Transformation Butterfly's Journal, 07 April 2016

I have been home sick now for three days and I have to admit that I really needed the down time to think and re-prioritize the way I have been living the last 4 months. I fell back into the same old rut of going to work, working non-stop all day and then coming home and falling into bed and doing the same thing over and over again for 5 days a week and then trying to rest and recover on the weekends. What has this gotten me thus far? Packing on more weight and I have bulges that I never had before, my thighs are rubbing together and I have never had this in my life. Somewhere along the way I lost me from January to now. (Stressing out over work drama,car issues,apartment issues, and hospital bills.) The key word here was "WORRY". Keep in mind I have not had any cakes, cookies, ice cream or chocolate during these months but my weight kept climbing.

I went to visit my 80 year old neighbor on Sunday after church,(I was feeling so good and uplifted that I wanted to share the joy) who has been in the hospital for the last three month and took her a dress to wear so she would be comfortable going to rehab therapy. She took one look at me and said,"What happened your getting FAT" and didn't even bother to say Thanks for the dress. I cut my visit with her short and went home feeling so deflated and disgusted with myself. Worked like a dog on Monday and by that evening I knew I was coming down with a cold how bad I did not know.
Which brings me to today.

I got out of bed this afternoon and pulled on my exercise pants that are now snug and got on my exercise bike for thirty minutes. (Still blowing my nose but working out.) I realize that this may not help me get rid of the cold, but it made me feel better that I was making an effort to get back to me. I have let people dump their garbage on me for the last three months and I kept quiet. NO MORE!. I cleared out my kitchen of all junk food in January and have kept that clear of junk food and now it's time to clear out people in my life that are not supporting me and my efforts to improve me.

The weather has cleared up and I am hoping that by Sunday this nasty cold will be gone so I can go to church and come back home to do some exercise.

Yes, Fat Secret family I am pulling out of the rest stop area of the fat secret highway and getting back into the flow of traffic.

192.0 lb Lost so far: 0 lb.    Still to go: 52.0 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.

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810 kcal

Fat: 15.67g | Prot: 55.30g | Carb: 113.28g.   Breakfast: Orange Juice, Aunt Jemima Homestyle Pancakes. Lunch: Strauss Calf Liver Slices, Russet Potatoes (Flesh and Skin). more...