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**RAYOR**
Ok so, this is going to be a rant about I'm sure in the grand scheme of things something pretty stupid. but, none the less, I'm going to do it.
I'm SO SICK and tired of my family. My brother is so freaking immature. he thinks it's ok to say hurtful things to me and then expect me to just suck it up and not be mad at him anymore. WELL. F*CK YOU. yeah, i said the big F word. I'm just SO MAD AT HIM. I spoke the TRUTH and he can't handle it because his head is so far up his butt he can't see ANYTHING. He even put crap on FB. OK. HOW freaking IMMATURE is THAT!!! and hs is almost 40!!! then he sends me these texts yesterday, that I did not and will not read, and ends with...'ok, well have a nice day and call me'. UMMMMMMMMM that's a BIG HELL NO! This is all over my dad. My brother did some pretty shady stuff and I called him on it and because of that, I'm all sorts of a b*tch. well, deal with it.
I'm also sick of being everyones freaking punching bag. If you have something wrong, DEAL WITH IT and leave me the hell out of it. I'm NOT here for you to abuse!!!!! I'm dealing with MY CRAP. I'm NOT taking it out on others. as a matter of fact, I really DOn'T even say anything about my crap unless it's on FS or MFP. Pretty sad really.
I'm sick of it. I'm sick of having things thrown in my face. I'm sick of trying to make everyone else happy and screw my feelings. I'm a PERSON TOO! I'm not in charge of fixing everyones freaking problems or making everyone better. I'm in charge of ME. that's it. I can't MAKE anyone else happy, better, calm, relax, smile, healhty, eat, take their meds, wash their dishes, wash their clothes, talk to them so they aren't lonely on top of studying for MY FREAKING FUTURE, taking care of MYSELF, trying to lose freaking weight and really...not turning into a freaking serial killer and knocking off my whole freaking family!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok, obviously I'm not going to turn into the new Americas most wanted, but seriously...something has to give.
Ok, rant over.
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GOOD FOR YOU. I totally understand how stressful family can be and it sounds like you are in the process of letting it all go!!!! It is so hard when it is family to take care of yourself. Don't forget you are the only one of you so you need to take care of yourself. Hopefully you can take a few minutes today and sit in the quiet and meditate, clear your mind and re-center and re-focus. It is odd how powerful 5 minutes of complete silence can be. Hope your day gets better and your family stressors resolve themselves.
28 Feb 12 by member: wichitaks
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Family can definitely be stressful, Dawn. You're handlint it. Good for you.
28 Feb 12 by member: Helewis
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Hey Dawn, You will not be a victim any longer; you will not let people emotionally abuse you anymore. When this happens, hit delete key, walk away, ignore and they will grow tired of you. You are a very strong person, and you have worked so hard... You are truly an inspiration...please always rant on FS that is so much better than bingeing!!!
28 Feb 12 by member: BeaugezD
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It's stressing me out just reading it! I know losing weight can be very difficult with all that stress. Some people are so selfish that they don't realize what they are doing to others. I hope you find a way to deal with your family that doesn't ruin your efforts to be successful in everything that you are trying to accomplish for yourself.
28 Feb 12 by member: serafano
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You got the right Idea, let them deal with their own crap and delete it from your life. Dwell in the love, not in the hate.
28 Feb 12 by member: Carolyn Ray
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I also had to cut the TAKERS out of my life. They will drain you in so many ways and think it is perfectly okay. Just do you. Make yourself a priority. Good luck. I have had no family support for years it will get easier, just cut out the takers when you realize what they really are is is liberating!!
28 Feb 12 by member: dixiebelle49
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You just have to let off steam every so often, love; it's healthy to have a rant. And you have the right attitude... you have to look after YOU first, and everyone else can line up. *hug*
28 Feb 12 by member: ferlengheti
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Understand completely! Try and take it out on a workout at the gym if you can. If not, rant away, we are always here!
29 Feb 12 by member: QuirkyNat
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Thank you so much everyone! I'm not really much better today. =( I'm going to the gym to hopefully burn off some aggression. I have a serious blister on my toe from all the exercise I have been doing so I'm not sure how much treaddy I will be able to do. ANYTHING will do. Maybe i will just do the bike then my strength training. IDK. I'm just so frustrated. My GF isnt helping AT ALL. I apparently am to blame for everyy little things that goes wrong in her life. =( blah. i have 3 tests and one paper due within the next 8 days. LOL. if I make it through without totally losing my mind it will be a miracle.
29 Feb 12 by member: HerStrawberri
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Sorry about the blister. Maybe when you can, get you some new gym shoes and socks? Good luck with class!! You can do it!
01 Mar 12 by member: QuirkyNat
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At least you are going to the gym to take out your frustration instead of eating!!!! That is an accomplishment in itself :) Good luck getting through the week.
01 Mar 12 by member: serafano
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