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I was having an awful "ugly day" yesterday after looking at myself in my phone's camera. I guess I've been immune to the mirror when I walk by. I'm so self critical. I've always had a little redness on my face, a tiny bit of cover up did the trick, but I don't even really remember what it's like to wear real make-up or if I should.
Then of course my thoughts would roam to how "round and fat" my face is to "Well of course your face is round and fat, you are round and fat!"
I know I've lost 64 lbs total if you count my highest weight from 3 years ago. I lost 20 then sort of slowed down when I got sick, but since then it's been about 40 more. I should be proud of how much I've lost thus far, but right now I'm not. It's one of those periods where I'm constantly beating myself up about "How did you let it get this bad?"
I'm really trying to change my negative thinking about my body. (Scheduled therapy appointment) This whole idea that we can't be happy without X,Y,Z is ludicrous. But feels very real. I want to be able to accept myself for who I am.
TLDR This was mostly a rant for myself - just to sort out some feelings. I was going to just delete it, but I don't want to delete a very real moment I had with myself.
I blame hormones and now I'll go get my 250 steps for this hour. ;)
All of you are inspirational and even though I'm feeling "down" about myself right now, I know I just have to ride the wave and it will change. <3 Shine on and I hope everyone can give themselves a little SELF LOVE today!
Diet Calendar Entries for 22 May 2016:
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1560 kcal
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Fat: 75.17g | Prot: 67.56g | Carb: 154.31g.
Breakfast: Peanut Butter & Co White Chocolate Wonderful Peanut Butter, Bananas, Black Tea, Blue Diamond Almond Breeze Unsweetened Vanilla Milk, Teavana Perfect Tea Rock Sugar. Lunch: Peanut Butter & Co White Chocolate Wonderful Peanut Butter, Olive Oil, Flatout Multi Grain Wrap, Skinless Chicken Breast, Garlic, Delallo Pesto Sauce in Olive Oil, Zucchini (with Salt, Drained, Cooked, Boiled), Monterey Jack Cheese. Dinner: Peanut Butter & Co White Chocolate Wonderful Peanut Butter, Amy's Chili Mac Bowls. Snacks/Other: Triquetra Health Certified Organic Spirulina Tablets, Now Foods Certified Organic Chlorella Tablets, Lemon, Enzymatic Therapy Fiber Fusion Daily - Gentle Cleansing Fiber, Onnit TPC Total Primate Care - Night Pack, Onnit TPC Total Primate Care - Day Pack, Surthrival Organic Shizandra Concentrate. more...
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Ride the wave and shine on!
22 May 16 by member: FrankieBluEyes
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when one is tryin so hard to stick to a plan that is working for them..its so hard not to get down..but you have to look at the weight you have lost an use that as motivation for what you want to accomplish..one day at a time makes a healthier habit..
22 May 16 by member: wannabhealthier
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The woulda, coulda, shouldas are insidious negative thoughts, we all have them and they eat you up from the inside out. Interesting that Sugar Waffle's post today is about that very thing. The past is gone, you can't change it, beating yourself up about it is simply adding insult to injury. You can plan for the future, but there are no guarantees that you will get what you want or where you want to be. You have right this minute to choose to be happy with who you are. There are no conditions that have to be met to be happy, you either are or you aren't. We get so caught up in what we don't have or haven't done that we fail to be grateful for what we do have and have done. Count your blessings, look at all you have accomplished and everything and everyone that surrounds you and make that enough, smile because you are right where you are supposed to be and always on time!
22 May 16 by member: debrafrederick
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Awesome wisdom Debrafrederick :)
22 May 16 by member: Sugar Waffle
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What a great idea for getting the steps in. Thanks. Quit beating yourself up. That's negative and you don't need that. The positive is that you've found a way to lose weight. You're doing so good. keep it up
22 May 16 by member: dboza
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we all have bad days or ugly days...just start anew...I agree with all of the comments above! love yourself!
22 May 16 by member: iulani
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Be proud, never go back, keep on keeping on! You will get there, all in due time. Be patient and know there's a finish line! You got this!!
22 May 16 by member: Mistybenner
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You inspire me, I've just lost my first 20. Congratulations on your success and dedication!!
22 May 16 by member: owenswife
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Yes, we all have days where we are self critical - no matter where we are in the journey - but just stick with the plan and eventually you start feeling good!
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WIHI, you've found a place and a path that works for you...a community with each of us helping and inspiring each other...take some pride in deciding to make changes AND getting results, looking forward to your future, take care!!
22 May 16 by member: Steven Lloyd
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