bethinfriend's Journal, 27 April 2018

Tomorrow is another day . Hang in there love yourself for you it doesn’t mater what other people think or see . You are beautiful inside and out 

You’re most likely doing way to much exercise combined with the under 1000calories deficit will make your body retain water a lot more then if you were at a moderate deficit and cut back on the exercise. Water retention happens at a more frequent/greater extent the lower & lower the deficit/more & more exercise is done, even if you’re getting enough fluids. Also could be sodium intake contributing to that as well. Maybe up your calorie intake to 1500 to start and see what happens, may take a week or 2 to balance things out. But if you’re doing that much work with your body, it’s highly unlikely you’ve gained any weight at all. Another more likely scenario, also in conjunction with water retention, is that sometimes people who do VLCD (very low calorie diets) notice their weight doesn’t move, or very slowly goes down, that’s because the lower the deficit, the more your body “freaks out” & the more likelyhood it will lower your metabolic rate, thusly making the deficit less of a deficit & more like “maintenance” (even though you’ll still be losing weight it will be to a much lesser extent) so it’s those little adjustments that are sometimes needed that can help make changes appear, so if you feel you’re doing too much exercise, cut back, I would suggest upping the calories and giving it a few more weeks to see what happens. 

Oh and also, “periods” will definitely make you retain water to a much greater volume as well. Easily can be anywhere from 5-10lbs in water retention alone. 

There are many of us like myself who struggle with mental, physical and psychological defeats and discouraging body images of self. You are not alone. Hold your head up high. Believe in yourself. Yes it is a struggle to try try try and not see results. Change something up, nevertheless keep trying. Don’t let the seeds of discouragement send you back into that dark place of self pity. You deserve happiness. So start believing it. Bless up. 

It sucks when the body goes a little crazy, especially when our hormones are off! I'm a little concerned that you are consuming too few calories, 1200 is the safe minimum for ladies. I have similar problems and have found that it has made a difference. I also think it is important to practice loving yourself, fake it till it becomes your new normal (and it will). When I have those crappy thoughts I remind myself that people don't think about me as much as I think about me, so why beat myself up? Tomorrow is a new day and I wish you love a happiness moving forward.  

Try to not be so hard with yourself, If you want to make a change in your eating habits it has to be because you love your self and your family. when I eat less than 1000 every day I do not lose weight, lately I am doing the 5:2 diet, just two days with 500 calories, and the other days you can 1200, 1300, 1500, 2000. I am losing weight with it. Good luck!!! ❤❤ 

Praying for you! You are trying so hard! Don’t be so hard on yourself!!! 

Please reach out to a professional for help. In my experience, losing weight does not make those feelings and the suffering go away. However, in my experience they can go away.  

Please reach out to your physician and tell them truthfully about your thought patterns. You are not being reasonable or kind to yourself and from your post it seems like you are so down that you can't see yourself or your situation clearly. You are not a monster, thoughts of suicide are not the answer. Your value is more than a number on a scale. Pills to lose weight are not an answer to your self image issues. We have not met, but I care about you and so do others. Tell your truth and seek help from your physician. He or she can put you in touch with other resources. Be well. 

I want to echo what others have said , please reach out to a mentail health professional right away and talk about how your are feeling and thinking. Please , seek out some help from a medical professional on your weight loss and develop a realistic and achievable set of goals. I wish you all the best on your journey.  

Check hormones. You need protein to burn fat. You need carbs so that lean muscle is not eaten by exercise. And what you described is not a diet or fitness journey. If you really want to learn healthier habits you have to seek professional help. Join a gym, get a trainer. You don’t have to be stuck in the gym 7 days a week to be a better version of yourself. 

Honestly you need to know we all think like this.. at times. When things do not work and we try so hard to be restrictive.. and no reward comes! Do not give up! But do re-evaluate. When you move in the right direction .. do not get frustrated at the amount of the result or the slowness in time. You are making great difficulties for your body and it is in shock. Take time, do less create a small deficit this thing can't be hurried so slow it all right down. Otherwise you break it . Peace & love x 

I'm in agreement with all the comments. A seek help to talk about your situation. You are fearfully and wonderfully made. You are special and important. You will get there. My weight flushes too. Up and down but I hath to keep going. 

I don't know if there is a private message board on this but if there is...message me. I'm not always on because of work but I don't want you to be hurting. This is a rough and emotional road we're on and sometimes it's too much, but don't do anything you can't take back, people would miss you if you were gone! Think of the puppy!!! 

Me to the scale is crazy I eat salt and morning is pounds up I reach out from a kinda negative space but what I’m doing seems to be good for me you can do this I am I worst judge is ourself I’ve been taken small steps and I can eat bacon well anyways just be yourself your best is good enough 

Calorie deficit is what works for me. I go to the gym 4-5 days a week and work off more than I eat. It’s s long process and I only lose about 1-2 pounds a week, but where there used to be fat, there is now muscle tone! Chin up!! You can do this!!! 

Maybe you’re dieting the wrong way. I cut out carbs completely and by week 3 I was so sick and weak, it scared me. It took about 2 weeks to recover. Now I’m just trying to use common sense and eat healthy......and very little sugar. Also check your salt. It too can really mess with you and make you gain water weight. 

Please talk to a professional healthcare provider. I understand how we use our journals to vent and tell our darkest thoughts but it seems to be more than just thoughts for you. In the long run you won't benefit from hating yourself and the world. Make an appointment with a psychologist, maybe you can find someone on campus, a counselor or a phone number work even online psychological support. Fatsecret is a great community but nobody is qualified to help you here. Keep talking to us and let us know when you find help! Take care 

Please call your physician right away or call to make an appointment with a mental health specialist. If you feel you are going to hurt yourself at this time or when the next time comes that you feel that way then call the suicide hotline 1-800-273-8255. They are there to listen 24 hours a day and it sounds like you are too loved to leave the world in this way. 

Please reach out for professional help!! You are most likely suffering from depression and possibly other things! Your value is way more than a number on the scale! You need a safe place/person to share these feelings with...and maybe even a little medication to help with the thoughts. As far as your eating/exercise habits, I agree with what Deadpool said. Too few calories and too much exercise have the opposite effect that we desire. Please seek help. You are cared for more than you know!!