downs82's Journal, 21 October 2015

Well the icing on the cake so far. My husband lost his job I have been devastated didn't care what I ate or drank. This comes a week after my ex lost was fired from his job. ( I have 2 teenage girls finally started getting child support now that is out the window ) The stress of it all weighted hard on my teens and both made a F which kicks my daughter out of National Honor society and they still get to be in AP and Pre-AP classes but have to do really good ( both of them all As and one F )also this year, my dryer, dishwasher and refrig broke ) I had to buy 3 cars. Have broke down 5 times (spent 1000s of dollars on towing and parts and in the end had to go to a dealership) now my new car (after going through 3 this year) is messing up. What else? Oh yeah my wedding something I waited 10 years for (we were already married had the wedding on our 10th) well it was ruined, plotted sabotage, 2 groomsmen didn't show up knowing they were never going to be in the wedding just toying with us. Had to have a stranger in my wedding. Then my best friend played nice, she helped me pick out my dress decor all the stuff friends do, but inside she never once had any intention to be in the wedding. I never got an answer why. Lucky for me I caught on when she didn't answer my calls for 2 weeks and was able to replace her (about 100 other things went wrong)what else? Oh yeah My aunt was MURDERED by her son. She was my grandmothers twin sister (my grandmother took care of me) Along with with that pain it felt like I lost her and my grandmother all together again, my daughter lost her friend, my best friend lost his dad, another friend lost her baby, but my husband losing his job is the crushing blow. I can't work due to health issues. We only have one car so if he gets a job tomorrow in his field, all my kids activities will stop, these extracurricular activities were what was going to help for college. My son needs his tutoring. All that out the window. (My husbands job had provided a truck all these years so it has never been a issue.)Every time I get up and get moving so does my brain. When I work out even with music my mind goes there. I stress eat. I was trying I was but now that my I am swimming in bills, back on my house note. I have to put myself in another world. I have laid in bed for days watching anime, haven't showered or washed my hair. I dont know if I can get back up
150.8 lb Lost so far: 24.2 lb.    Still to go: 15.8 lb.    Diet followed poorly.

Diet Calendar Entry for 21 October 2015:
1129 kcal Fat: 24.73g | Prot: 36.40g | Carb: 32.18g.   Breakfast: Great Value Sharp Cheddar Cheese, Roasted Broiled or Baked Chicken Thigh (Skin Eaten), Sargento Fancy 6 Cheese Italian Blend Natural Shredded Cheese, Cauliflower, Egg. Snacks/Other: anheuser-busch Busch Light Beer. more...
losing 0.4 lb a week

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Sounds like you have a lot going on. I wish I could tell you everything will be okay, but life can be a real bitch sometimes. Have you ever applied for disability? I wish I had some solutions for you. Hope you husband gets a job soon, and things turn around. Life can go one way and just as quickly turn around. Also sounds like you are suffering from some depression. Do some googling and see if there are churches or social programs in your area that might be able to help you. Being proactive might help. There might also be programs to help you. There are jobs that you can do at home on a computer for extra money (medical transcription).  
21 Oct 15 by member: Suzi161
What Suzi said. Check churches, catholic charities, your county Human Services. It is difficult and takes a lot of work but there is help out there. If you were closer I would connect you. Also check your local salvation army. Of course it would help if you were already involved in a church because sometimes they get ripped off and are wary of helping new people, but some have programs in place. Some places also have car care clinics that help low income people with car care.  
21 Oct 15 by member: dorindam59
Hang in there! : ) 
21 Oct 15 by member: bacahed
First of all, he just lost his job yesterday, so breathe deeply and step aside. He may find something totally better suited for him with more money. Reading over your comments, you have had a lot happen to you, but now it's time to keep walking down the road. Get past the wedding. Get past the hurt. Don't focus on your woes. Your daughter didn't get an F, she earned it. It may be the most valuable lesson she ever learns. Years ago, I was taking care of my 92 year mother in my home who had Alzheimer's, my 90 year old father, who had Parkinson's disease, teenagers and a toddler grandson plus running a business. One day mom messed all over herself and I shot up a smart silent comment "Oh God, when are you going to take her?" and the answer came back IMMEDIATELY, "When you learn what I need you to learn!" When you hear a voice from heaven, you drop to your knees. I did and started focusing on the lesson. Mom lived another year and during that year I learned patience and forgiveness. She apologized to me the last week of her life. I don't know what the lesson is for you that you have to learn, but I would start thinking of your life within that realm. Adopt an attitude of gratitude. Get out of bed, wash the sheets, clean your house and start your life over. You may have health issues, but you could bring home some money by ironing, doing phone solicitation work for charities, or even computer work for charities. It's all a lesson. Start studying! Find a church if you don't have one and connect. Everytime you feel yourself starting to tell someone your list of woes, tear it up and make a list of good things that happened. The flowers bloomed in the garden. The trees turned golden. The weather was nice today. You made a good dinner. Everyone went to bed on time. You read a good book. You gave your husband a back rub he really needed. You can do it, girl. Just start walking! I will be praying for you!  
21 Oct 15 by member: Gravvie
You need to get up and get it together, all of that is very rough and a lot to deal with but it seems you are the one that will have to hold it all together. 
21 Oct 15 by member: Rockiesfan
1st off.. im so sorry this is happening to you. But as the mom, we have to be strong for our kids. Pull yourself together on the outside . you can always break down when your alone so your kids dont worry. We only have one car and the we take turns on the bus and your husband may get a truck at his new job... Be strong for your family and like Gravie says, look into getting some assistance. There is no shame in asking for help. Hang in there...  
21 Oct 15 by member: redgirl1974
Amen! Life is hard but it's the test of longsuffering. I'm praying to God for your strength! 
21 Oct 15 by member: Wise Woman
This is a stressful time for you and your family. Your husband really needs your support too. Whenever anyone loses a job, it takes a huge emotional toll on that person as well as the whole family. Family needs to hold together and weather the storm. There are a lot of good suggestions here already so I am going to pray that everything works out for you and yours quickly. 
21 Oct 15 by member: kattay
stay strong I am praying for you and your family 
21 Oct 15 by member: kati1snow2
Just remember that it always rains before you see the rainbow...but don't get discouraged because the rainbow is a sign of God's love and promises. It may feel very overwhelming right now, but it is not impossible. You have a lot of people praying for you on here, and the power of prayer is pretty overwhelming itself. Say a prayer and then look for the doors that God is opening for you and your family. 
21 Oct 15 by member: Mousy1109
It has really been a bad year for you and I am sorry. But probably everyone has had a bad year if that is what we choose to remember. Do yourself a favor and name three wonderful things that happened to you, they are there if only you look!  
21 Oct 15 by member: Blondie Jones

     
 

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