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Gentlemen, you may want to just skip over this one. Your comments are always welcome, but don't say I didn't warn you that you may get more than you bargained for here.
I had noticed during the day yesterday that I was feeling very snacky and wanting to eat constantly, which is weird cause I normally never have snack urges. But I kept it controlled, figuring my body needed fuel and keeping the snacks healthy and within calorie limits even if I was a little over my 30% or less carb target. I planned on eating more protein for dinner to even it out, and all would be good. Then I noticed I was getting needy, like emotionally needy, and wanting to cuddle, and getting easily frustrated, and it was like, "Oh, crap. Frickin' PMS is here."
And then I went legit crazy last night, decided I wasn't cooking, and OMG I needed food, and the family needs to eat... and I ended up at Popeye's Chicken. Believe it or not, it gets even worse. We had to wait so long for our order, they threw in 6 dessert pies.
I still haven't logged all the food, and I'm struggling to bring myself to do it. I know it's going to be bad, like more than a whole day's calories bad. And really I just needed to put this all out here for accountability purposes and as I'm typing it's getting easier to own up to it and face logging it all.
But I'm just really disappointed in myself, especially after I commented on HardDaysKnight's journal yesterday about how I was finally feeling back in control after my weekend cheat, only to go food insane two hours later. And then to step on the scale today and see myself up a pound from last week. I know looking at my trending I bump up every fourth week just to have a big drop the next, so I'm sure some of it is because of where I'm at in my cycle, but I'm really afraid that that food monster is going to possess me again before I get through this.
And (deep breath) now I feel better having gotten this out. Logging on FS this morning was absolutely amazing seeing so many people celebrating reaching their small and major goals. You people truly are inspiring, so if you've gotten this far thank you so much for posting your stories! You really pulled me outta my self-pity party just by being you.
I'm gonna go log "the chickening" now.
Diet Calendar Entry for 02 May 2018:
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1214 kcal
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Fat: 51.81g | Prot: 86.19g | Carb: 101.83g.
Breakfast: Herbalife Nutritional Shake Mix - Pralines & Cream, Herbalife Protein Drink Mix - Vanilla. Lunch: Garlic Butter, Cooked Mushrooms, Athenos Natural Crumbled Feta Cheese, Ken's Steak House Country French with Vermont Honey Dressing, T. Marzetti Caesar Baked Croutons, Fresh Express Spring Mix, Lemon Juice, Sweet Pickle Relish, Hellmann's Real Mayonnaise, Kraft Sun Dried Tomato Vinaigrette Dressing & Marinade, Baked or Broiled Cod. Dinner: Birds Eye Voila! Garlic Chicken. Snacks/Other: Herbalife Nutritional Shake Mix - Dutch Chocolate, Herbalife Protein Drink Mix - Vanilla. more...
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don't beat yourself up! I have done the same on posting on someone else's post. then to find myself face down in a pizza box later that day. stay strong.
02 May 18 by member: marshakanady
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Been there! Try not to beat yourself up about it. You are aware of what happened, so that is a big step!
02 May 18 by member: jengetfit123
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Sorry to go off post..... How do I start my own string????? Please advise! THANKS
02 May 18 by member: pgranaldi
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No matter what you did yesterday, today is another day , Good luck with your plans!!!
02 May 18 by member: Keilin_4
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Thanks, Milla. What's hardest on me is that I never used to get PMS or understand what women were talking about when they described these types of experiences, and then in my late 30's it was like I suddenly had to make up for all those years without it. I'm convinced it's karma for being so insensitive to other women about it when I was younger.
02 May 18 by member: Toumina
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@pgranaldi, up top do you see an icon that looks like a page from a journal? If you click on that, it will take to you "record a journal entry". Just type what you want to share and click submit, and it will start your own string.
02 May 18 by member: Toumina
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Thanks, everyone. That's what I love about this site is that in the time it took to respond to Milla, three other people popped up with support. I very much appreciate all of you.
02 May 18 by member: Toumina
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I find that it takes a few days to get back on track after swerving off the path. The farther I venture off if it the longer it takes to get back on, and you're right the cravings are insane. Maybe I get PMS too and just unaware. Your awareness is the key. Most are in denial when they come unhinged thus being unaccountable, and to the most important person--self. You got this.
02 May 18 by member: adamevegod1
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Cuddling... ewww. lol Fried chicken would be the last thing I binged on, that's worse than cuddling. Now some fried cod, ala fish n' chips style, I could totally go off the rails at Long John Silvers.
