Djburney's Journal, 08 February 2013

I'm usually against using terms for my weight loss process such as battling, fighting, butt-kicking, and other combative or negative terms. I prefer to approach it from a loving-myself point of view. Treating myself like I would my child, lovingly giving my body what it needs to be healthy and strong. HOWEVER....I'm feeling a bit of both lately...I am certainly doing this for the right reasons, but it feels like every ounce now is a struggle. Not to keep from eating, I have strong will and determination for it, but I have to track every bite, pay attention to everything that goes in my mouth without wavering, and that can get exhausting.

The biggest and best things in my life are the ones that I've had to work for over a long period of time. My education (master's level degree), raising my children (18 and 27 now), and my weight loss. It's coming up to a year that I started this (March 10). I thought I would be at my goal by now, but in the process and the plateau, I've learned what I need to do to maintain my weight loss; I've learned that no matter how much I lose, I'll never be perfect, and that's ok; I've learned patience and the ability to see the "big picture"; I've learned that I'm not willing to settle for "almost there," whether it is in my weight loss, my career, my love life, or my relationships with friends and family.

I'm striving to be the best I can be in this weight loss area now. If that means giving up wine for a while, I can do it. If it means that I take the time to enter my food and write these journals and make myself get out and walk, I can do it. I AM almost there, and it's almost good enough...but almost is not enough.

It's a beautiful day...

191.4 lb Lost so far: 0 lb.    Still to go: 27.4 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.

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690 kcal

Fat: 53.67g | Prot: 44.51g | Carb: 6.07g.   Breakfast: Mexican Style Shredded Cheese, Bacon, Egg, Heavy Cream. Lunch: Butter , Chicken Breast (Skin Not Eaten), Zucchini , Feta Cheese . more...