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I'm going to try (again) to get back on the wagon: after 4 months and 16 pounds up, which is 2 or 3 sizes for me. I am scared of the extent the effects of sugar, carbs, and artificial ingredients has become on me. I got confused Thursday and ran a red light, and my Interstitial Cystitis is acting up and my bladder hurts more of the time. It had healed "so much" with Intermittent Fasting earlier this year. I hope to journal again. It's sad that I haven't journaled in three months since the support was so wonderful. I got so upset in September after my husband almost died and the terrible experience in the hospital. I am still not ready to write about it because I get so upset about it. He has been in the hospital 3 times in that 3 month time period.
I stayed upset after September because of the tremendous Saddleridge fire here that started right by my house in October that grew so big with the winds in the San Fernando Valley of Los Angeles. Fueled by fierce Santa Ana winds, the blaze chewed through more than 7,900 acres in two days, driving residents from their homes as it made its way from Sylmar to Porter Ranch. At its peak, the blaze burned through roughly 800 acres an hour. Two died as the fire forced 100,000 people to evacuate. It was devastating to so many. The Lord graciously spared us.
A few days later on October 14th my husband was back in the hospital with a TIA (very small stroke they can't find on scans). They also found scar tissue where he had a different small stroke previously that we didn't know about.
A month after that, on November 17th he had 5 TIA's in one day. He has a lesion in his carotid artery but is not a good candidate for surgery to fix it because of his heart failure. That side is 70% blocked, and the other side is 80% blocked. The side without the present lesion threw clots 7 years ago and instead of going to the brain to give him a stroke it went into the artery to his eye and blinded him about 90% in that eye. At that time, they did surgery 3 days later to repair 2 AAA's (Aortic aneurysms in his abdomen). After 2 weeks in the hospital, a week after he got out (7 years ago) I broke my back helping him. He now has "one foot on a banana peel" and will not stop the sugar and carbs. They are killing us.
I'm sure going to try hard to get back to the straight and narrow. It's so hard to be really strict but I need my strength and sanity. The future is very scary. He's 83 and since he is already on blood thinners he will not be able to take clot busting drugs in case of a stroke. Maybe Intermittent Fasting could help start to heal the lesion in the artery in his neck, but his willingness and determination are very weak. I must, must, must do the best I can to do the best for my future. I am only on day 2 of walking the right direction. Will anyone read this? I guess I have lost my followers. Thank you Lord, you are there.
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Still to go: 7.9 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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I’m here snowwhite. And yes the Lord, He is a Rock in every storm. May you find your daily guidance and strength in Him. 🙏❤️
15 Dec 19 by member: wifey9707
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So sorry you and yours are going through this trying time. Prayers and positive energy for you and yours.
15 Dec 19 by member: kattay
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Still here following you and glad to see you. You can do it!
15 Dec 19 by member: liv001
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Wow you’ve been through so much lately. You’ll be glad when you get back to your WoE. It’s one thing you can control. That always helps for me.
15 Dec 19 by member: peeperjj
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I am so sorry you are going through such a rough patch, prayers for healing for you both. I was diagnosed with I.S. in Oct. and it is hell on earth when you are in a flare. Treat yourself kindly and as you know eating the wrong things only makes it worse. Lord knows I miss my morning coffee but it just isn't worth the pain. May the New Year Bless You Both.
15 Dec 19 by member: raineybird
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15 Dec 19 by member: FullaBella
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I'm sorry to hear about your Husband's health problems. Being a caregiver can take a toll on anyone. Hang in there and try to take care of yourself. Prayers going up in you guys behalf...
15 Dec 19 by member: John10251
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I hope you find your inner strength to make good choices during these trying times. Pulling for both of you. 🙏
15 Dec 19 by member: Sarah1950
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Take care of you, so you can take care of others. It's so easy to fall back into bad habits. I had a severe setback when I discovered that if I took my passion flower immediately before or after, I can indulge in bread again without getting suicidal depression. Worst thing that ever happened. I didn't become suicidal, but after a couple of weeks of eating pasta or bread, I could hardly move. My joints feel like I have gout all over. Just passed my 48 hr mark for no wheat products, and I can already feel my joints improving. My ankles which I basically could not bend are now normal. My knees are better too. I'm still eating carbs (in the form of beans in homemade chili) but this doesn't seem to affect it. Hang in there. I'm trying to as well.
