puhpine's Journal, 07 May 2014

All alone am i

Have you ever waited to be alone so you could eat? Have you ever find yourself taking a deep breath when you are alone and thinking, now what do i have in my cupboards? Have you ever eaten in the kitchen so no-one would notice? Have you ever not recorded some foods out of fear that other FS members are going to hold you accountable?

If the answer is YES to any of these questions, then you have the problem called "eating in secret disorder" The most common reason is "to avoid discussions". A lot of people eat in secret, but it is not ok! If you are on a diet and you find yourself eating in secret, you find you have a problem bigger then your waist!

If you look back at my eating lists, you can see that i write down all the chocolate i eat, and sometimes it is too much. But i have recently found myself thinking, ouch, if i eat this or that i am going to have to write it down, and i am amazed at how many FS members are reading my journal lately. I want to set a good example for all those members!
I had a discussion with myself, and i came to the conclusion: that the only way i can set the right example is to be totally honest with myself, and it should not matter how many people can see or comment on my foodlist.

IF and only IF you are true to yourself, can you start to truly change who you are!

That means if you ate something you should not have, or if you are about to eat something you shouldn't...
BE ACCOUNTABLE TO YOURSELF,
and trust me, if you have passed your own tests, there is NOTHING anybody else can throw at you, that you cannot handle!




Diet Calendar Entries for 07 May 2014:
2787 kcal Fat: 113.99g | Prot: 173.69g | Carb: 262.01g.   Breakfast: Delicata Zeebanket, Delicata Zeebanket, Delicata Zeebanket, Kipfilet, Gekookt Ei, Coffee, Tomatoes, Liga Belvita Breakfast. Lunch: Optimel Yoghurt Griekse Stijl Framboos, Calorie Light, Gouda Cheese, Whole Wheat Bread, Optimel Yoghurt Griekse Stijl Framboos. Dinner: Nestle Kit Kat Extra Crispy, Nestle Kit Kat Extra Crispy, Gouda Cheese, Nestle Kit Kat Extra Crispy, Princes Wild Pink Salmon, Spaghetti, AH Champignon Ragout. Snacks/Other: Nature Made Calcium, Glaceau Smartwater - Electrolyte Enhanced Water (33.8 oz). more...
3375 kcal Activities & Exercise: Horseback Riding - 1 hour, Boxing - 1 hour, Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 14 hours. more...

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I totally agree with you. Thanks for sharing 
07 May 14 by member: Buffy101
100% agree  
07 May 14 by member: pontik
I agree as well- and this is one of the many reasons i am the size i am- because we all know if no one sees you eat it then you really didnt eat it right ?? LOLOL but yes i log every thing the good the bad and sometimes the ugly.... btw my 11 yr old read your entry out loud for me and wanted to say something to you... OMG that was so motivating! i 100% totally agree with you! 
07 May 14 by member: fludderbye
Often it is the thought (or inconvenience) of logging something that helps me avoid eating it. Thanks :-) 
07 May 14 by member: mgrill
Logging my food and being honest with myself about what I'm eating it is what is making this work for me. 
07 May 14 by member: jmb3450
A while back I found myself shaving points off my food diary because I wanted to not go over 100% ... like that 'red' was bad. I get that the programmers have discussions and reasons for some of the subliminal messages but much like the weight tracker is color varied to the weight loss vs goal that RDI goes red at 101%. LOL. I agree. I record it now even if it goes to 150%. It's my diary, my journal, my use. Anyone else reading it should honored I share it. Maybe they'll learn from me 'how not to lose weight' or maybe they'll snicker at me and feel smug about their control. This is my last shot to get this healthy living thing right (so I feel) and I'm doing it all above board. 
07 May 14 by member: FullaBella
I love logging my food. It really brings home to me how much fat there is in some food. I am also trying to eat 60% carbs, 20% fat and 20% protein. FS works it all out for me and it also reminds me to keep my sodium down. I think it's a very valuable tool.  
07 May 14 by member: Buffy101
Thanks Maud. 
07 May 14 by member: ClassicRocker
Bravo !!!! I love that 
07 May 14 by member: SherrieC
I second that mgrill 
07 May 14 by member: jessabridge4444
YEP! How about chronic dieter, over exerciser, binge/purge, starve yourself silly and stuff yourself because you are gonna start a diet "tomorrow"... 
07 May 14 by member: iulani
Unless the people that are seeing and commenting on your food list and journal are rude and make nasty comments - which happened to me the other day. I closed my journal off for only my buddies because of a comment that was made. I say Kudos for saying to put it all out there for everyone to read, but when you read something on someone's journal - remember that we are here for support not criticism.  
07 May 14 by member: Momma2girls
Love it! Great reminder. I'm guilty of putting off the journal entry for dinner until the next morning which isn't a good idea either. Momma2girls, how rude some people are! We are all here for support and encouragement - we've obviously all struggled with our weight or we wouldn't be here. Sorry you had to deal with rude people here.  
07 May 14 by member: Kiki8123
Hear, hear! I too have those conversations with myself about what a hassle it's going to be to record something or how I'd be embarrassed if someone read my food journal. Thankfully, I have no problem eating my moderate amounts of sweets. I've been upfront about how I'm not swearing off of sugar and only REDUCING my carb intake a bit. But yes, we need to be accountable and honest and it starts with ourselves! Sorry Momma2girls, I know what comment you are referring to and it makes me sad that people are like that. 
07 May 14 by member: gilliansings
@fludderbye & dau, good for you, for doing this together! @Momma2girls it is not nice when people give you stupid remarks, but THAT is exactly what this journal is all about ... don't hide yourself, nor your eating habits, dont be a secret eater! Like @FullaBella said, if you did do bad, at least you made someone else feel better about themselves for a short moment (*lol*)  
07 May 14 by member: puhpine
Report Abuse! I wouldn't stand for it. I had it on another well known site when someone confused me with someone else. There are some right nasty horrible people. Momma2girls sorry that you experienced that. We are ALL overweight here or have been. 
07 May 14 by member: Buffy101
I usually only post once a day. This little write-up has inspired a confession from me. I just did a journal post in this regards. Puhpine. We should get together and hang out. Get in each others faces when the temptation arises. You could spot me while I'm lifting weights and I'd let you punch my new avatar. 
07 May 14 by member: northernmusician
Puhpine....I'm not hiding my eating, I'm hiding my journal because of the diet I chose for myself. I'm definitely not a secret eater. Gilliansings...yup, I cried - while running on the treadmill trying to digest my thoughts.  
07 May 14 by member: Momma2girls
M2G - whoever did that wasn't worthy of your time or thoughts. What's their name? I'll kick their avatar! 
07 May 14 by member: FullaBella
Interesting thoughs. I guess I've been a 'secret eater' to some extent. When I eat total junk (say, taco bell) I even feel ashamed walking in to my house with it, hoping the neighbors don't see. And I've always been one to take my lunch break away from work completely. I am not as ashamed now to munch on something sensible at my desk, but half the crap I was eating for lunch (entire large mac n cheese from noodles & co) was quite embarrassing.  
07 May 14 by member: megmonster

     
 

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