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Today for the first time since joining FS I made a conscious decision "to eat whatever I wanted" because "I didn't care". I also decided not to log my food because I didn't want the lecture and finger wag of my nutritional counselor who reads these, or my supportive sister. I didn't want the judgement, pity, or to let them know how weak I am. I hit my goal weight two weeks ago, the next week up a pound, this week up 2 1/2 more. I have fallen into the pattern of self sabotage. I even decided I would make up a lie to cancel my check in appointment next week. then I read an entry someone wrote about when they say they don't care they really do, and even when we have a few bad days, they get good again. And even though our lives are messy, we continue to try and work hard. I went outside and walked hard for an hour. I am in tears thanking the person I don't know for writing words to help me get back on track.I logged my food, and yes it was ugly, but I have to. Not logging it won't make it "not happen". Let's all have a great week together
Diet Calendar Entries for 18 October 2015:
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1833 kcal
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Fat: 87.00g | Prot: 89.06g | Carb: 178.97g.
Breakfast: Trader Joe's Mini Croissants, Egg. Lunch: Rice Pilaf, Pork Chops (Top Loin, Boneless), Jenny Craig Vanilla Buttercream Cupcake, Skinny Pop Popcorn, Cafe Valley Bakery Pumpkin Mini Muffins. Dinner: Pillsbury Sweet Rolls Cinnamon Rolls with Icing, Honey Roasted Peanuts, Blue Bunny Mint Chocolate Chip Ice Cream, Chicken Breast. more...
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1805 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Power Walking - 1 hour, Resting - 15 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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