DairyFarmersWife's Journal, 18 May 2018

Huh.. I think I might be THAT mom. Or maybe the teacher thought I needed chaperone training wheels. The zoo trip was great. I volunteered to basically watch my own kid. So many parent's volunteered that everyone got 2 kids to watch. I got one. Or maybe I only got my own because my kid's attention span is only 60 seconds so we looked at every animal for about 60 seconds before we ran onto the next one. We would linger with his classmates for about 90 seconds before they were designated as too slow and then he would run onward. The cool thing is they are setting up a dinosaur theme for after memorial day where the dinosaurs will move and shoot water at people. Looks like I know what I'm doing with the kids next month. Nothing better than speed walking a zoo with dinosaurs about to eat you.

Speaking of speed walking. I did a lot of thinking about some of the advice I was given regarding training for the 5K. I really did think about what people said and while I know the advice comes from a good place and some of it may be valid.... I'm kind of a stubborn brat. I think it's a skill someone really strengthens as a farmer. You set your brain on a task and you complete that task no matter how deep the manure gets, how many times you smash your thumb, or how hot you get, or where the hay flies and sticks and itches.., and when everything goes up in disaster.. at least we can stand there with our hands on our hips looking like a hot mess and proudly proclaim... Well that should have worked. Then someone gets a sledgehammer and they make it fit. That is running to me.

My last run I thought about the comment that I need to lose weight before I try running. I'm also a woman so that translated in my head to "You're too freaking fat to run." Because translating things in my head is also a talent of mine. And you know what.. it SUCKED. My time SUCKED. My ability to take the uncomfortable parts and work through them vanished. I almost quit and said screw it. That translated into my head as "Why am I even trying this? I can't do this." and then I ate cake and bought some twizzlers and stopped for sushi after the field trip... you get the idea. Mini binge/implosion. This.. is me. This is what I do. This is me struggling with feeling good enough or worthy enough. It's my own internal little battlefield.

Today? Today I'm swinging a sledgehammer and I'm going to make it work. I joined a running site with a beginners section that basically covers everything I'm going through. It has suggestions with exercises to add, adjusting my stride on hills, etc. My daughter and I have an ongoing joke about being strong like bull. I... am strong like bull. Meaning I don't give up. Plus.. if a 2000 lb bull can run then so can I.

Plus lets face it.. being heavy and out of shape is probably worse for my health in the long run than the possibility of getting some shin splints. And.. I'm pretty sure I'm already screwed by the number of times I have been kicked, had my foot crushed, or any number of other injuries caused by cows. Being unable to run from a bull is more hazardous to my health... Just sayin... Screw discomfort. I'm doing this.

Diet Calendar Entries for 18 May 2018:
1269 kcal Fat: 90.50g | Prot: 82.26g | Carb: 34.63g.   Breakfast: Great Value Dry-Cured Hard Salami, Provolone Cheese and Dark Chocolate Covered Almonds, Keto Coffee. Lunch: Chicken Breast, Ralphs Pepperjack Cheese. Snacks/Other: Atkins Endulge Chocolate Coconut Bar. more...
2615 kcal Activities & Exercise: Fitbit - 24 hours. more...

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18 May 18 by member: jimmiepop
You go girl!!! Farm kids grow up to be tough as nails farm adults with a "You can't do that. Oh yeah, watch me" attitude.  
18 May 18 by member: UK cats
"Screw discomfort. I'm doing this" Spot on [bleeping] perfect!!! I ran 5k at 280, was running half marathon distance at 260-250. You can do what you want to do. Sure it will hurt but like you said, 'screw it!' Just do it. Having someone work with your stride is a good thing. When I was running changing that made all the difference in the world in the endurance department. Keep at it, you sure as [bleep] can do it! 
18 May 18 by member: JLente
Great that you found a site that can help guide you. Make sure you take the time to rest and recover...that is my biggest downfall. You got this!  
18 May 18 by member: Stephilyn9
It’s the best attitude to have! LOL And the inly real way to make running work! Cuz face it, it sucks to run. Your chest flops, you sweat in uncomfortable places and women have a tendency to waddle, but those endorphins! LOL 🙋🏻 
18 May 18 by member: smprowett
Good for you!! On all fronts making it through the field trip and the 5K training. You'll be awesome. I enjoy my workouts, but I have way more discomfort running, so I tend to avoid it. I'm doing a 5K tomorrow and I plan to run as much as I can, even it's slow going. You can do anything you put your mind too, you're stubborn so take on the challenge and kick it in the butt! 
18 May 18 by member: mars2kids
Great determination!! You can totally do it! 
18 May 18 by member: momma6224
Beautiful piece of property. 
18 May 18 by member: Kenna Morton
You are so fun! I love your determination and I know that I wouldn’t bet against you! 
18 May 18 by member: glen
Your attitude is awesome! Of course you can do this! Love your "2000 lb bull running...." :)  
18 May 18 by member: kattay


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