mylahxandermom's Journal, 02 February 2018

I’m having a hard time accepting that I am this size. As someone who has lost a lot of weight fast my brain is having trouble catching up. I actually felt guilty looking at the size medium and small clothes. I was always the “fat” sister and friend. It’s seriously been a part of my identity for so long I’m having trouble getting my brain on board. In the summer we are moving back to my home town where my sisters and mom who have always been smaller than me live. My husband is afraid I’ll return to old habits when we move back. I’m afraid I’m going to hear a lot of negative remarks out of jealousy. I went into a plus size store today because I fit in the smallest size now, but didn’t want to spend that much on pants I may not fit into soon. I also went into a few other stores but I felt so out of place. Going to talk to my doctor o. Monday

Diet Calendar Entry for 02 February 2018:
2887 kcal Activities & Exercise: Fitbit - 24 hours. more...

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If you fear jealousy, you must have your reasons. Jealous people will offer you all kinds of bad food and you will have to resist it. At least you are aware ahead of time and can think of some ways to avoid it, plan it! We should all respect one another and share a person`s joy and their accomplishments but as we know not everyone is like that! Plan ahead and you will be strong and just fine! 
02 Feb 18 by member: Charlotte_15
You should feel proud of what you've accomplished. Try to get some TLC in and get a massage or something comfy to wear. Take a soak, maybe. I hope you find your happy. 💛 
02 Feb 18 by member: Redge515
I hope they threw you out of that store, you are amazing! Shop in a different store no reminders of fat clothes Sweetie! You have been through so much more than most and have conquered all of it! You continue to inspire me and everyone here! You hold strong family should be more supportive but unfortunately it isnt always the case. Take that jealousy and turn it positive, love you hugs❤️ 
02 Feb 18 by member: 8Patty
Try to pick out some new friends that can add a positive affect to your journey through life. Stay fit happy and positive. Remember this is your journey, and add love for yourself while you travel. 
02 Feb 18 by member: ccsm325
OMG, look how great you look, I was looking at your profile and how much you have lost. You have support HERE. We are here for you. Sounds like your husband is too. I bet you got this. 
02 Feb 18 by member: RiverratJ
Some suggestions: Get clothes that are fitted rather than loose; Wear your shirts tucked into your pants / skirts. When your clothes fit more snugly, you tend to be more conscious of eating right. Also, visualize yourself as a thin person: Close you eyes, visualize the body size you want to get to or to maintain, and enjoy the picture. Seeing differences between that picture and what you see in the mirror are very powerful motivators. 
02 Feb 18 by member: gz9gjg
Also: check out the thrift stores like Goodwill. I have gotten some outrageous bargains on clothes that I wear a few months while I continue losing weight. Then I donate them back! 
02 Feb 18 by member: gz9gjg
Just remember, you are doing this for yourself. It doesn't matter what anyone else thinks. 
02 Feb 18 by member: ApacheTiger37
Being a veteran myself and a prior military wife, you got this. You have been the “single mom” while he was deployed and did a fantastic job of loosing weight. You can handle any comments that come your way. You are strong! ❤️ 
02 Feb 18 by member: Sirick
I know this feeling. Our fat becomes our security because we are so accustomed to it’s prescience and that is what becomes “normal”. But the things is...it does comfort it strains. And it doesn’t help it hurts. Fat holds you back. So i say explore and enjoy this better, freer you. Think of it it a new way to discover what you do like and want and allow yourself to feel happy. Everyone deserves to be happy! Congrats on all your hard work 
02 Feb 18 by member: ahosier03
Thrift stores are always a great option. I dealt with the sister jealousy thing. I don't think there is any malice to it. Rather it challenges an accepted dynamic. Like you, I was the fat sister. That was my role. And then I wasn't! My weight loss has happened in increments over the years (90 + pounds) and along the way, well into adulthood and then middle age, I found my inner athlete and my inner fashionista etc. It is still amazing to me. And I think it still challenges them and me too. But it is so worth it. Props to you! 
02 Feb 18 by member: TtinaBee
PS: GET RID OF YOUR BIGGER SIZED CLOTHES. You won't need them. :-) 
02 Feb 18 by member: TtinaBee
I'm new here, and can relate to your posting. I love the responses too. I plan on taking the advice on your posting for me...once I start losing weight too. Great advice from everyone. 
02 Feb 18 by member: Cammy Jo
**hugs*** 
02 Feb 18 by member: Jitterbug23
Thank you all. Recently donated tons of my old clothes . It will work out just a lot going on in my brain.  
02 Feb 18 by member: mylahxandermom
Absolutely! I think when I was fat, I stopped looking at my body - it was as if only my face was reflected in the mirror. Now I look at myself and I am critical - I don't let myself off the hook when I gain, get lazy, or eat unhealthy. To reset my mental image, it took wearing closer fitting clothes and about 3 months. 
03 Feb 18 by member: gz9gjg

     
 

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