jsfantome's Journal, 12 December 2011

Pushing thru the desire to be lazy...must head out to the gym. Had a brief conversation w/ my hubby yesterday about Christmas, parties, and eating. (so what else is new?)

Basically, he was pre-justifying his desire to CHEAT! Why the capital letters?? Because I really don't like that word!

He choose whatever he wants to... whatever makes him happy, and he will likely easily recover and go right back to eating low carb when it's over. We talked about the ... or not... what if the cravings and the return to old favorites set him up to fail... he didn't care. He is having his 'traditionals' no matter what I said. ;)

And for a little while in this conversation I started to feel like, what the heck? coming up on 3 years of changing my life, working towards 'better health' for me... and for my family... I DESERVE... I'VE EARNED IT.... IT'S ONE DAY A YEAR!

Really, Paula? Get a grip!

That mentality scares me. Because in the past, that would earn me a big FAT fail! And you'd be seeing me fall by the wayside like so many others, and yes!!! it is a battle. And for me...it's a constant battle! But I will not keep losing ground. I will keep moving forward. I do want this 'healthy' lifestyle, MORE than I want a couple of bites of some yummy delish somethingorother...I DO! So I CHOOSE to not indulge.

Hubby could not fathom what I was talking about! (he obviously is not drive to eat by hormonal reactions ;)

I could let this marinate somemore, and likely work my way all the way to a full fledged pity party... and screw myself over the next two weeks. But I am not going to do that.

TRIGGERS... jealousy. plain and simple. MUST BE NICE, HONEY! And wish it were me...but if wishes were dishes, I'd have a full set!

I will be making 90% of the foods around the house for the upcoming holidays, parties, etc... so I will make an abundance of things I CAN eat, things I LOVE, and things I find fully satisfying and ON MY PLAN! If they are not happy about the disappearance of my traditional Lasagna, or homemade Mac & Cheese for the Party Buffet...oh, well!

I know that sounds kinda mean? huh? But it's not. It's actually exactly what needs to happen around here. None of these people have any idea the effort, work, and constitution this way of eating has had to develop in me! I have worked too hard, and come tooooo far... to be beaten by a big fat guy in a red suit, that I don't even believe in! Celebrating my Lord's birth...well, I can do that Low Carb w/ my eyes blindfolded and my hands tied behind my back !!! Much Love!

Diet Calendar Entries for 12 December 2011:
1527 kcal Fat: 115.49g | Prot: 103.45g | Carb: 16.14g.   Breakfast: water (6-10 AM), hidden carbs, coffee (8oz) black, eggland's best eggs (9AM) (overeasy), bacon (9AM). Lunch: water , ground beef, sour cream, cheddar cheese, broccoli, butter . Dinner: water (4-6), hidden carbs, Fresh Mild Italian Sausage, cucumber, romaine, fresh parm cheese (1 oz.), water . more...
1811 kcal Activities & Exercise: Walking (brisk) - 4/mph - 40 minutes, Resting - 15 hours and 20 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...

