puhpine's Journal, 22 June 2014

two days of silly

It is great how predictable i am becoming! depression gone, fully motivated and two days of silly has begun. Only thing i now need to do is feel it coming one day before it happens... Just one day so i can prepare myself for the downfall! I must learn to keep caring during depression. But maybe that is not possible since depression state makes me not care about anything anymore...

So how do i make myself care? it would really be a difference of one kilo per month weightloss if i tackle this thing...

i'm gonna try something different, i will try to fast on silly-days. With the exception of eating right before and right after training.








Diet Calendar Entries for 22 June 2014:
1435 kcal Fat: 26.35g | Prot: 51.07g | Carb: 244.87g.   Breakfast: Peijnenburg Ontbijtkoek Minder Suiker (40g), Peijnenburg Ontbijtkoek Minder Suiker (40g), Herbalife Multivitamine Complex, Nature Made Calcium, Water, Coffee, Peijnenburg Ontbijtkoek Minder Suiker (40g), Tomatoes. Lunch: Watermelon, Banaan, Optimel Chocoladevla. Dinner: Chicken Fried Rice. more...
3886 kcal Activities & Exercise: Housework - 1 hour, Yard Work (gardening) - 1 hour, Resting - 12 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours, Dance (fast step, aerobic) - 1 hour, Boxing - 1 hour. more...

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I've often read that keeping an 'appreciation journal' is a life changer. I believe this, as if you appreciate, it puts your mind in a positive disposition, (chemical reactions also) which in turn makes you more cheerful and happy. Thus creating a chain reaction with the ways you interact with your surroundings. Which should, in the long run, change your life. (to change others - or at least the interaction you have with others - you have to change yourself) Maybe an appreciation journal would be a beginning for you to slowly change the chemical reactions in your brain. I know it sounds simplistic, and maybe it is, but why not try. It certainly won't hurt. Have a great day!  
22 Jun 14 by member: NowIunderstand
Wow, Maun. That's a great idea. So often a journal becomes a dumping ground of what's going wrong. I may have to try that myself. 
22 Jun 14 by member: northernmusician
I have to admit, it's not my idea. I've read some books on 'spirituality' and I must admit, that is a common thread among them. It all seems to start with 'Appreciation'. And if you notice, when you have dark thoughts, they attract more dark thought, it's a spiralling down. What you want to do is 'spiral up'.  
22 Jun 14 by member: NowIunderstand
the problem is that when i am down (and even my downs have ups and downs) but when i am down: i just don't care...  
22 Jun 14 by member: puhpine
Glad to have you back! Its ok to take some time away for yourself. For me it helps to think of depression as a time of deep self-examination, like your spirit is telling you to take a moment to re-evaluate and prioritize. It is painful but it can be one of the greatest gifts. I hate that growth and change always has to be associated with pain and discomfort!! Just remember you're never alone in the journey. BTW I am so grateful that you are here! 
22 Jun 14 by member: Jon299
Maud. Maybe it helps to know that other people care for you. Hope you're having a great day. 4 hours sleep. Good to go. :((((( 
22 Jun 14 by member: northernmusician
Missed you my dear friend, but glad you're back and happy. That's what matters. Love the new avatar.  
22 Jun 14 by member: ClassicRocker
maun.... so true. Ever read Louise Hay? On that line. Approving of oneself in order to appreciate and approve of others.  
22 Jun 14 by member: ClassicRocker
Maud, I take fish oil every day. It has so many health benefits for heart and other things, including increase in energy and reducing depression. Honest. 
22 Jun 14 by member: Deb_N
@CR / not really, but I've heard of her. I was really into the Law of Attraction for awhile, and there core belief was appreciation. And also, just hearing bits and pieces of New Age wisdom made me come to the conclusion that appreciation is a biggy for happiness. Frankly, we have so much to appreciate, just the fact that we're on FS because of excess weight means we're not starving and living in a land of plentiful. I know it's a funny spin on things, nevertheless true.  
22 Jun 14 by member: NowIunderstand
Her book, You Can Heal Your Life, is a sweet easy read. And I do agree that being on this site means we have a lot in life many don't. You just look at it from a different perspective and that's great. I try to approach things from a different point of view, however, I get hung up on the negative. sigh. But working to improve which hopefully will help with my depression. 
22 Jun 14 by member: ClassicRocker
@puhpine, IMO the trick when you're down is looking for and finding something to be grateful for. Some days I have to work on it every bit as hard as I work on eating better. Finding the gratitudes every day isn't always easy but it's worth the work.  
22 Jun 14 by member: Vickie 5966

     
 

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