I just downloaded a new ringtone to my phone, "Happy" from Frozen… can you tell how I'm feeling this morning! And that's even after words with DH already today. He had pulled out a 5 page handwritten list of inventory & equipment at BIL's business that he & BIL had done on Sunday & said (not asked) that he needed it typed today. I, of course, replied that I'm not his or his brother's secretary and would get to it when I could. And, I added that he was enabling his bro & SIL as they were quite capable of typing & needed to be encouraged to do what they could for their business. I already do the bookkeeping, free of charge, to help them… yes, it feels like unrewarded, unacknowledged volunteer work at times. I'm really "happy" to help them out in that way, and they always express their gratitude, I just didn't like DH's attitude this morning. But to his defense, he's crazy busy at work (as usual) & we leave on Thurs morning and he'll be gone for a week+. Still, all I ask is that he treat me like his equal, not his employee (which I preceded to tell him in an email).
But I'm "happy" knowing that I have new tools now to use as these stresses arise (like journaling!). I am so very blessed in so many ways & traveling to wonderful places is one of this blessings. But since my disordered eating became an issue again, traveling has been stressful & an eating struggle, and some of the joy it in has escaped me. I want to change that & be able to again get away and enjoy myself. So, that's my goal for this trip & my challenge to myself is to just be curious as stress/anxiety/uncomfortableness arises related to the trip, beginning this morning. I did really well on my last trip to see my Mom… she said patting herself on the back :). But traveling with DH & other couples is a different animal. So, I'll have my 5P plan (Pause & Plate, Progress not Perfection, with Prayer) to get me through & will add a 2C plan to it -- be Curious & seek Calm. And, armed with plans in each hand & "Happy"ness just a ringtone away, I'm feeling great (not just good) to go!
But, first, I'll pray --
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time; Enjoying one moment at a time; Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace; Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it; Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will; That I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with Him Forever in the next. Amen.
And through this one day and each one meal, moment, bite, thought & emotion, I'll pray, breathe, log, journal & express my way. I'm so very grateful for each of Delightful you, my family & IRL friends, having both sons home and all of together for 2 more days, having my oldest step up & type the list for us already!, and having the health & wealth to live this life I love! xoxox
Diet Calendar Entries for 04 March 2014:
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1265 kcal
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Fat: 41.52g | Prot: 107.32g | Carb: 136.52g.
Breakfast: Spectrum Naturals Organic Coconut Oil, Primal Nutrition Primal Fuel - Vanilla Coconut Creme, Lactaid 100% Lactose Free Fat Free Milk, Harmless Harvest 100% Raw Coconut Water. Lunch: Lactaid 100% Lactose Free Fat Free Milk, Primal Nutrition Primal Fuel - Chocolate Coconut. Dinner: Lactaid Cottage Cheese, Cantaloupe, Luby's Roasted Mixed Vegetables. Snacks/Other: Ralphs Whole Raw Almonds, Evolve Greek Kefir, Whole Foods Market Avocado Vinaigrette Dressing, Mann's Sunny Shores Rainbow Salad. more...
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1765 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Calisthenics (heavy, e.g. pushups) - 1 hour, Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 15 hours. more...
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