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Unexpectedly, I really enjoyed the meditation workshop & plan to continue -- there are 2 more over the next 3 weeks. And, I plan to practice meditating in between. He recommends 4-5 times/week for 10-15 minutes each time. It sounds very doable, but the 2 times we practiced in class for just 5 minutes each seemed like such a long time. He, David Nichtern, teaches shamatha or mindfulness meditation which is a basic, foundational practice cultivating a simple awareness. The benefit is that we become more synchronized in body & mind and begin to relate to our world in a less distracted & more wakeful way. It sounds too good to not at least give it a try!
Many times I feel like a juggler trying to keep all the balls in the air… kids, aging parents, work, DH, other family & relationships, etc. But, it some times feels like I'm just barely catching those balls before they hit the ground, and that too many slip through my hands. So, mindfulness meditation it is.
The latest dilemma though seems to be working itself out… "seems to be" is the key here! DH & I were to go to dinner with another couple tomorrow night. I had emailed the wife to set it up & she said one of their sons had a game & they wouldn't be able to go before 8. I obsessed over it last night (crazily losing sleep over it) as I don't like to eat or be out that late because of my acid relax/sleep issues. I thought sure that DH would put up a fight but decided to approach him suggesting we instead meet them for a drink (non-alcoholic for me as I gave ti up for lent) after dinner. He said to do whatever I was comfortable with (without even saying that later is no problem for him) & work it out with her -- yeah! So, i emailed her back explaining my situation & we'll go from there. Now, how do I stop losing sleep over such minor things… my next dilemma!?!
I have tennis a little later from 10:30-12 noon -- my other crazy dilemma as the timing impacts my IF 16:8, so I'm wondering what others do that try to eat that way. With my bulletproof coffee & some coconut water before, I'm not really hungry beforehand, but sometimes feel my energy waning during & the feeling of getting too hungry towards the end. So, do I eat something even though I'm not hungry before, or try again to have a snack with me for right after? I tried the snack route once but it was after also staying an extra 1/2 hour chatting (my other favorite sport!) & my too hungry escalated later that night into overeating. Any suggestions?
And, while typing this a real dilemma occurred putting it all into perspective. My Mom had asked me to call her this morning as a backup as she's been having trouble with her alarm clock & she wanted to be sure to not miss the bus to go grocery shopping. She hadn't been answering, so I finally called the staff at her retirement home. She fell at some point during the night, but she"s ok & just a little bruised. I just spoke with her & they'll keep checking on her. I was really, really scared but able to pray & breathe through it.
So, now I'll get on my way again in much more needed prayer --
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.
And through this one day, and each one meal, moment, bite, thought & emotion, I'll pray, breathe, journal, log & express my way. I'm so very grateful more than anything that my Mom is ok, for each of you & truly don't know what I'd do without you and our special and safe place here where I can vent about the insignificant as the significant happens, my family & IRL friends, a very special email friend who is always there for me, bulletproof coffee which tastes especially good this morning, and having the health & wealth to live this life I love! xoxox
Diet Calendar Entries for 11 April 2014:
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1344 kcal
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Fat: 39.14g | Prot: 97.76g | Carb: 176.25g.
Breakfast: Isagenix IsaLean Bar - Natural Oatmeal Raisin, Bananas, Spectrum Naturals Organic Coconut Oil, Harmless Harvest 100% Raw Coconut Water. Lunch: Primal Nutrition Primal Fuel - Chocolate Coconut, Lactaid 100% Lactose Free Fat Free Milk. Dinner: Best Yet Mixed Berries, Trader Joe's grilled chicken strips, Stew Leonard's Healthy Vegetable Soup, Roasted Cauliflower, Figs. Snacks/Other: Evolve Greek Kefir, Ralphs Whole Raw Almonds, Whole Foods Market Avocado Vinaigrette Dressing, Mann's Sunny Shores Rainbow Salad. more...
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1953 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 14 hours and 30 minutes, Tennis - 1 hour and 30 minutes. more...
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