughing! Not that funny! Well, maybe it would have been, hanging onto the lease, yelling to stop, while arms and legs are failing all about. Let's do the hookie pookie and turn ourselves around!! Lol!
I know I am feeling down because we have a viewing to go to this afternoon and I am just not very good in these situations. I am guessing no one really is. Do you hug the person, not hug, what do you say, ect. I have a weird view on death that most people don't understand so I will probably just say I am sorry and talk very little. My husband wanted to go to the funeral until he found out it will be a full catholic funeral with a full mass. I told him he can still go, but our 4 year old will not be able to sit through that. Too be honest, I am not sure I can sit through that or him for that matter. 40 min funerals are hard, 1-1/2 hours is almost torture. Not to joke at a time like this, but maybe cops would have better luck getting the truth out of criminals if they make the sit through mass over and over again until they talk.
I don't have much to do in the office this morning and as it is muggie I am toying with the idea of a morning swim before we get in the car and head to the view. I know I should be cleaning the bedroom carpet, but the pool is really tugging at me. I haven't gotten a chance to my laps since Thursday and really want to do some. Also, my daughter is swimming without a lifevest in the deep end now and having so much fun. Last night, I taught her how to tread water and float. She was upset when I told her she had to get out because it was bedtime. We have an underwater light and go swimming after the sun goes down - nothing on TV anyway.
I fell off the wagon a little with my eating last week. Not completely off the wagon, but am being dragged by it. I need to buckle down this week and get back on track.
Diet Calendar Entries for 14 July 2014:
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240 kcal
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Fat: 4.69g | Prot: 7.42g | Carb: 44.12g.
Breakfast: Coffee with Milk and Sugar, Milk (2% Lowfat Without Added Vitamin A and Nonfat Solids), Special K Chocolatey Delight Cereal, Blueberries. more...
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2368 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Walking (brisk) - 4/mph - 1 hour, Resting - 15 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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14 Jul 14 by member: Jenfar
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Remember tomorrow is a new day. The carpet will still be there tomorrow...close the door...LOL!!! Go to the funeral...think about all the good things in your life, and give the pup a big hug and kiss!!!
14 Jul 14 by member: Weena6
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Sorry for your loss. And appreciation for your situation. Find the moments of joy in your world, celebrate those and create memories, and your new attitude will flourish. You will succeed.
14 Jul 14 by member: LMJ114
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I feel for you.. I do not like the 3 day waiting period, the wake and funeral. The last death was for a friend & we experienced a great ending to a friends life called **A Celebration of Life** People spoke if they close to after a very casual dinner about the person who had passed and it was the most beautiful experience I had experienced for a person's passing. My husband also felt the same. Yes a Catholic Funeral Mass can be longer but also beautiful. We had 4 kids and they each had to learn to sit quietly while at church. We would sit up front and that really helped as they could see without trying to look around others as to what was going on. One time one of the girls reached out and touched the Priests robe while walking by after sprinkling holy water and she said very loudly, I touched God, I touched God. We tried to hush her but the Priest turned around and said, Oh Honey thank you but I am not God I am just one of his many messengers. The congregation laughed and Mass went on. Each day is beautiful and another day to become healthy and reach our goals. God Bless. :)
14 Jul 14 by member: MomjjjaLou
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Kathy - I too have a rather unconventional view of death and have found the need to really keep my feelings in check when around someone who has recently lost a loved one. There is nothing more deeply personal than how we feel about life and death.
I have to say, for being down, you certainly sound up! But when you are such a beautifully positive person, even when you are down, others still have to look up to see you! Go swimming, forget the carpet. And tonight, put your daughter to bed early, turn off the pool light, and go skinny dipping with your husband! :)
14 Jul 14 by member: stoppingthecycle
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The carpet will still be there later, so I hope you went for the laps. I am not good with death either, I never know what to say, but I've realized that no one else really does either. Death is a tough thing for everyone and we all have to go through the greiving process at one time or another and we all deal with it a little different. Sitting through the funeral may be long, but the family will all be so glad to have the support of loved ones sitting and sharing that time with them. I hope the rest of your week goes well!
14 Jul 14 by member: mars2kids
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I have an Otis too, a little squishy pug mix :)
14 Jul 14 by member: Socolova
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Carpet cleaning is best left for rainy days. I'd be in the pool. :) I think I'm lucky I've never been to a funeral that was over 30 minutes long. I couldn't do it, especially with a 4 yr old.
14 Jul 14 by member: Ms Elizabeth
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Your journal reflects the backs and forth motions of life. Playing in the park one day and attending a funeral visitation the next. Maintaining a pace with these patterns and living a healthy life all the while seem extra challenging. We cope better when we are active and when we eat well. God bless you and yours!
15 Jul 14 by member: Teacher Try
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Thank you all for your support and comments. I really appreciate it. The viewing wasn't that bad as my mother in law was able to jump us to the front of the line; however, my husbands cousin was so drugged up to remain calm I was concerned she was going to fall down. She was also talking about needing space to just grieve and no one was willing to leave her alone to do that. To me, that is exactly what she needs. Hopefully, everyone will leave after the funeral today (we did not attend) and she will get that time that she really needs to say goodbye.
I did the swimming thing and the carpet still needs cleaned. No laps, but the 10 that I followed along behind my daughter, but the swim felt good. As for being down and up at the same time, that is just me. I have the ability to see the good even if all I want to do is cry. I saw it last night when my daughter hugged my husband's cousin. Nana was going to take her in the other room, but she would not go. She said, "she needs a hug from me." And that was that.
15 Jul 14 by member: Kathy Vanish
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15 Jul 14 by member: stoppingthecycle
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