crankybuzzard's Journal, 22 January 2018

prayers to all involved! 

(((hugs))) 

I lost my husband of 43 years in October to a very fast growing cancer. He passed 5 days after we got the new of what he had. So I understand your loss and depression. You will find in time that they were your cheerleaders, but they are not the only ones. There are still old ones and new ones to come in your future. Just look at your comments. Count your blessings. Say hello to a whole new group of cheerleaders. You have got this, it may take a little time for it all to sink in. Good thoughts your way, I know you need them right now. 

Sorry cranky. Try to celebrate their lives at your get together. Life passes is by so quickly 

So sorry CB. Hugs bro! 

So sorry for your loss ((HUGS)) 

Oh my, I do feel for you, CB! What a huge loss from your life. It is strange, isn't it how both men lived such different lives. I believe that they both want you to keep fighting the good fight, though. Thank you for sharing such a personal story with us. It is good to write your feelings down. Bless you! 

This can be very stressing, We are here for you, carry on the torch in there honor !!! Warrior !! 

As I sit here next to my almost 99 year old grandmother listening to her take some of her last breaths I try to make sense of my feelings. Last Christmas Eve (2016) my ex husband died of a heart attack. He was a very active man and it was a great shock. I honestly believe I am still in shock from his passing. This long drawn out death that my grandmother is experiencing is very difficult but there is no shock factor to it. I think the depression is worse when the death is unexpected. Maybe I am already going through some of the grief process with her. I’m not sure. But I do know that journaling helps me with my depression. So does exercise (walking). So does taking care of myself with my WOE. Just hang in there. We are here for you and I believe that your friends are as well. I believe death is just the pathway to the next big adventure. Your friends are just paving the way for the rest of us 

Hugs CB! Honor your friends and their memories by continuing to fully LIVE! Stay immersed in life and all it’s got to offer. 🤷🏻‍♀️ Make the days count, pay the encouragement and friendship forward and you will reap even more blessings from your life and from your memories of him by trying to be as good a friend to others as he was to you. 🙆🏻That is what always comforts me when I think of those I’ve lost anyway. Blessed be. 

so sorry for your losses, sending happy thoughts your way *hugs* 

Im srry you lost one of your cheerleaders. and the other fellow also. I like what smprowett wrote.... Good Luck to you. 

Dear Cranky, now I don't know you but I believe that your dear friends loved you just the way you are (after all the name "Cranky Buzzard" tells a tale :)). Being playfully a "D" is a part of you that I would think is something that they loved about you. Please don't think about what you could of said or done differently, just know that you were loved by your friends that have left this earth. I'm truly sorry to hear of your loss, and I am glad that you are taking care of yourself so that you can be here to enjoy more times with your friends, and that your friends can enjoy you. Remember these hard times will pass, it may be that the most joyful times of your life are still ahead of you.  

From the bottom of my heart, I thank all of you. Last night I was in the mode of pity party. I'm good now, I know what I need to do, I know how I need to live, and I know what needs to happen going forward. The weights are now my minions, they know that I'm the boss! However, I do know that that I'll feel it in the next few days... 225 may be an issue if I keep hitting the weights like I have been, 240 may be a closer goal, per my trainer....  

I'm so so sorry for your losses. That is so much to have to deal with all at one time. I lost my beloved sister to cancer 2 years ago. She had been in remission and was doing really well for 5 years. Suddenly it was back and she died at the age of 48, three months later. My brother who has been a sober alcoholic for many years relapsed when my sister died and two weeks later fell over drunk and hit his head and died alone on his kitchen floor. Unfortunately I lost another brother this year the same way. Please please look after yourself. You matter. Please continue to socialize with your friends. You are blessed to have each other. True friendship is a gift. They probably need you just as much as you need them right now. All of my thoughts and hugs are with you. 

I'm glad you are feeling somewhat better.  

So sorry to hear about your friends CB, hope you find some peace and happiness in the days ahead...