Day 4 of a planned 5 day fast
First, a big thank you for all the comments and support! I really appreciate it and it keeps me strong when doubt creeps in.
Yesterday was a really bad day emotionally. I thought my biggest issue was the lack of weight loss on the fast, then as I started to go on my morning run I found out that a good friend was in the hospital with a life threatening condition (had one operation and is ok for now but another operation scheduled for today - - took all day for this to play out). Then I get to work and get an email that a professional organization that I have been a member of for 11 years did not renew me. This is a huge loss of prestige and nearly $200 a month in cloud server credits.
So yesterday was a McDonald's Big Breakfast, McDonald's super-size Big Mac meal (with fries and vanilla shake), and an ultimate cheese burger meal from Jack in the box. Haagen daz strawberry ice cream (the entire pint) would have been required before bed time.
But, I am on a fast so I only drank green tea and had a cup of homemade bone broth. My coworkers were more upset about the professional organization than I was. They were hopping mad. I told them that these things happen and I will just re-apply next year.
For me, there is this 'calm mental zone' that I get in during a fast. I love it. I don't fly off the handle. I can "see" the emotion but I am a 'step away from it' and it is like I am an observer to it and have the opportunity to make a logical response (sometimes I still decide to tell a person what my emotion is, but in a way that won’t get me fired).
Anyway, I did lose a pound yesterday but I am still 181. Tomorrow I will record whatever weight I wake up at. I will STILL try to 'game' the numbers by not taking any Hi-Lyte electrolyte concentrate and going for a 5 mile run (I know, I should not care about the scale number but I know there are many of you who understand) .
Gonna try to post a picture from my Microsoft Health site (yes I am the last guy on the planet who still has a Microsoft Band fitness tracker!). I post it to remind myself how much I have to be thankful for. I can run and work out. This is a privilege to be grateful for.
