Hermiones Mom's Journal, 04 April 2016

Just watched a webinar with John Assaraf and Ari Whitten. One of Ari's tip was: Focus measuring and tracking your lifestyle habits more than the scale.  

I know you'll do it! You've helped me be been better than I was at start. Thank you for that. My best to you. 

Life happens!! its ok, since you recognize the need to make changes...You are one smart cookie!! Back at it as it will always be a life long challenge!! 

I know you can do it! We are all pulling for you! 

Sugar Waffle -- I think that is good advice. You know, I used to go a full month between weigh-ins because I found that the bouncing up and down of my weight just drove me crazy, and if I weighed in every month, the needle always headed down. I might have to go back to that routine for a few months while I focus on how to get myself back in focus. I honestly think that it's become a big problem that there are so many things I can't eat because of the IBS. In the past, I was able to have a "splurge" meal one night each week, when I ate whatever I wanted to, and it got it out of my system --If I started to crave something bad during the week, it was a motivator to wait until Saturday night and splurge on whatever that thing was that I was craving. Now I don't have that option. I start to crave pizza or a milk shake, and I know that if I eat those things I am going to be horribly sick. What a drag. Now I am feeling sorry to myself. Sorry. I have to shake myself loose from this.  

Come on, HM. I know it is hard but we can do it! When I focus on my exercise it pushes me to eat better...and sometimes it just is what it is like when I have one day a month tp drink wine without counting it! Be aware and stay with it. 

I really can't imagine how frustrating this has to be. I know that I've been overly indulgent with myself over the past few months...but my price is simply not seeing a lower number on the scale. Your price I know is far higher. I know you've gotten really creative with the things you CAN have. Have you developed a 'cookbook' of things that are FODMAP acceptible but still indulgent? Perhaps having a splurge available in your back pocket will get you back to your prior system. I know that I have slipped into a pattern of a lot of little "extra" things...that have become a daily norm. That may well work for maintenance, but not quite right now.  

Thanks everyone. I just think that I've hit that point where between what I can't eat because of my allergies and what I can't eat because of IBS and what I shouldn't eat to stay low glycemic -- I'm just plain feeling sorry for myself. I'll be OK, really. I just have to get myself organized again. You don't have to worry that I'll totally fall off the wagon because I went through a full year of being sick almost every day before anyone figured out what was wrong and what to do about it, and I'm not going back there for sure. But I think I have to get organized and make some baked custards and some home made ice cream so that when I start to freak out, there's actually something to eat! I think it's been a mistake the past couple of months that I haven't been taking the time to do this for myself. Thanks for all the support, really. I need it right now. 

I feel if we stay away to long from the things we crave it's worse. splurging doesn't work, a small portion of what you crave can work. Don't kill yourself over it; start over again. We're all here to be your support.  

You've got this Hermoines mom. If you have a moment some time would you post your recipe for custard? I've really been craving Panna cotta and it sounds like your custard might do the trick.  

I think having your little desserts made up ahead of time is the answer. I know things like that help me and getting in the kitchen preparing things ahead of time helps, too .. whether it is a meal or snack. 

Tonight I'm baking up double chocolate oatmeal muffins. Tomorrow I'll make up some dark chocolate baked custards. Friday I'll make coffee ice cream. That should hold me. The trick is that I keep the ice cream and the muffins in the basement freezer, two flights down, which means I have to really think about it before I schlep downstairs to get a helping. Thanks for all the support. It means so much to me.  

Two flights down would not deter me from .... choc o lat a ica creama! I made those words up but .... *fizzling in imagination -a!*