|Start Weight:||(20 Jul 13) 172.0 lb|
|Current Weight:||(21 Jan 15) 162.5 lb|
|Goal Weight:||140.0 lb|
following: Calorie Count
performance: gaining 1.1 lb a week
I'm happily married for going on 8 years, Mom to two sweet little girls (ages 5 & 0), and a former foster kid. I aged out of the system, but was a ward of the state of Maryland from age 15 to 21. I have a history of clinical depression and psychiatric hospitalizations. That's a large part of why I spent the majority of my adolescence in foster care.
My mom suffers from a debilitating mental illness that has triggered for me many body image/ psychological issues. My mom's condition is untreated schizophrenia that was initially diagnosed when I was 14. Food has often been a faulty coping mechanism. I don't think I've ever weighed over 200lbs; however, I don't yet have a healthy relationship with food, I'm not as healthy as I can be, and I've mostly been dissatisfied with my weight. Since my high school freshman year, I've weighed no less than 130lb, averaging 150lb or more for the majority of my late teen/adult life. For my frame and height, an ideal weight/ body composition would be around 130lb/ 17% body fat. That is my ultimate fitness goal.
My youth was troubled; however, I see my life now as full of promise and hope. My faith is a central part of that perspective change and an integral part of who I am now. I've been a believer for almost 8 years now. I know G-d has not only redeemed my painful childhood, but given me a unique opportunity to encourage others through my testimony. Furthermore, G-d has abundantly blessed me with the family I now have.
At one time I was in so much pain, without hope, and was seriously planning to kill myself on what would have been my 22nd birthday because I saw no end to the misery in sight. G-d radically changed my life that year in ways I could not even have imagined. Now I am looking forward to turning 30. I am motivated to gain a new level of health that I've never had before, and I enjoy my life.
(Ephesians 3:14-21) :)