Well, I have a new picture.. a way to celebrate 85 lbs lost! WOOHOO! This is the second time I'm trying a diet and it's the most I've lost. My old picture is a reminder of my being at my highest weight ever, 350 lbs, which is a good thing and a bad thing. Good, because it reminds me of where I never want to be again, bad because I feel awful that I just haven't taken the right steps to being healthy before now, and I just had not been caring for myself... I was so completely miserable, everything I did or wanted to do revolved around my weight, when life should be so much more enjoyable for me. I've been overweight since I was 6, I have rarely gotten the chance to just enjoy my life. I mean I even look miserable in this picture:
That was my trip to Ireland last October, and it was absolutely no fun being a 350lb woman on a trip to Ireland. I wanted to have fun, but everything came down to my weight. Sitting in a cramped airplane seat with my belt extender for 9 hours, only to travel to all these historical sights and not being able to walk to some of them. Everything in Ireland is small, too. The cars, the bathrooms AND showers, etc...
My weight is a huge issue every single day of my life... I avoid crowds because I get stared at, I mean full on unmistakable body examination kind of stares, like I'm a freak no matter where I go. I used to get tired out for the day just walking around Wal-mart, I don't anymore. My asthma used to be horrible, I needed an inhaler with me at all times, I hardly use it now. I can't let my weight decide how I live my life any longer, and I'm not. This is where it stops. I'm healthier, happier, and I can do more than I could 11 months ago. This year I may even learn how to ride a bike which is something I never learned how to do. Maybe I'll even feel comfortable enough in my own skin to go to a concert with my husband. All of that means more to me than bread, pasta, and maybe cake too (that's a big maybe lol).
Here I am today and though I've still got 115 lbs more to go, I am still happy that that I've come this far and I can't wait to get to my destination in this transformation of mine to a life of normalcy :)
