Janelleas's Journal, 17 September 2008

I made an important breakthough today. I’ve discovered that it was my fear/belief that life could end for me any day or moment and that I had to take advantage of everything life had, including food and dessert that was causing me to eat as if there were no tomorrow. Today I realized that from birth I was under the impression that I was "at risk" of cancer returning and then... other member's of my family died young from all sorts of different things from car wrecks to cancer. Even my ex-husband reminded me constantly that I would not need a "retirement" fund because I probably wouldn't live long enough to ever use it. I was eating food because... why not??!! I might pass up that piece of pie and then get run over by a car... DARN... should've had that pie!!

No more... Im going to remind myself that life's joy's are not about food. There is so much life gives us that is important and food is fine, but it's not going to make the top ten list of things in life that great!

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BRAVO!! Good for you, for realizing this weakness. I think there is a bit of this in all of us and someday, it could be the very reason that we end up sick, or worse. Thanks for sharing and reminding us to love ourselves enough to eat for today and tomorrow, whatever may come. :)  
17 Sep 08 by member: bullytrouble
I like that you're saying it isn't JUST about eating to be healthy to live, but it's in remembering the other joys in life and all the other things to celebrate and cherish. You're right, there is SO much more we can cherish every single day, rather than food. Im happy you have had what I refer to as a defining moment and it certainly seems like such! Yeah for you! 
17 Sep 08 by member: ImLuuvd
thankks BT and Sweeite (ImLuuvd)... I am feeling pretty good about this realization. I am hoping that now that I understand it ... I'll be able to get some control back into my life. I know its still habit and desire involved with my love of food, but at least I have a new direction to work towards. Im rather good about this discovery, hoping it will lead me to a healthier future  
17 Sep 08 by member: Janelleas
I think a lot of us relied on food for comfort and had the "why not!" feeling. It's good that you have come to this realization and can move on without putting so much importance on food. And SHAME SHAME on your ex for saying that to you!  
18 Sep 08 by member: mbhpro
A great reminder to us all! Thank you for sharing your self-discovery. I'm sure you will do great things with this new way of thinking! 
18 Sep 08 by member: amryk
Thanks for your insight. It's so true. I hear the why not ringing in my ears all the time. 
18 Sep 08 by member: sharonfriz
Wow, thanks for opening up and sharing your epiphany with us! I certainly spend time in that same boat going in circles. You got your oars in the water and are paddling forward, hurray!  
18 Sep 08 by member: Karenfit4life
just goes to prove...your not dead until they bury you 6 feet under...live like you have the rest of your life...thank you... 
18 Sep 08 by member: veggies yuk
A great revelation Janelle... so thank you for sharing with us. But you just keep up that great way of thinking and it will take you far! ;o) 
18 Sep 08 by member: MoonLite

     
 

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