Raining! This is the first day of it in a long while so I'm not depressed 'yet'. Although I was disappointed I couldn't lounge on the deck this morning (even under the umbrella) I decided to work on changing my reaction and find the good in this (ala how much better everything will bloom after a good rainfall, how much more I'll appreciate the next sunny day, how it encouraged me to come back inside and clean and vacuum the master suite with that extra time, etc.) Feels a little fake but like anything new, it takes practice. Holding my breath (symbolically) as our town is having their huge annual everybody gets involved music, street vendors, art fair, casino night, blah blah this weekend so this rain could be the literal damper on the weekend if it doesn't let up.
Another good eating day yesterday. I'd look back and count for a tally but as I take this one day, sometimes one minute at a time, I'll just leave it at that, another good day. The working weekends had overlapped with the Farmers Market ending and my produce drawer has been empty for about a week. I'm sure the sugar intake from the weekend combined with the fresh vegetable decrease collided to create the kryptonite I've been experiencing on my cruise. I righted that imbalance last night (shopped) and the fabulous aroma of skillet cooked onions, squash and zucchini for breakfast brought me home to a familiar feeling of fortitude. (sorry.. I get full of myself typing at times)
I was somewhat disappointed the apple I had for a snack last night tasted 'blah' - am not sure if I'm still flushing the artificial sugar from my system or if they were just blah apples. Time will tell. DH did have one of the eclairs last night and if he doesn't have the other today it'll be fed to the disposal. It is my plan to resume my avoidable sugar free days and I don't need that stupid temptation hanging around at sundown like some vampire ready to suck the wind out of my sails. (okay, that was just confusing but I'm leaving it)
I was reflecting on the night stalker snacking as that seems to be a common threat for many of us here. Mine seems to come when I'm at my most vulnerable: sleepy, tired, on my way to bed and the snack drawer grabs me by the throat and pushes food into my mouth. I wondered if I'd be that much of a pushover with other things (drinking, shopping, etc.) and the answer was 'yes'. I reflected many a time when the UPS man has shown up with an unexpected delivery until I remembered 'oh, yeah... you had that thing in your cart at Amazon.. you must have pushed the 'buy now' button when you were sleepy.' Maybe the reason the 'snack stalker' still gets me is it's the last available risk in Bellawood. Perhaps I need a very loud laser beam across the kitchen that would sound and wake me; shake me out of the stupor before I begin the shoveling. (I give up.. I just can't help myself today).
Blame it on the rain - my brain is probably water logged. In my efforts to change my reception of the precipitation I decided to go out and play in the rain. I used the time to trim dead vines and just 'be'. I even began singing 'Let it Be' but made up my own lyrics. I sang and laughed, mostly at myself, but even at my dedicated little mushy who hopped up in the lounge chair instead of hovering beneath the patio table. I love that dog.
That's it, that's all I got. Hope you are all having a wonderful sunny Friday where you are. Only one photo today (I know, Whew) and I hope you like it. I have been playing with some of the photo enhancement programs available.
Bella
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