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Hi Journal,
I writing in you for therapy. I need some right now.
Stress has been extremely high recently.
1) I have an adult son with special needs who is going through a rough patch for the last 3 weeks and it takes a lot of strength, courage and patience to keep all calm in my house even though I am screaming on the inside "My head is under water"
2) My workload in the office is through the roof as I wrap up the year before heading for vacation for 10 days starting Dec 23rd. I have been glued to my desk and this has been keeping me away from lunchtime power walks which helped my out tremendously both mentally and physically.
3) The commute has been brutal lately and we can't adjust our evening departure times just because(with an average of 10 us on the van, it is almost impossible to get all to leave early). As a result, when I walk in my door after hours on the road, I now have less than 2 hrs before I have to go to sleep. (In 2018, I may have to sacrifice a little sleep and get up @ 4 AM Mon and Wed to get in 20 minutes of HIIT runs on the treadmill, Tues & Fri evenings, 45 minutes Weight training, Saturday & Sunday long walks / runs. I have to play around and see what works for me)
OK. Now that is off my chest, I need you to know my FS family, you are very important to me. Thanks for being there for me. I will get past this and I am getting stronger somehow some way and I will end with...
I can do this.
-Ches
By the way, this morning I as soon as I got in the office and unlocked my drawer, I opened a zip lock back that had 3 emergency cookies in it, emptied the contents into the trash to my right, poured the tail end of my coffee onto it and also poured some Apple Cider Vinegar onto it (bye bye poison happiness)
:)
Diet Calendar Entries for 19 December 2017:
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1940 kcal
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Fat: 155.13g | Prot: 98.34g | Carb: 41.91g.
Breakfast: Water, Green Tea, Garden of Life Perfect Food Raw Organic Green Super Food, SciVation Xtend Intra-Workout Catalyst Mango Nectar, Great Value Half & Half, Coffee. Lunch: Panda Express Mongolian Beef, Publix Chicken Salad, Gold Emblem Deluxe Mixed Nuts, Meatballs with Sauce (Mixture), Extra Virgin Olive Oil, Feta Cheese, Mixed Salad Greens, Grilled Chicken, Polar Seltzer Raspberry Lime. Dinner: Kroger Deli Thin Sliced Pepperoni, Fried Egg. Snacks/Other: Great Value Half & Half, Tea (Brewed). more...
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