redgirl1974's Journal, 09 September 2016

today was decent. 23 net carbs. I cut out the low carb tortillas I had yesterday and the nuts to tighten up. Tomorrow Ill do a mini fast and wont eat till noon and then Sunday Funday Ill meal prep and eat LOL. Quality control is very important. I started to feel some of low carb "flu" today.. so I had some coffee and it helped. I need to get back into the habit of having my afternoon cup. Anyway there is something really important I want to share. Ive come to realize that I was dealing with a small bout of depression (I have a history and it comes and goes maybe every 2-3 years). Ya'll have known me for a while. Im a beast when it comes to diet and gym and Ive worked my ass off for two years so it would take a lot to keep from my new lifestyle but looking back, I recognize the signs. I stopped doing what I loved. I was tired all the time and went thru an emotional roller coaster, shut myself out from everyone and then add in the work change/stress. I definitely know Im coming out of the back end of it (it lasted 6 months) and I couldn't really see or admit it but now its all clear. Im not crying or asking for pity. Just putting this out there so I can deal with and restart. And that's what Ive been doing. Restarting for a few weeks but this week its really stuck. So bear with me buddies while I pull myself up and jump back in. I was using food as an emotional crutch and still catch myself here and there but Im really getting better and recognizing the signs. I feel good. I feel confident. I logged all my food. I had a good day. Next week Ill be working on reincorporating the gym back into (I took the week of bc of vacation) starting with 30 min every morning before work. I started to do all the things I love, going to the nail salon, spending time with my mom and friends, calling people.. Anyway. Enough sharing for today. Im happy to be back and ready to dig in bc I have my eyes set on a new dress for the Christmas party! xoxo everyone and thanks for listening.

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1533 kcal

Fat: 116.72g | Prot: 81.08g | Carb: 51.13g.   Breakfast: Cooked Asparagus (from Fresh), Mushrooms, Cheddar Cheese, Scrambled Egg, Albertsons Heavy Whipping Cream, Coffee. Lunch: Fresca Citrus Flavored Soda, Giant Eagle Cherry Tomatoes, Bacon, Blue Cheese, Blue & Roquefort Cheese Salad Dressing, Young Green Onions (Tops Only), Iceberg Lettuce (Includes Crisphead Types). Dinner: Cacique Ranchero Queso Fresco, Lettuce, Calavo Avocado, Beef Inside Skirt Steak (Lean Only, Trimmed to 1/4" Fat). Snacks/Other: Splenda No Calorie Sweetener Packets, Cream (Half & Half), Coffee, Smoked Beef Sausage Stick, low carb bar, Hidden Valley Buttermilk Ranch Dressing, Celery. more...