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Well, it's 3:30 here in Bellawood and I just now sat back down at ye old desk - been running around all day packing for a weekend trade show. I likely won't journal until Sunday or Monday unless something really extraordinary happens as I'll only carry my Kindle with me.
I am going to a 'chili supper' fund raiser blah blah thing in 1/2 hour so I'll be quick - will try to stop being so self involved and get out and catch up on y'alls journals sometime this eve.
I just wanted to record this for my memory in case I decide to repeat this experiment on myself again.
This morning because of the fasting for the lab work I wanted to push the limits of 'feeling hungry' and test how long it would take to recover.
I really really really do not know if that commentary about spiking blood sugar is true or not or if it's something I'm just feeling because I assume it (( mental, like giving placebo's for pain pills )) but ... I have not been able to recover from that hunger all day.
I've eaten small portions and mindfully but nothing is settling the hunger, bringing back my energy or calming my hands trembling (one of the things I use to identify hunger).
And yes, I've had plenty of water ~ so much so that I'm sloshing it seems ~ so I'm not dehydrated.
I do recognize that my emotions are at level Red in reaction to MH's intolerable mood today, worrying about packing everything for the show, and the ironic timing that every customer in my store today has been a complete jerk. Then again, they could be feeding off my bad vibes and we have a whole cause and effect thing going on.
Nonetheless, I shall not be testing 'how long can you go' again anytime soon.
So I'm recording this to remember (as there is something about written word that affixes itself in my brain better than just thoughts) but also as my pre-chili supper conversation to myself:
This does NOT give me the right to overeat at the chili supper. All of the crap that happened today is just THAT ..crap and nonsense. I will go over there and enjoy the chili (as much as I can as I don't like chili) and do my part for the greater good of the Rotary Club.
I will try to make the obligatory small talk and this is going to be a fantastic evening. Yes, it is. The sun is shining and tomorrow is another day.
Yay team - pep talk over.
Bella
Diet Calendar Entries for 28 February 2013:
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1544 kcal
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Fat: 79.35g | Prot: 89.03g | Carb: 127.90g.
Breakfast: Spectrum Flax, Nostimo, Kraft Jalapeno String. Lunch: Ham, Marc Almonds, Sartori, Navy Beans, Cornbread. Dinner: Original Corn Chips, Chili. Snacks/Other: Simply Kraft Cottage Cheese, Strawberries. more...
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In my opinion "trembling hands" are too far past hungry and could lead to binging on what ever I can get my hands on fast, but that is me personally. I also believe in the blood sugar spikes and drops after doing a 4hr test and the shakes starting after 2. Also if chol is high but your ratio good, "don't worry be happy". Sometimes separation from H is the best medicine, good time for a trade show!
28 Feb 13 by member: 2toofat
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Good idea to come back and record stuff - one of the ways we learn. Hope you do enjoy the evening. Good job on keeping your cool all day. Also hope you enjoy being away this weekend even though you are working. See you Monday. Will miss your wit and humour.
28 Feb 13 by member: sarahsmum
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Another scientist in the making, Dr Goldie?!? Thanks for posting as it is a good reminder to all of us -- that while only eating when we're truly hungry, we also don't want to get too hungry which especially applies to the first meal of the day. Hope you were able to enjoy the chili dinner! I agree that with DH's mood, getting away this weekend is a blessing, even if it involves work. Hope you can take some time for yourself! xoxox
01 Mar 13 by member: Ruhu
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Those hunger moments happen to me too. Sometimes I just can't get enough. I just record it all no matter how bad it looks and know that in a couple of days I can get back on track. No biggie! Hope your weekend show is successful and the weather is beautiful if you are outside.
01 Mar 13 by member: Neptunebch
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Hoping for a successful trade show- being on your feet all weekend "selling" is draining. Glad you learned a good lesson...no more Bella testing : )
01 Mar 13 by member: sharonfriz
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I love your new diet title. It fits you! I struggle with blood sugar issues and tell everyone that if my hands are shaking you are one comment away from having your head torn off. Then they bring me food! It must be pretty scary to them! I hope you have a great weekend at the trade show!
02 Mar 13 by member: RiverRes
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I know you are busy working but I miss you :)
03 Mar 13 by member: sarahsmum
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Awww...Isabel - I'm home now, thank you. Got in last night - finished my breakfast, caught up on a few journals, about to add my own. Thank you my friend. @Paula - thank you ~ I've tried to move from recovery (one day, one bite at a time) into a more settled mode - who knows what I'll call it next..maybe 'I finally freaking did it?' Of course, that will have to wait for at least 2 years to confirm. @Sharon - yeah, trade shows, very draining. My customer base multiplies by 100 and I have to say the same thing over and over and encounter an expanded base of rudeness... yikes... but we do what we do, right? @Neptune - show is inside. I actually did a trade show outside ONCE - it was in JULY in the south and no shelter ~ I thought I was going to have a heatstroke. But nice thought. Wish I did gardens or flowers ~ with an awning! @Angel - no, hon, I'll never reach your level of research ~ just still working on identifying hunger so I eat to resolve it not on a schedule -- will be journaling about that in a bit as I observed something interesting while at the show. @Sandi - yeah, trembling hands was a hard recovery. I won't be experimenting again on that one anytime soon. I sometimes think this is where that 'small snacks, or 6small meals instead of 3 large' gets convuluted... some people just trying to keep their blood sugar stable and others thinking something else. Ahh well, live and learn. Thanks again everyone!
03 Mar 13 by member: FullaBella
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Oh big huge hugs you lovely lady! Sounds like a day you were happy to see the back side of, and I'm glad you didn't kill anyone, even those that deserved at least minor injuries. WHY are people so often so rude? I do not understand why the thing that used to be called "common courtesy" is these days so uncommon! Kudos to you for getting through it without a binge, not sure I could have done that!
03 Mar 13 by member: CollyMP
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@Colly - thank you hon. You know, sometimes I want to wear a button or TShirt that reads 'I haven't killed anyone all day...' just to warn a few that think 'winning through intimidation' is still the behavior of the day. At the end of the day, the chili actually finished off my hunger - although I wasn't happy with the fact that I felt the need to scrape the pattern off the bottom of the bowl I was relieved it was only a 12oz bowl and I exercised enough restraint to NOT go back for seconds or fill it full of crackers. Baby steps :-) No more hunger experiments especially on red level alert days, LOL.
03 Mar 13 by member: FullaBella
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