02 May 18 by member: @philrmcknight
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My OB/GYN said get the required amount of calcium and vitamin D each day. It really helped.
02 May 18 by member: abbadabba
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Also I think the big swing in your diet can effect your emotions at a hormonal or chemical level.
02 May 18 by member: Elena Midnight
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You are not alone. I am the same way, from trending upward around that time of the month and losing it the following week, to not logging food because of the guilt. Yesterday, to demonstrate to myself how every little bite counts, I added the 6 little shelled peanuts I ate before dinner because I just couldn't wait that long, the 3 Poppables Sea Salt chips I sampled when making the kids lunches, and the little dark chocolate Hershey's Miniature because I needed something sweet to balance all the savory I had at lunch. By themselves it doesn't seem like much, but the lack of discipline landed me nearly 100 calories up from where I could have been. Yes, we all have the challenges that come with being a woman, and keeping ourselves in check, forgiving ourselves when we are weak, and loving ourselves nonetheless is what keeps us on track to a healthier life. Keep up the good work!
02 May 18 by member: AngelSue
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@abba... I forgot to take my vitamins yesterday. Hmmm...
02 May 18 by member: Toumina
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I can so relate to your post! The past few days have been that way for me. I’m starving, irritable and just not feeling very nice. My weight has bounced around a bit up and down but more ups. This happens to me every 3-4 weeks too. It’s so frustrating! There better be a special place in heaven for us women! Dealing with hormones/pms is not easy. I’ve eaten more chocolate the last two days than I usually eat in 2 weeks! Haha hope you feel better soon. Don’t worry too much about the chicken incident... you’ll recover quickly!
02 May 18 by member: momma6224
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It's our fat cells. We've been shrinking then and they don't like it. They are sending biochemical messages to eat.... That and raging hormones...hehe!
02 May 18 by member: robbi
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Ladies, believe it or not, I'm at that age for men where I am starting to really experience 'The Change' for men... and believe me it's just as real and just as bad for us as it is for you. We go through the whole gambit of emotions too. We want to eat our faces off. We want to beat up strangers for no real legitimate reason at all. We even want to cry for no reason at all - it sucks! But then we all have to remember; there is always that one person or even pet that can bring us back to reality. Just try to focus on what can be, and not what was, and you'll enjoy life much more and feel a lot more confident in yourself - remember, there is ALWAYS someone out there that loves you... :)
Also I recommend that if you ever get a chance to see the live stage show 'Menopause The Musical' go to it! I took my wife to it because she went through 'it' about 1 year ago and I'm currently going through 'it' - you will laugh your butt off so hard that your cheeks will hurt and you'll have tears in your eyes! It was one of the best musical comedy shows we've ever seen. Look it up on the computer if you have one.
02 May 18 by member: Jaym64
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If you are married, like I am, and your wife goes through PMS... then you will also feel the effects :) Also, I turn 50 this year and can attest to men's bodies going through ' a change'.
02 May 18 by member: adefwebserver
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@adefwebserver - hi, I'm actually 1 month and 5 days shy of 54. Like I posted above, my wife went through her monthly's then she went through Menopause for about 1 year and it ended about 1 year ago. She said she was lucky, according to her and several other women I know menopause can last for several years - no thanks! Regardless, we have noticed that I am currently going through it now and ya, it's not fun... little sleep, wild mood swings, cravings for all sorts of foods - good and bad, confusion...? which I never knew could happen, and even a lot of self doubt which I never had before in my life. I used to run heavy equipment everywhere from the big cities to up in the Artic circle at an open mine. I was an industrial millwright for years and I used to lay brick and concrete driveways and walkways for almost 20 years. So I was by no means a meek or lazy man but then this happens and WOW what the hell!? Anyways my mother is very wise and she keeps telling me that like gas it will pass, just give it time :)
02 May 18 by member: Jaym64
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having the need to be cuddled completely makes sense. I read somewhere at sometime, that when a woman should pay attention to all the emotions she is feeling during that time of the month, because the things that are most important to her, will come up to the surface. I hope that makes sense. So it seems you needed to be comforted and you made that happen. At least you are aware of it and now next time you're in the same type of situation, you can get what you need without feeling guilty about how or with what you take care of that need. I am glad that by the end of your post you were feeling better.😊 Self-care is well worth the work, no matter how many carbs you had. 😉❤
02 May 18 by member: Becc@
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I had no idea men had these struggles at times, too. Thanks for enlightening me! It sure is hard for us women to go through it every month from the time we are 12 or so.
02 May 18 by member: momma6224
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