15 Dec 19 by member: SheaDlady
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Thank you all for your kindness. I am crying with gentle tears and gratefulness, it touches me so. I can't express how much it means to me.
Raineybird: D-Mannose was the only thing that would help me for many years. It's over-the-counter and the least expensive I found was the large size “NOW” brand at SwansonVitamins.com. I would just keep taking it until the pain lessened, and wouldn't have wanted to live without it. One flare I had lasted 6 months. Have you read books like “To Wake in Tears” and “Along the Healing Path”? It was so shocking to me after years of pain, that when I did Intermittent Fasting it healed up enough that I didn't even take one D-Mannose for about 5 months, and am just starting to need it again. There are lots of books, just Google “Books on Interstitial Cystitis”. I usually check AbeBooks.com first to see if I can buy it used. I am not taking your condition lightly. Many girls are put on up to 15 prescriptions and then end up loosing their bladder. But I believe there is help in natural products and healing in the autophagy of Intermittent Fasting. We can talk more and you can private message me. I am very optimistic for you even though I know you are in a lot of pain.
The rest of you, I just love you so much, I can't stop crying. I live very alone, except for my husband and I'm afraid to lose him. It's gut wrenching for me to share, but also to stay away. This time I wasn't hiding, even though other times I thought I might (and even suggested it) since I went so far in sharing my disabilities, plus the problems in my marriage. We have a great love, but we've struggled a lot too. It's embarrassing to be such an emotional person.
16 Dec 19 by member: Snowwhite100
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keyten77 Thank you for your invitation to the Daniel Fast. There was a class at my church several years ago where we read the book and watched the tapes. My weight when I started the class was 113 so losing wasn't an issue but I wanted to learn about it plus hold my weight steady. I was in a lot of physical pain. It wasn't until I gave up grains, high carbs like potatoes, rice, and most fruit that my interstitial cystitis started healing. Maybe it is the more than 1000 times that wheat has been hybridized in the last 100 years that some of us have bodies that don't even recognize it. I think I need to severely limit wheat in my "way of eating". At 104 several months ago I was probably under weight but thinking I could eat more fruit on maintenance didn't really work for me either. It would start great cravings. Maybe I "need" low carbs. Actually I never achieved a working maintenance, but anything that turns to sugar in my body sets me off terribly.
16 Dec 19 by member: Snowwhite100
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16 Dec 19 by member: Elizabeth Pedroza
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I'm here. May you find strength and peace during these trying times.
16 Dec 19 by member: shirfleur 1
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It’s a new day. Start over
16 Dec 19 by member: dtrott
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Snowy, YOU'RE ALIVE!!! I'm so glad you're back! Sorry you've had such a hard time! Sounds like you've been through the ringer! Hopefully, things have settled down more now, and you can get back on track and rediscover that great discipline you had several months ago. I've been flailing. I've gained back over 35 pounds, and gone back to being a Diet Coke-a-holic. I can't even remember when I last had a sip of water! Not even going to try to get back on board until after the holidays. I'm not big into "new year's resolutions," but that's probably about when I'll try to jump back in with both feet. I hope we'll be able to walk side-by-side along that straight and narrow path soon! I love you, sister!
16 Dec 19 by member: Debbie Cousins
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I am so glad to see you back on. I had asked about you awhile back and we just didn't know.
16 Dec 19 by member: jan-e333
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Of course I read this! You have been through a lot, but I'm sure you will find your way back to doing what you need to do for both you and your husband. My prayers are with you.
16 Dec 19 by member: metamora
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Dear Snowy, I've been AWOL for the past few months also (just returned Jan. 29th or 30th).
I read your whole messge. Please know that my prayers include you and your family. I understand that you feel as if the plates all spinning on sticks (all those perilous circumstances you've spoken of) will eventually begin to topple. But, as the Bible says, "Today has has enough of troubles of it's own."
To help calm your worried mind: Each day, find a bright moment or something that gives you joy, no matter how tiny. Close your eyes and focus only on that bit of goodness.
Imagine the Lord filling your heart to overflowing, refreshing you with beautiful blessings and peace. Thank Him! Praise Him!
Then, when you're ready, slowly open your eyes. Bring your attention back to the present moment. Tuck in a bit of that blessing and peace to carry you during your day.
May Jesus ease your heart, calm your mind, and strengthen your spirit!
03 Feb 20 by member: Miraculum
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