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Sometimes the journey seems so long that giving up seems like the only option... Good Monday morning everyone...I hope you are all having a wonderful day! I hope that all of you had a fantastic weekend. Its been a long one for me. So my mother in law was back in the ER all weekend, in quarantine, because of the infection she has in her intestine. My husband was a wreck, thinking she wouldnt make it. She is home now, but still very sick. I wish that they would have kept her, only because she wont stop when she is home. She constantly is up working and doing things instead of resting. I want her to get better. I want her to live a long life, but she is working herself to death and no one can stop her. On top of that, though, the infection she has is highly contagious for people and animals. We have kids living in our house and I just think that it was irresponsible of the doctors to clear her to leave just because she was saying she wanted to go home. Though, if I get it, it causes rapid weight loss, so maybe it would be the best for me! HaHa!!! We are looking at places to move out on our own. I am so tired of living like we do. We pay rent, but we are constantly reminded that we only live there, that it is HER house. The threat of raised rent, monthly room inspections, always being on guard because her attitude...I just cant do it anymore. I am not leaving my husband, but if we dont leave that situation soon, it will start to effect our marriage. His sister is a tyrant who lords over us that we live WITH her, that she is the name on the lease, its HER house...I know that I have failed a lot in my life, so I dont need the constant reminder that I dont have my own place. I am not allowed to cook, I am not allowed to even go into the kitchen without 200 questions. She is always mad, always unhappy, and I just cant do it anymore. If it wasnt like that, if she was a reasonable person who didnt treat us like we are trolls under her bridge, we might be able to make it work, but not like this, not anymore. I am having a sort of crisis of faith this last few weeks. It seems like I am being tested beyond my ability and I dont have it in me anymore. I am tired. I will pray for strength, for renewal, or for a miracle...thats what I really need...a miracle. If any of you who pray are willing, please pray for my miracle...because I dont have it in my anymore to keep going like this... Thanks for reading this...please be good to each other...depression is real and very scary...you never know what struggles that may seem trivial to you, are heavier than others can handle.
Diet Calendar Entry for 09 July 2018:
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745 kcal
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Fat: 70.38g | Prot: 25.41g | Carb: 0.53g.
Breakfast: Land O'Lakes Heavy Whipping Cream, Coffee (Brewed From Grounds), Carrington Farms Pure, Unrefined, Cold Pressed Coconut Oil 100% Organic Extra Virgin. Dinner: Johnsonville Sausage Patty. Snacks/Other: Bob's Red Mill Unsweetened Shredded Coconut. more...
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I hope you both can find peace and a way out on your own. Giving up on your health is not an option. Stay with it!
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Let's hope that you find a place to live that is reasonable so you can have a more peaceful life. And that by your prayers are answered.
09 Jul 18 by member: Fishingwidow
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I hope you and your family will be able to get out of that situation soon. My prayers are with you.
09 Jul 18 by member: dboza
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Environment is so important! I will say a prayer that you find a place that helps you continue on your journey to better health!
09 Jul 18 by member: abbadabba
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Praying for you and for a blessing that you can find your own place sooner rather than later. Don’t give up on yourself, your health and well-being is what’s important.
09 Jul 18 by member: goldendiva0817
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I know that you have been struggling with this for a very long time...Keep the faith. We always made our family just the hubby and when kids came along then it became a little larger. It is amazing that people who have the bad issues don't realize that they are transferring the unhappiness to the everyone around them. The bright side is always better than the alternative. Someday they will need you and then you will have the option. I know that you are a better person.... and will make the correct decision. Just thinking aloud, do you have a written rental agreement that gives you access to all. That would piss them off....
09 Jul 18 by member: cstella1
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Praying for all, thanks for letting us all know how to appreciate life when things do go well...we all needed this!
09 Jul 18 by member: sandylulu
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Sending prayers your way! Just remember it always gets worst just before your blessing come! God is always on time never late. His timing is not ours. I pray he will give you strength to go through and a door will open for you and your family.
09 Jul 18 by member: eatolive4life
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My m-i-l (afflicted with dementia) insisted on coming home AND despite a highly contagious bacterial GI infection with uncontrolled diarrhea and MRSA! My f-i-l, who did not understand the risk, allowed it. I called their doctor to report how very sick the woman still was. The doctor convinced my f-i-l of the need for readmission under quarantine. In your situation, I would be most concerned about the risk to the children, who are very vulnerable to (what sounds like it could be) a life-threatening bacteria GI infection.
09 Jul 18 by member: Miraculum
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God will never send anything your way that you can’t handle. Sure it may be hard, but it’s the difficulties that make us grow stronger. Try to keep your head up. Things are bound to change. In the mean time, I’ll be praying.
09 Jul 18 by member: verzer1
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I had three years after a really hard break-up back in 1998-2001 where I had to move back in with my parents. That was three of the worst years of my life, you can't, "go home", getting out was probably the toughest and trying time of my life, and this is coming from a guy that was diagnosed with heart disease the following year. Love my family, but don't want to be around them for longer than a few hours at a time.
09 Jul 18 by member: @philrmcknight
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Seems like terrible situation! Praying relief comes your way very soon.
09 Jul 18 by member: gloriabrame
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Adding my prayers. I've been in a "bunched up" situation (2 couples and 3 children in a single-wide mobile home) and I know how awfully stressful that can be. I will pray for you to have your own space for your health and peace. God bless.
09 Jul 18 by member: Nidoqueen
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I am just throwing this out there, I am pretty sure she has C-diff by the way you are describing. If it is, that is very deadly to elderly and children. And it comes back all the time. The only thing that kills it is bleach. Hand sanitizer won’t kill it. You have to wash hands very very well all the time.
I won’t let her cook any food that myself or my kids eat. And I would use a different bathroom than her. And clean my house with bleach daily.
09 Jul 18 by member: kandyRN
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Oh my god! I’m SO SORRY!!! There is nothing worse than living with relatives, because what you would allow yourself in dealing with strangers- will be taken personally. You definitely can’t stay with them if you want a happy life. Move out. Your health, health of your kids and your marriage is way more important than any money in the world
09 Jul 18 by member: kdelaurens
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Praying for you Klynn. It's time to live your own life. No need to be under someone like that. Even if it's a studio apt. get your own place. You'll see, you'll be back to your cheerful self in no time. <3
09 Jul 18 by member: Becc@
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Agree with everyone else. Get out of there as soon as you can. You will be much more able to build from a place of support and sanity.
09 Jul 18 by member: jengetfit123
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saying a prayer now. Sounds like you definitely need your own space for your family and you!!! Sorry you're going through this...I remember when I've been in this situation years ago...it's not easy when you have no where to feel welcome and peaceful. Hang in there this is just a short season in your life!!!
09 Jul 18 by member: Sharons Victory
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get out I can't imagine living in such a toxic environment.
09 Jul 18 by member: baskington
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Klynn, your health and happiness are suffering right now. It does sound temporary but it must feel like an impossible situation. You are stronger than you realize and hopefully can cope knowing it can't last forever. Praying that you can get your family out of the toxic and into some place of peace. Hang on, don't let the bullies win.
09 Jul 18 by member: sallkr3
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