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Good morning Friends! I been away for awhile. I needed to take a break from the madness. I've been so depressed and feeling like a failure that I didn't want to face the fact that I can't control my eating. I've been eating what I want and hating myself every time I put something in my mouth. I need help!
I did a lot of thinking over the weekend. It was my birthday and I realized that after 57 years I still eat to deal with my feelings. Happy, sad, mad, you name it. Food was the way I always dealt with it. Food gives me comfort. Even if it's for a little while. I don't know why it started, but it's something I've been doing since I was little. Maybe I need to see a shrink! Maybe it's too late for me. Maybe I just need to sit down and realize that I'm only hurting myself by eating my feelings. I don't know what to do!
Sooooo, today I will start again for the 1000th time. You just never know, this could be the time I actually get my s**t together and start caring about myself. I need to take my own advise "stay strong". Hopefully I have another 50 years to get this right.
Stay Strong everyone. Today is a new day.
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157.2 lb
Lost so far: 9.8 lb.
Still to go: 7.2 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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Diet Calendar Entry for 04 June 2018:
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1137 kcal
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Fat: 45.13g | Prot: 67.10g | Carb: 119.16g.
Breakfast: Nature Valley Protein Chewy Bars - Peanut Butter Dark Chocolate, Coffee (Brewed From Grounds), Cinnamon. Lunch: Atkins Dark Chocolate Royale Shake, Cauliflower, Broccoli. Dinner: Milk (Nonfat), Hometown Buffet Broccoli Bacon Salad, Kroger Smoked Pulled Pork, Applegate Farms Smoked Chicken Breast. Snacks/Other: M&M's Peanut M&M's, Four Peaks Kiltlifter Scottish Ale, Driscoll's Raspberries. more...
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losing 1.2 lb a week
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Well, at least you lost weight since you last weighed. I can totally relate to eating your feelings and I'm sure most FS members are exactly the same, so don't feel odd at all! The only way to help, I find, is not have fattening food in the house. That, and recording everything you eat so you can see exactly what foods do the most damage. Just never give up - you'll get there eventually!
04 Jun 18 by member: Doobrie
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It is a long road ahead and we are here for you in your time of struggles and successes. Today IS a new day.
04 Jun 18 by member: chesgreen
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I can super relate to your post. Welcome back! Don't quit trying!
04 Jun 18 by member: jengetfit123
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Every morning is a new chance to begin again. You can do this, you can overcome the addiction to food as well. Its hard, I know, I struggle daily, but it can be done!! We've got you!! You can do it!!
04 Jun 18 by member: Klynn82
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You're here, so that's huge! Congrats on that. ❤
04 Jun 18 by member: reganshale
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I'm sixty, and have restarts! Just keep moving with it. My grandfather took up painting at age sixty, so did Grandma Moses. I knew a woman who changed her SAD diet at age 60, then lived to be almost 100 with her new and improved health. You can do it!
04 Jun 18 by member: moogiemynes
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I feel your pain and know exactly where you are mentally. All I can offer is to come to FS daily with your struggles as this community is awesome. We’re all going through something, you are NEVER alone. Whenever I have a cheat meal, or that piece of cake because I want it and I don’t care, I feel soooo guilty. Not only because of the weight I’ll probably gain, but because my insulin shot is going to be bigger 😢. However, I don’t continue the next day. Instead I pick myself up of the floor and try again. Remember, this is a life change, not a diet. Never say diet! I really hate that word and I don’t hate most anything. Hang tough and never give up, you got this! 😘
04 Jun 18 by member: tinast
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In my real world the word diet is never, ever used. A diet is for your wedding, or the prom. A lifestyle change is a WOE, A way of living (being as active as your disabilities allow) that you can do Day in and day out without sliding off a cliff into an abyss.
04 Jun 18 by member: Kenna Morton
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The fact that you came back is a credit to you. We are all here for you. All of us have been there and found strength with all the encouragement.
04 Jun 18 by member: cstella1
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One day at a time. It is not the worst thing to see someone about troubles you might want help with - a therapist, a nutritionist, a gym trainer?
04 Jun 18 by member: abbadabba
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