myawethinTICself's Journal, 13 October 2014

I did it! I DID what I said I was going to do & I feel AWESOME :))

2nd Journal for today....
After reading all YOUR comments & journal entries I sat down to lunch & to watch a bit of TV but not just *any* show. I sat down with a purpose! The purpose to KEEP inspired & focused on my goals. And was I ever!

I finished my lunch,donned a hoodie & headed out the door for another walk. THIS walk had a few "things" changed:
I didn't check the clock to see how long it was going to take me.(Does it really matter how long if this is a lifetime commitment? And if is DOES,then I'll cross that bridge later. Right now my focus is on DOING the activities that lead to ME being in control.
I "sweet-talked" myself from the get-go! "Keep a soft knee."-"Roll off the heel"-"Breath right. In thru the nose,out thru the mouth"- "I got this.I can do it"."- "I'm half way there."-"It's starting to drizzle,raise your hood."- (Prayed that it wouldn't rain until I got home & the drizzle remained steady)-"Jacket's getting damp & sticking to me. This is life,I gotta learn to deal with it & not allow myself to put off what *I* need to do! LOL :) Keep going.*I* make the choices!"- "My "mark" is just ahead. :) *I'm* calling the shots.Go farther!"- "LOL I rounded the bend!There's another 1...LOL :) What's 1 more?"-"If I wanna call it quits at the trax & take a short cut home I will.I've done GREAT!"- "At the trax. I'm GOING FOR IT! LOL"- "This is amazing! I feel so powerful :)"- "I'm slowing down. That's ok,I'm DOING it. The time it takes isn't a factor right now. I can work on that later if I want."- "LOL,OMG I'm DOING it! LOL :)"- "Home is just around the bend."
"There it is! :) I wonder how far I walked?!"
The distance doesn't matter either. What matters is that I DID IT!
Just WHAT did I do? LOL
I did what I said I was going to do in order to reach my goals without letting obstacles/opposition call the shots. I controlled what I did or did not do! LOL & I enjoyed it SOOOOO much more. :)

I dedicate this experience/accomplishment to the following people:
Keeper-For buying the Roku. I wouldn't have been able to watch A&E w/o it.
Bella-For mentioning the show HEAVY in her journal.
Tom & Jodi-For their words:"The new me must fight the old me" & "Thanks for pushing me to DO it.It's all WORTH it. Every ache & pain!"
MyawethinTICself- For KNOWING that it IS all worth it & fighting my old self without letting her win. :))
My Old Self-For *truly* wanting MyawethinTICself to win!!!

After I got home I jumped in the car to find out what my mileage was that I had walked. I turned on the radio as I drove the route I had just taken & found myself singing with the song "Who Are You When I'm Not Looking" as a love song to me! :) As my Bio says: My body & I have a long way to go but that's ok...we are enjoying getting to know one another again :)
I walked 2 miles.

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1524 kcal

Fat: 82.68g | Prot: 66.49g | Carb: 234.53g.   Lunch: Pepsi Diet Pepsi (Can), Barilla Large Manicotti Shells, Hunt's Manwich Original Sloppy Joe Sauce, Whole Wheat Bread, Unsalted Butter Stick. Dinner: XyloSweet Xylitol, Hiland Fat Free Skim Milk, Essential Everyday Nutty Nuggets Cereal. Snacks/Other: Tap Water, Crystal Farms Sharp Cheddar Cheese, Great Value Cashew Halves & Pieces. more...

2278 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Walking (moderate) - 3/mph - 1 hour, Resting - 15 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...