sheshemoo's Journal, 27 May 2015

For the first time in 30 years, I have not exercised for several weeks in a row.....since Feb. 26 to be exact. Yesterday marked the three month anniversary of the day my beloved husband died. He is proof that a person can be perfectly healthy, eat right, work-out regularly but still have a hidden malady that could cause sudden death with no warning. We both worked out at the gym the night he died. We both felt great. But now he's gone and I am working on getting the gumption to get back to a healthy routine.

My husband's death has changed my perspective. I clearly see now that I need to live as if I may not wake up on this earth the next morning. My husband and I believe in God and that Jesus Christ is the son of God and man and provided a means of salvation from sin for us. With this belief, I know my husband is safe and happy and living eternally with God and I will someday see him again. His unexpected death makes clear to me that living for today or living to improve life on this earth is meaningless unless what I do makes a difference in the eternal life of someone else or in a way that will glorify God. I see that living for eternity is what matters, not living for today as we hear so many people say.

When we are gone from this earth, what we did won't matter unless it was done to honor and to glorify God. So, I am not going to live for today. I'm going to live for eternity. Sharing this with you is a start because something I say may resonate with what you are struggling with right now. Taking care of my earthly body is important, too, since my body is a "temple" for Christ since He resides in me. Eating right and exercising for this purpose makes it easier for me if I have the perspective that I am doing it for the Lord.

My life has changed significantly. My future is not what I envisioned. I experience daily grief and sorrow and the void in my life seems palpable. But I can whole-heartedly say that it is well with my soul.