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So life has been a lot of lemons lately mixed in with some really awesome events that I guess we will call the lemonade. If I were not a recovered add survivor, and weren’t so goddamn tough, this week would have surely broken me. The unthinkable has happened, A member of the school staff play state complaint call to the department of human services child protective services and stated that I am in fact drugging night child. I am disgusted and embarrassed, and I have the right to medicate my child, who by the way chooses to stay up all night, it is behavioral, and not a side effect of any kind of medication. I feel like I am always under attack, for either of medicating him too much or not enough, and nobody really knows the full story except for his father and his pediatrician and myself. I’m having this social worker come over tomorrow to our home, rather than at her office because I want her to see my home and I want her to see Matthew there. She told me that I’m not in trouble, that this is her third complaint call this week and just medications. She said that I’m not doing anything wrong, and that she’s going to supply me with an advocate to go between myself and the school. I then took that information and went back to the school and let his teacher and the principal know about this advocate being appointed to me, and I requested that everything be put in writing from this point on rather than just phone calls. I can handle this. I’m a great mom, and I don’t know who would do something like this, but I’m going to prove them all wrong and I’m going to come out on top. I am so horrifically stressed and probably have PMS right now too, so guess what? I’ve eaten the majority have a full bag of apples today. And guess what else? I had an entire bag full of kale chips. But you know what I didn’t eat? A full little Caesars pizza and four boxes of Little Debbies. And I certainly could have. But I chose not to. And now I’ve got my workout gear on, and I’m going to get my 1 mile in and I’m going to listen to some pretty awesome girl rap music while I’m running. Then it’s off to the races for the middle child and the ferret and the therapist, and then Matthew and I will go back home and enjoy some chicken vegetable soup and a salad. Just so everyone here knows, you can face scary as shit life events, like the death of an immediate family member, the purchase of a new home, the absence of a caregiver, the extreme difficulty academically with your child. You can face anything. And you don’t have to use food. If eating through stress is your comfort zone, and you just end up being a hot mess make your eating somethingLike carrots and apples, and still give yourself rewards and build those treats into your way of eating. Do not do it I did for so many years and completely re-strict which only lead to benches. I hope that everyone is Monday hasn’t kicked their ass like I try to do mine, but if it does, come back swinging and tell them who’s boss. You got this.
Diet Calendar Entry for 01 October 2018:
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1812 kcal
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Fat: 59.13g | Prot: 34.97g | Carb: 307.12g.
Breakfast: Milk (Nonfat) . Lunch: Apples , Simply Nature Kale Chips. Dinner: Vegetable Chicken or Turkey Soup (Prepared with Water or Ready-to-Serve), Green Olives, Green Olives, Mixed Salad Greens. Snacks/Other: Kellogg's Special K Pumpkin Spice Crunch, Reese's Peanut Butter Cups (Snack Size), Little Debbie Pumpkin Shortbread Cookies, Kellogg's Pop-Tarts Frosted - Strawberry. more...
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