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HELLO 2020!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It has been a long time since I was in Fatsecret. I have to admit I was doing so much better when I was involved in Faatsecret. I have gone through so much drama in my life and made it out on the other side. The last straw happened a year ago when I was diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes. Diabetes is not new to my family but has taken my Grandmother and mother from this world. I am tired of my weight and being tired.
Weight has been an issue with me all of my life. First off I was picked in school and at home for being 115 lbs every single day. I actually went out looking for ways to gain weight in order to stop the bullying. Amazing how time has changed these days it is the opposite now I am picked at for being overweight and this is from my only living relative a twin brother who refers to me as THE COW or the b-----. (Walked away from him 13 years now and refuse to answer calls from him as all he ever call me now demanding $$) Co-workers (all in early 20-30) who talk about me behind my back. I eat lunch at my desk everyday and spend much of every work day in my cubicle listening to books on CD as there conversations don't include me unless they want the opinion of an Afro-American. I became a member of a church 3 years ago that with the pastors help, showed me how to come back out of the shell I had incased myself in but over the years I have been taking negative comments from some of the members, because I am not JAMAICAN and most of this church is made up of Jamicans ranging from 50-90 year olds. In three years I have managed to over look those comments as they are coming from people who really don't have a faith filled life and look down on everyone else around them and are not willing to change and are set in there ways. The pastor tried for 3 years to change this culture and finally decided to leave and take a full time job else where in the country after obtaining her doctorial degree as she was not Jamacian either. I don't see color, class or status but human beings that need to change for the better. I am there for people when a love one passes away, when they need a hot plate of food or a ride to the local grocery store. I have even paid a past due light bill or telephone bill so that they could feel that someone carried but I don't have that kind of support from these people. I am writing this now to one admit that this was my life and how I lived it.
I have come to the realization that I must surround myself with people who are motivated to move forward in this world with health, heart, happiness and positive out pouring of love. I realize that people hate change, but I can't live around or socialize with TOXIC energy any longer and I am not going through another year of self neglect and doing everything to make other people happy an allowing them to make me miserable. (My mother taught us to be careful who you associate with as you will become like them if your not aware of your own mind.)
I made a promise to myself in 2020 this is the year for ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I started of the this year by taking the first week off work and church to get my head and heart focused on getting back what I have lost over the years and finding me.
This is the 3 day of a new year and I have cleaned my apartment and gotten rid of reminders of the past and people. Yesterday I started walking on the treadmill again and dusted off my recumbent bike. Effective as of today I went to the optometrist to get my eye checked and get new glasses to see this year clearly. My Medical doctor says that I did a full reversal in my test scores from a year ago, but I need to get my weight under control to maintain my diabetes. Effective as an hour ago I ordered my first FITBIT from QVC and will start wearing it everyday once it arrives.
I woke up this morning and found out that OPRAH was here in Ft. Lauderdale, Florida. She spoke about changes for weight, wellness and over all living your best life.
This is my motivation for 2020 and I hope to have the support of you as I move forward on this Journey of weight loss with you.
HELP, SUPPORT AND VALIDATION NEED NO OTHERS NEED APPLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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193.0 lb
Lost so far: 0 lb.
Still to go: 53.0 lb.
Diet followed poorly.
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Diet Calendar Entry for 03 January 2020:
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1332 kcal
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Fat: 53.89g | Prot: 83.03g | Carb: 144.22g.
Breakfast: Bananas, Fuji Apples. Lunch: Boston Market Creamed Spinach, Boston Market Garlic Dill New Potatoes, Boston Market Rotisserie Chicken. Dinner: Simply Nature Reduced Sodium Sprouted 7 Grain Bread, Simply Nature Knock Your Sprouts off, Red Onions, Green Giant Hass Avocado, Happy Farms Deli Sliced Mild Cheddar Cheese, Egg White, Baby Spinach. more...
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losing 0.1 lb a week
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