billtech66's Journal, 08 June 2015

2pm, 6/8/15;
Thank you so much for a ll the caring support and ideas. :)
So, I had the biopsy done this morning before 11am.
My notes:
Katherine said Dr. recommended freezing until gone. several visits. After talking & measuring it (5mm), she agreed to do another 6mm biopsy, have main Dr. look at it. I took video of this after asking it it’s okay. Then had her look at and freeze (Liquid Nitrogen) 2 small spots on my forehead, above right eye and to left of left eye. then a small brown spot on my back, left of spine between shoulder blades. She burned that one the most, hurts the most. (but that pain gone by 1:50pm.)
She says don’ t remove the steri strips, no showers for 2 days, NO heavy lifting, no bending over for at least 2 days. only change top bandage later. Helper gave me 7 circular bandages and some sample anti biotic and the copy of main Dr.s assessment of last biopsy.
I told Katherine “you’re the best!” she smiled."
Simple procedure in house, no 'surgery' involved, but she did do the core biopsy which is 6mm circle all the way down to bone. Then three stitches.
To remove stitches in 7 days.

I'm doing fine, I just turn off the pain. :)

Thanks again. :)
BTW:
how to: TURN OFF PAIN, INSTANTLY

1. Most important, Learn to meditate. The 6 steps at http://www.wikihow.com/Overcome-Physical-Pain-With-Your-Mind is a good way to do that. Meditating is LETTING GO.
2. FOCUS ON the pain.
3. Go TOWARDS it, instead of away from it. As described, it's just warning you. Going away from it turns up the volume. :) Going right into the pain turns it DOWN. (I once banged my ankle on a weight training machine, giving me huge lightening bolts of pain up to my neck! I focused on it, which turned it down to a little tiny sensation at my ankle. Wondering if it had subsided on it's own, I backed off from the pain, and it resumed with agonizing lightening bolts all the way back up to my neck again. But, I focussed again, and held my attention on the spot, which was again just a tiny sensation at my left ankle, for a few minutes until it was gone.)
4. Practice. Practice meditating to the point that you can do it instantly. Meditating is just stopping thinking, letting go of everything. No judgements, no self criticism (negative self talk), or searching for a way to place blame. No recrimination at all. Instead, Remembering a time when you were peaceful, relaxed, serene. and just going to that state of mind. and holding it. That is what we can do: go instantly to that peaceful, serene state of mind, anytime, anywhere. Once we've practiced like this, We don't need to have our eyes closed, or be sitting a certain way, or laying down, or focussed on breathing. That is just to LEARN to meditate. (One day while driving, late for an appointment, seeing the green light ahead, I noticed that I had a habit of just letting go, [of meditating instantly], unconsciously turning off my concern that the light would turn yellow, then red before I got there. If the light did change, I found I didn't care. It didn't matter. I was serene.)
5. Once at this stage of learning, now move to learning to pay attention to where your consciousness is. Where your consciousness is in your body. Notice where are you aware the most? If your nose itches, your consciousness may shift to there. If there's a noise, it may shift to outside yourself. But I've found that it drifts around. So pay attention to where you are aware. Shift to meditate state, Put your focus (now you know how to do that) inside your head, between your eyes and push out with your consciousness, staying in the meditative state. 
6. Pushing out hard enough and far enough (only a foot or so) turns off pain, anxiety, fear, anger. (I have turned down extreme kidney stone pain from level 10 of 10, to 3 of 10. I have used this technique instead of Novocain at the dentist for 40 years. and I use this every day countless times to turn off small and large pain, anxiety, and even hiccups. So, I KNOW it's possible, even very easy, to turn OFF extreme pain, both chronic pain like headaches, or sudden physical injuries. PRACTICE :)

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