katies71's Journal, 28 February 2019

You are so close to your goal! That’s great! And you did it. YOU did it! Is there a certain weight you had to get down to in order to have the surgery? I know I had to drop some before my Dr would do it. Let me know how I can support you. God bless! 

Hi Katie Stay positive and optimistic. Weight gain will happen at times, but the best thing to do is recognize the root cause of the weight game, learn from it and move on towards the goal. Beating yourself up is not helping. Here is my new saying for people like me who are emotional eater's. "Stress causes Fat, and Fat causes Depression, which leads to more Fat" So now I repeat this if I even feel like stressing or etc.. Losing weight is a battle, meaning we will have good and bad days. So never feel like you're disappointing anyone on here, remember we're all on here for a reason, and that's to motivate and encourage. 

Good for you, Katie! Did you check into the "Unjury" protein powder? That will help you a LOT after surgery, but it can also be a great help to you now. DO NOT, under ANY circumstances, beat yourself up! Do you have a best friend? Try to think of how you would treat your best friend (or the person you love most in the world). Would you say, "You're letting everyone down right now?" or "Your scale is telling you how much you suck!" Answer: "NO," you wouldn't. Try to be nice to yourself. Perhaps you can make a list of everything you do RIGHT in a day! Did you get up and get dressed? (I didn't for SIX days.) Did you get a shower? (I went six days without one, until yesterday.) I'm not saying these things to put MYSELF down, because I totally forgive myself, knowing that my depression really made it virtually impossible for me to do anything else. BUT, I'm getting better now - and SO ARE YOU! You've realized that you need to post, and to weigh, and to be accountable to your FS friends. Go with that! We're all here to support you, and we're rooting for your success! Treat yourself nicely. Reward your good behavior with things like bubble baths, a store-bought facial masque, paint your fingernails, buy a new pair of (smaller) underwear, and take LOTS of "fat pix!" The worse you look in them, the more proud you'll be to show them as "Before" pictures next to the beautiful "After" pix you'll be taking soon. "Two are better than one, because they have a good reward for their labor. For, if they fall, the one will lift up his fellow. But, woe unto him who is alone when he falleth, for he hath not another to lift him up." (The Bible, Ecclesiastes - please excuse the King James English - when I was young, I did all my memorization from that version!) The point is - we've got your back, and we know you've got ours! 

Katie you to need to be nice to yourself as you would be to another person who had posted what you just wrote. It is fine to not be perfect, losing weight is a process with ups and downs. It is normal to be discouraged sometimes and helpful to share how you feel. I would like you to read the above post and encourage this woman. Think about how you can help her feel good, what she has achieved, and what are some steps to move forward. You will be okay.  

hope everything goes well tomorrow 🙏. u still lost 4 pounds keep it up😁 

This month has been a frozen, hard month. Tomorrow has to be better both of us! 

Thank you all for your kind words...I am much better at supporting others than I am at supporting myself. I'm working on it but clearly I'm not making it a priority lol. @Lynowen I needed to hit 293 to have the surgery but really wanted to lose more prior to my appt tomorrow with the surgeon. I often feel the need to get 110% on the test (sshhh, don't tell anyone), and so I made my "new" goal 280. I guess I just did that to teach myself a lesson about pride going before a fall. @Daisy971 you are totally right but in the downward spiral I often forget this. @Ginger refer to the first sentence of this post lol. @Debbie I did look at the unjury and it looks great, I will be trying it out at the first opportunity. I'm always poor at the end of the month especially now that I can't work. So...soon! Price-wise it would be a big saving over the protein powder that I get now but because I already had it I now have to wait to buy a new bag. Also I am not traditionally good at self-care. You do not want to know how long I'm going between showers right now, simply because I get tired in the middle or I'm dizzy by the end. Getting in and out is a big problem for me so I tend to avoid the situation. Then I get sad because I'm not even showering and then I don't "feel" like showering. It's a stupid vicious cycle. I get dressed every day but honestly it's more like throwing some sweats on over the nightgown because it's too cold to just wear the nightgown. So I don't have a lot going for me right now but the trend is still down...even if this was a bigger uptick than I would like. I didn't gain back to 293 so I still won. Even if it doesn't feel like it, I can't argue the fact that I am down by 9.4 pounds since 2/1/19! I just hate that it isn't more...as per my usual. Again, thank you guys so much. You have no idea how much it helps and I hope that if you need it I can be there for you guys. I always feel like I'm waaaaay more needy than you guys so...you know...if you would like whine a little more or carry on a little...that would REALLY make me feel like less of a sissy-lala. Bwahahahaha 

@katies71 - Sorry, but when I see your MASSIVE weight loss over THREE MONTHS! I'm still like WOW! You are so blessed. Take Care! 

I applaud people who are able to share. I will be thinking about you today, hope your doctor appointment goes well. 

I'm so sorry you're feeling bad. ❤ You are in a not-normal situation right now, please keep that in mind. And also be good to yourself. It's okay to be honest and acknowledge what areas need a bit more attention, problem solving and creativity. ❤ Hang in there. You really are doing well. 😊 

Beyond soup, smoothies, and shakes, I don't have a lot of recommendations. It's like someone else has control over what you eat. I'm sorry you are going through this. I know you are smart and determined-Keep Plugging At It! You'll find a way. 

Katie, we all go through these rough bouts. Hopeless, almost. Lazy patterns. It is hard work carrying 100-200 lbs every minute of every day. It also creates big heaves and hoes on your hormones. Those pesky fat cells make exaggerated swings in our emotions and mentation, make us sleepy and weepy. Sometimes I forget, I need to push more magnesium and potassium to balance energy levels. The more you drink, the more minerals you flush out. You gotta replenish! No easy road for us. I’ve been taking a long break and starting to get back into it. I feel like what you wrote, could’ve been me. Hang in there!  

if u need to vent about your weight and the woes that come with trying to control it then this is the place to do it ☺ everyone here is on a similar journey. chin up! as long as you're making any effort at all you'll get there. 😉 bad days happen. dont let them get the best of ya. ✌ 

Katie, don’t give up! Keep going and goin and going. You can do everything. You will be what you want. 👉🏼👍 

You could never let us down. Remember, you are doing this for you and no one else. 😘🙋 

Its our own private battles every day. Keep after it day by day, don't be hard on yourself when you slip up, just get back on that pony and ride. :)  

Try eating eggs peas beans frozen yogurt ice cream mashed potatoes sweet potatoes