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Actually, making healthier foods is a great idea. People will get used to it and you can make many foods lighter without people knowing it. Good for you for sticking to healthy eating during the holidays. 
12 Dec 11 by member: Suzi161
We all gotta do what we all gotta do. I could never NEVER have a Christmas dinner classic style again. I want all that, and I will have it. However, I have full sympathy for you and everyone else who feel that they are better off staying in the "short leash" on days like this and not risking falling back in the old groove. I totally respect that. If you feel like you could fall back, then it's better to simply stay safe. You're doing so well. I hope your hubby makes it thought is safely.  
12 Dec 11 by member: kingkeld
If they want a fatty-fat dish, they can bring it themselves and eat it in the backyard so they don't tempt you.. hahaha... As for going to other people's holiday parties, just make sure to bring your own healthy dish to share (if it's potluck style) so you make sure you have at least ONE healthy option.. otherwise just eat your own healthy supper before you go so you aren't so hungry that you scarf down the cookies and eggnog.. That's what I did at our office xmas party - I brought a HUGE veggie platter so that I had something good to snack on all night instead of everything else - worked like a charm! I still had a couple tiny tastes of other things, but just a little taste.. I can't do total deprivation or I'd go crazy. Moderation is the key, but until you get to the point where you can stop after a taste, I'd say the best idea is to keep it out of the house!!! More power to you!! 
12 Dec 11 by member: erika2633
Everyone is sooooo different! I know where I will end up if I don't pay attention...FAT AGAIN! There is no sweet treat worth that, not to me! I need to be free of all that. They have to make their choices, I make mine & you make yours. It's hard Not to compare, but we shouldn't. Stay true & steady to your goals, your beliefs...and smile & be happy because you are free!  
12 Dec 11 by member: gg-girl
I just know myself...like I said "TRIGGERS... jealousy. plain and simple. MUST BE NICE, HONEY! And wish it were me...but if wishes were dishes, I'd have a full set!" - Had an OUT STRAIGHT BUSY DAY, but still haven't made it to the gym...but I am going! in about 1/2 an hour. Better late than not at all! Think my fat cells care what time it is??? ;) Much Love.  
12 Dec 11 by member: jsfantome
Stick to your guns Paula, and just be there for your husband, if he needs you when the pounds creep up on him again; he'll need you, and try not to say, "I told you so". Everyone has there demons, to deal with this time of the year, and good cooking, whether we choose to recognize it as such, is one of them. I know, I have to face them at every family gathering, and hope that the damage will be minimal, when it's all said and done. 
12 Dec 11 by member: ShyGuy
Back from the gym...I WENT...YEAH ME! At least I didn't give in to the temptation to blow it off! ;) 
12 Dec 11 by member: jsfantome
Yay, Paula...yeppers, it is a constant struggle for me too. One that I don't always win, but I will not quit. I won't. Sooner or later I will get to my goal weight, and nothing, but nothing is going to stop me or get in my way!!! It may take me the rest of my life, but doggone it, I will absolutely WILL succeed!!! Have a great rest of your evening, my friend!! Love and lots of hugs! <3<3 
12 Dec 11 by member: ctlss
Great job getting to the gym, Paula! The holidays can produce such an emotional tug-of-war between the years and years of food traditions we've all grown up with and perpetuated in our adult lives and the food changes we've brought into our lives relatively recently. Good luck working your way through what will undoubtedly be another successful holiday season for YOU. As for anyone else??? Who knows!!!! You can only steer your own ship. Have a great Tuesday and keep your chin up. 
12 Dec 11 by member: Sandy701
my hubby and i are exact opposites compared to you and your hubby...LOL. i think because i am at goal, i am more lenient with the holiday feasting. i do mostly atkins friendly with a few bites of cheat foods. hubby does not cheat! he has 20lbs more to lose and will not stop until he gets it done! just try not to beat yourself up too much! i give everyone a pat on the back for sticking to any diet or WOE during the holiday season! 
13 Dec 11 by member: mellya1975
Mellya - I know exactly how your hubby feels! And how you do. I was at my goal weight last year at Christmas. And I did allow myself a couple of very little 'treats'. But thruout this year...I went back up a bit. Not much - but it's starting to move back down again, and I am not throwing a monkey into the boiling pot! Just not! Besides, for me... Easter is my all time favorite 'food' holiday... We traditionally have roast leg of lamb w/ mint sauce, and oh, my word...LOVE! So that is my goal. SSSSHHHH it's a secret around here :) But if I can be back to my goal weight and stable by Easter, then I just might go w/ the 'planned indulgence' of that particular holiday! We'll have to see how my hard work pays off between now and then :) 
13 Dec 11 by member: jsfantome
I think when I an home I eat the same foods. I am not preparing any Christmas goodies to eat at home. We do not have many social events~most people seem to have so many! When I am away from home I make the best choices I can with what is available, but I do not sweat the small indulgences. At Thanksgiving I ate a sweet potato and it was delicious and a small piece of pumpkin pie without the crust. I think most people did not notice that I was eating carefully so I did not receive any encouragement to eat more. When I cook at home I always cook a starch for my husband. He enjoys my meals and does not miss dessert because I never made it in the first place! :) I have no kids at home so it is easier for me. Good luck to everyone! 
13 Dec 11 by member: Lenasmom
Hiya,,, just came by to see what you've been up to. I see you are back in control again. Stay strong and good for you as far as your resolve and don't feel jealous cause just look at you. You are the one creating jealousy in others cause you look great! It's been a long journey for you and this is your lifestyle. Just have yourself a merry little Christmas and be a shining star (as you always are) :) 
13 Dec 11 by member: Mom2Boxers
Me, too...just stopped by to see what's going on with you. At Thanksgiving I made all of the usual things, but I made sure that I had plenty of the things I like, too. When a trigger hits me, I acknowledge it and remind myself of how that "feel good" food actually contributed to making me fat and sick. Turns me off fast!  
13 Dec 11 by member: Carlys Mom
It isn't mean. I understand where you are coming from. We all have to do what is best for our journey to our goal. I choose to indulge b/c if I don't I know one day I'll break down and that will be my downfall. For others they can completely say no for however long. Good for you. Do what works for you. As for hubby, he wants to indulge. Once he is back in the gear of losing again you will be there to encourage him, I'm sure. That is great that you are cooking some healthy Holiday goodies. That is a healthy way of dealing with the Christmas parties. Enjoy the season, let loose a little, preferrably by dancing...that burns more calories =) 
13 Dec 11 by member: M.Trublu
Just to let you know your journal entry about getting to the gym even when you didn't feel like it, spurred me on to get back out walking this morning, even though I was going to be SO busy today and didn't seem to have the time for it..... Thanks! 
13 Dec 11 by member: Sandy701
Know you have been stressing alot recently about this holiday....this morning a friend sent me something to bring things into proper perspective....please listen...you will be touched as I was. www.youtube.com/watch_popup?v=OExXItDyWEY&vq=medium Have a blessed day, friend..... 
13 Dec 11 by member: 2227Gwen
Sorry Gwen, your youtube address got cut off, and there is not enough in the part here to figure out what I am looking for??? thanks to everyone for your comments!!! I am doing well today, just busy...will be back later. Much Love. 
13 Dec 11 by member: jsfantome
You are absolutely right - that mentality is what all gets us tight pants, for those of us who struggle, just one treat/bite/day leads to losing a grip on how good it feels to eat what makes us feel good. I think we all wish we could get to the point of handling "just one", some people get there, and some don't - and it takes self reflection to understand which camp you are in. Great job deciding to protect your success and eat what works for you! You're setting yourself up for success by bringing Paula-approved dishes to these parties. Hope you had a great workout! 
13 Dec 11 by member: kate155

     
 

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