|Start Weight:||(27 May 13) 240.0 lb|
|Current Weight:||(03 Feb 14) 217.0 lb|
|Goal Weight:||170.0 lb|
following: ManVsAna's own diet
performance: losing 2.5 lb a week
I'm a 25 year old male anorexia sufferer who's been stuck in a repeating cycle since I was about 10. I notice I'm gaining weight, stop eating, drop down to a dangerously low weight very quickly, the health issues linked with being underweight start to show up, I panic, force myself to eat more because I remember how bad Ana made my health in the past, start gaining weight, notice I'm gaining weigh, stop eating again. . .and the cycle repeats.
Problem is every time I lose weight I do so in the worst of ways because of Ana, I starve myself and I have got to break this cycle. That's why I signed up, so I can actually track my intake and make the right choices to get back down to my ideal weight the healthy way and stay there. No more of this ending up skin and bones again. Of course that is easier said than done and I know it.
I'm at my heaviest right now, weighing in at 240 when I stand at 6'1". This is too heavy, not horrid but still too heavy. The old Ana habits are showing up yet again and I don't want to succumb to them, again.
Just because someone isn't skinny at the moment doesn't mean they've beaten anorexia, it can always come back and, right now, for me, it is. I need to lose weight, but not the way my anorexia has caused me to in the past.
95 was my lowest weight, followed by 120 and then, two years ago, 140. I never want to end up that small again. But 240 isn't healthy either.